Confused, hurt and suddenly attracting more men than he has in years, John’s life is beginning to spin out of control. John hadn’t known what he wanted when Benji came over asking if he wanted to get off, but he certainly hadn’t wanted things to ends badly like they did.
Now he’s got more issues than he knows what to do with, and to make matters worse—or maybe better—John’s family has decided his love life, or lack thereof, needs investigating and meddling into.
Benji—he’s in John’s thoughts too often, but Benji had been clear about not wanting any strings. He couldn’t make it any clearer when John sees him in the lobby one morning.
John finds himself having a date with an attractive older man, and trying to let go of thoughts about Benji. Benji sure isn’t thinking about him. The odd date ends awkwardly, for John at least, and he realises he has to start thinking about everything he says he wants, and what he really wants.
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This review will be for all stories in this series although I may refer to something from each individual one. All of them make one whole.
John is a gay man who happens to suffer from clinical depression. Do not link one with the other. The treatment of his disease feels real as it has no easy or quick fix. It is a real disease that he must deal with for the entirety of his life. The problem is he is letting his fear of a recurring episode rule his life. He lives in Texas, not a friendly place for a gay man.
San Antonio was home, but there were some days when John Weston wished he lived somewhere else. Somewhere cooler, with less humidity and perhaps not governed by a man determined to stomp all over John's rights...
Besides, when it came down to it, he wouldn't leave San Antonio. His family was here, his parents, sisters and brother. Without their love and support, he'd have been lot a long time ago in the morass of depression and hopelessness that had once claimed him...
John had one friend, Henry, who really knew him, knew about the depression that had at times knocked John on his ass. Henry is also gay, but only and always a friend to John, a friend without benefits. John's family is supportive. His Mom wants him to find a nice guy to love and settle down. All of her other kids are married and she wants the same for her son. No matter that Texas does not allow same sex marriages, to her the commitment and love is what is important.
John's apartment neighbors are delightful characters. One has his grandson, Benji, staying with him. The senior citizen neighbors are matchmakers. From the first meeting, John lusted after Benji.
...those dark eyes John had noticed through the peephole were something else. Stunning, really, framed as they were with thick lashes that curled up at the tips, and features that all in all should have had the guy on magazine covers. John was tongue-tied in the face of the attractive man.
Of course, John and Benji hit it off beautifully - NOT! Sparks flew but not all of them lustful. John hasn't had even a hook-up in two years. Benji has issues with commitment as he had recently split with his long time, but two-timing, boyfriend. John had been wild before calling his brother, by mistake, for help. He was afraid to go out or have a drink. He did not want to be that guy again. He did not think he would survive if he did become that guy again.
He was not nervous about possibly running into Benji. John tapped the steering wheel. well, okay, he was, but only because he feared Benji would do his confusing hot and cold routine again. Jesus, John didn't need that in his life. He wanted calm, steady, dependable. Sure, that sounded a little boring, but it wouldn't be. It'd be...safe, he decided. Safe was good. Safe had saved his life, kept him from going out and taking stupid, deadly risks.
For someone who has had no man in his romantic life, now John lusts for Benji and has the interest of an older man. Maybe that would be better than Benji's erratic behavior.
Misunderstandings and miscommunications abound, yet an interesting short. Read all of them one after the other.
So after waiting for Part 2 to be released, there were many ideas that went through my head, (yes I almost sound like the writer here!) as to what I was hoping Bailey would have John would do next. But I have to say, I was soooooo excited when I was finally able to read the second part of the series! One thing I really enjoyed about this part of the series is we got to know a little more about John’s family. It was nice to get to “meet” them and actually learn about them. They aren’t just the family that’s in the background anymore. The confusion that John is feeling with Benji is so lifelike, because even while reading, it was almost like it was happening to someone you know. As funny as it sounds, I am glad that Bailey had John go on the date with the older man, because it helped teach John about his feelings. All in all, once again I can’t wait to see what Bailey has in store for John in the next installment!