Fighting Redemption

by Kate McCarthy

Ryan Kendall is broken. He understands pain. He knows the hand of violence and the ache of loss. He knows what it means to fail those who need you. Being broken doesn’t stop him wanting the one thing he can’t have; Finlay Tanner. Her smile is sweet and her future bright. She’s the girl he grew up with, the girl he loves, the girl he protects from the world, and from himself.

At nineteen, Ryan leaves to join the Australian Army. After years of training he becomes an elite SAS soldier and deploys to the Afghanistan war. His patrol undertakes the most dangerous missions a soldier can face. But no matter how far he runs, or how hard he fights, his need for Finlay won’t let go.

Returning home after six years, one look is all it takes to know he can’t live without her. But sometimes love isn’t enough to heal what hurts. Sometimes people like him can’t be fixed, and sometimes people like Finlay deserve more than what’s left.

This is a story about war and the cost of sacrifice. Where bonds are formed, and friendships found. Where those who are strong, fall hard. Where love is let go, heartache is born, and heroes are made. Where one man learns that the hardest fight of all, is the fight to save himself.

Genres: Romance, Military Fiction, New Adult, Contemporary Romance, Contemporary, Friends To Lovers, War

346 pages, ebook

First published November 20, 2013

About the author

Kate McCarthy grew up in a small town outside of Port Macquarie, Australia. Raised in a house just a short walk to the beach, Kate enjoyed the peaceful, relaxed atmosphere and friendships that come from being raised in a friendly, small town area.
She now resides in Brisbane, Australia, a city in the state of Queensland where she works as an accountant, along with a sideline wedding cake business and her writing.
She is married with two children, has two dogs and house in the suburbs, and a pile of friends and family dotted all over the country that help keep her sane.
When she’s not busy running after naughty kids, filthy dogs, crunching numbers, piping buttercream and writing books, you can find her curled up in bed in the early hours of the morning reading new books and re-reading old favourites. Her favourite books are the Black Dagger Brotherhood series by J.R. Ward in which she longs to eventually join the brotherhood and change her name to Phierce Mutha.
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Reviews

[Aestas Book Blog · Rating 5 out of 5]

5++ STARS!!!! THIS IS A MUST READ!!!

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Fighting Redemption was everything I could want in a story and more!! Powerful, captivating and emotionally charged, this book is a must-read!!

It's an unforgettable story about a broken soldier's undying love for a woman who'd always held his heart and it is truly breathtaking!

I just want to shout from the rooftops -- READ THIS BOOK, EVERYONE!!!!

You will FEEL this story it with your whole heart.

I can almost guarantee that you'll cry while reading (probably several times) because the story is truly heart wrenching but I promise you that it's worth every tear and that you'll be left with a smile on your face.

My eyes were already filled with tears from the very first pages. The prologue alone was all it took for me to fully connect and I knew right from the start that this book was going to be special.

"Even though we've never been together, you've always been mine, and even if I never get to keep you, you'll still be mine."

Ryan had dreamed his whole life of becoming a soldier. With a drunken father who beat him and fought constantly with his mother, he couldn't wait to get away. Then Finlay walked into his life -- and she was this gorgeous, shining beacon that called to his heart. But as much as he was in love with her, he couldn't allow himself to have her because his whole life had been building towards the dream of getting out and away; of becoming a solider. And at 19, he left everything behind and joined the Army.

Six years went by as he trained, fought, saved lives, took lives, survived, and lived through hell but he never stopped thinking about the girl he'd aways wanted, who'd never been his but who owned his heart... and that he'd walked away from.

And then... he came home.

"For six years I fought every day not to think of you, and I lost, because every day you were all I could see."

Honestly, I'm being very vague about the storyline here because there is so much more to it that I really think will be better enjoyed if you just discover it for yourself along the way.

The story unfolded beautifully. It was captivating. It began by giving us a heart-wrenching taste of the future, and then took us right back to the very beginning showing how the relationships intensified over the years and allowing us to fall in love with them as they were falling in love with each other.

It was gorgeous but made my heart ache watching Ryan's quiet, unspoken love for Fin grow throughout his childhood. I felt his longing so strongly and these built-up feelings were a huge part of what made everything so powerful once their love for each other was acknowledged.

I can't even tell you how many different things I felt while I was reading this. The writing was effortless and enthralling and I felt like I was watching a movie of the events rather than just reading them. Every scene came alive in my mind as though it were happening right in front of me.

Everything  in this story was just so emotionally charged. I felt every word of this book. My heart fluttered, raced, pounded, and even stopped. It was beaten, bruised, broken and then put back together.

It was just beat after beat of these hugely powerful moments and I'd stop every few pages to just let them all sink in. Sometimes I'd even go back and immediately reread a section because it had hit me so strongly that I just wanted to keep reliving it.

Ryan and Fin were true soul mates. I'm crying even as I write this because what they had - their connection  - was just so. fucking. powerful. So often, I'd be reading a scene that wasn't even sad but suddenly tears would be pouring down my face just from emotional overflow.

Here are just some snippets...

"I miss you. Each day hurts a little more than the last."

And this...

"Fin. Look at me," Ryan said firmly.
She lifted her eyes.
"Just one day at a time, okay?"

And ohh my gosh -- this:

"I'll love you longer than the stars that live in the sky."

There was also one scene in particular that made me ugly cry. And by that I mean that I had to put my book down because I literally could not see the page through my tears. I was a shaking, sobbing wreck. But I loved every minute. Books that can pull this level of emotional out of me are the ones that stay in my heart.

The story took place over many years and was always moving forward but, at the same time, it always slowed down and took the time to highlight all the important, meaningful parts of their lives.

There were so many gorgeous visual moment that just stood out to me: the Black Hawk helicopter -- Ryan holding his hand out to Fin -- Fin cleaning his wounds in her bedroom -- that moment when Jake asked Ryan if he was in love with Fin -- the dance -- that night -- lying under the stars -- the letter -- ALL THE LETTERS!!!!! -- the lawn scene -- Brothers forever -- the tarmac -- .... pieces of this beautiful story just keeps playing over and over in my head and honestly, I don't want them to stop.

Sacrifice, loyalty, strength, redemption, loss, love  ... This book had it all and more.

"Every piece of me is in here... My breath, my heart, my life. I won't ever leave you if you keep that safe inside you."

When I finished, I just sat there letting the story sink in, letting the tears pour down my face, feeling the journey -- the heart ache, the loss, the happiness....

This is the kind of book that I spend all my time searching for. Reading this beautifully written and absolutely unforgettable story is an experience that will stay with me forever.

I highly recommend it!! In fact, I'll just say -- READ IT!!!!! You all should read this!! ♥

Rating: 5++ stars

** This is a standalone (Adult) romance with a HEA.

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[Jessica's Totally Over The Top Book Obsession · Rating 3 out of 5]

2.5 Just didn't work for me Stars

* Spoilers below*



I feel like the odd man out here. Like everyone of my Goodreads Friends loved this book. Like they wanted to give it 6 stars out of 5. I wanted to like this book so much. I mean it has some of my favorite things in it. Military men, a baby, love each other their whole life and best friend's sister. I mean it had all the makings for me to think I would love it, but I didn't. I was about 10% into the book when I knew my ass was in trouble, but I held out because I hoped the love would redeem all the other stuff that bugged me. It didn't. This book hit on so many of my pet peeves, cheating, cowardly fear making one of the MC push the other away to an extreme, and long separation of the H&H. Add in all the drama, and angst, and not nearly enough happy moments to balance it out. This book just left me sad, annoyed, and unsatisfied.



Before I start to tell you what all didn't work for me in this book let me just say that even though this book wasn't my jam, I could tell by the writing that the author is extremely talented and that I would try other books by her. That being said here is a list of all the things in this book that left a bitter taste in my mouth and ruined this read for me.

1. Fin loses her virginity to her bf Ian who is not the hero Ryan. It is written in great detail her making love to Ian, not Ryan. And even though they are not together, they both already have feelings for each other. Also it may not have bugged me so much if her being with another man wasn't so detailed.

2. Ryan leaves for 6 years without saying a word to her. For 6 years no letters, no email, no calls nothing.

3. I feel so bad for Ian. Fin does him dirty. Fin dates Ian for years, but when he wants to move in together and take the next step because he is madly in love with her she holds him at arms length. Then when Ryan comes home after 6 years of cutting her off, she lets Ryan touch her and kiss her. Yes she does stop before sleeping with him , but if you have a bf and you're kissing someone else and they have their hand on your breast,and ass, and you are kissing them back it's cheating. It felt like she used Ian as a filler, because she couldn't have who she really wanted.

4. Ryan drove me crazy the way he wanted Fin but would push her away, want her, nope not good enough for her, but I want, can't have her, I can't live without her, I will leave for her own good ......blah blah blah. I felt like the book went in circles. Ryan acting like a coward causes Fin and himself a ton of pain, and made me wanna slam my head into a wall.

5. Ryan doesn't man the fuck up until almost the end of the book and only after he finds out she is pregnant.

6. The story jumps around a lot. 5 years here, 6 months there, 2 months here, 8 weeks there, on and on. I felt like I was missing big chucks of the story. I can understand jumping forward every once in a while in a story, there are so many in this book it's crazy.


All that being said there was some moments in this book that totally broke my heart and had me emotional, and there was some sweet moments with Fin and Ryan, I loved Jake, and the writing was good. And for those reasons I am giving this book a 2.5 stars. Though I didn't really get into this book I didn't hate it. I just dislike more about it than I liked. I am the minority in my views on this book and almost all my friends loved it so I would tell anyone who wants to read it to go for it.

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[Pavlina Read more sleep less blog · Rating 5 out of 5]

5 STARS

I re-read fighting redemption and I can honestly say that I LOVED every minute of it!!! Fighting Redemption is a story of family, friendship, love, loss and pain.The story will take you on a wild ride, you'll be happy one minute and then crying in the next , and then again you are happy!!
I really love stories like this because the emotions you feel are so real. All the characters are so genuine, that you want the best for them! After having read this book I finally understand how difficult is, having a loved one who is in the military because everyday you're afraid because you might never see them again. They might die at war and you might never get the chance to say goodbye...

"I'll love you longer than the stars that live in the sky."


The story is about three friends.. Ryan, Jake and his sister Finlay.Finlay and her older brother Jake meet Ryan Kendall on their new school. Jake and Ryan become instant best friends.Finlay and Ryan, both have feelings for each other..



Ryan and Jake decide to join the army.For Finlay, it wasn't enough heartache that her brother and his best friend were going off to Afghanistan,also she had to deal with her feelings for Ryan..
I loved the relationship that the three of them had. The bond and love is so unconditional.
Ryan and Finlay's story broke my heart over and over :(((
Finlay is torn by wanting and loving Ryan or moving on...

"For six years I fought every day not to think of you, and I lost, because every day you were all I could see."

“When I’m near you I’m consumed by you—your smile, your eyes, your heart. Even though we’ve never been together, you’ve always been mine, and ever if I never get to keep you, you’ll still be mine.”

After a tragedy... :( Ryan and Finlay admit their feelings to each other and they became a couple...but this it wasn't easy..They are two so opposite characters,yet so perfect match at the same time.



Ryan omg :// I love him!!!He lived with such an awful pain inside of him!He was physically and mentally abused by his father.



Ryan's only dream was to become soldier...but then he finds his family with the Tanners and love with Finlay.Finlay is a new light in his soul and heart...Finlay and Ryan wouldn't be together without Jake...I liked him so much.He was so open and he was all for Ryan and Fin because he wanted them to be together and happy...

If you are looking for a beautiful,emotionally romance this is what you need!!This is a MUST READ!!!

[~ Becs ~ · Rating 5 out of 5]

It’s nigh on impossible to put into words how much I loved this book and how much it touched me. It’s a compelling story of love and loss, incredible happiness and crippling sadness, a gut-wrenching, tear-jerking emotional roller-coaster of a ride which I was unable to put down once I’d started and I read into the wee small hours of the morning to finish this because I just had to know how it ended. Better perhaps to say that I dreaded how it was gong to end. In fact I feared the ending, right after reading the prologue which, I have to confess, had me crying by page two! I felt instinctively that I was about to embark on something really special and Fighting Redemption absolutely delivered.

I am a big fan of Kate McCarthy’s – I’ve loved and adored her books before. You know you’re going to get fantastic characters – heroes and heroines that seem real and a captivating plot but I think it’s fair to say that she outdid herself with Fighting Redemption. I had high expectations going in and I wasn’t disappointed but she’s definitely raised the bar exponentially higher now than ever before but I have confidence in her ability to deliver. Fighting Redemption is unforgettable, powerful, incredibly moving and it will live on my heart for months and years to come.

So this is Ryan and Finlay’s story – thrown together by chance and circumstances in childhood, they have practically grown up together. Ever since that first day when Fin stumbled at school in front of him, she has triggered every protective instinct in Ryan and he has loved her and only her for as long as he can remember. Ryan has endured a painful childhood that really did make my heart hurt but he has an incredible friendship with Fin’s older brother Jake that finally offers him salvation from his situation as he practically grows up with them.

As grown men Ryan and Jake join the Army, rise to the ranks of the S.A.S and go off to fight in Afghanistan. The horrors of war, the deep effects on those who serve and those left behind are powerfully served up here – it’s gritty, realistic and harsh and you had better get the Kleenex on standby. I cried buckets!

I adored Ryan – his incredible strength both physical and emotional, his restraint, his awesome physique and just the way that he loved, adored and cherished Fin. It really was a thing of beauty. He’s constantly trying to do what he thinks is the right thing by Fin, often being selfless and sacrificing his own happiness for what he thinks is best for her. He’s a soulful, passionate and very sexy hero and, for the longest time, the simmering sexual tension between the two of them is almost palpable – it’s unacted upon for years although they are deeply longing for one another but constantly denied but, when they finally can resist it no longer, their connection is incendiary and white-hot!!

Fin is a heroine after my own heart. I identified with her closely. She’s a clumsy nerd just like me – in fact, this is pretty much my favourite combination in a book - the geeky heroine and the tough alpha hero. Fin is a sweetheart – unfailingly honest and incredibly generous and giving. It’s no wonder Ryan adores her. She has much to endure in this book and so much to lose. My heart hurt for her on so many occasions and, as I neared the end, I was so afraid of how things would turn out.

I’m a military wife myself and Kate McCarthy really does a fantastic job of showing just how hard it is for the family left behind as the soldiers go off to war. The fear, the pride and the long months spent apart are vividly recreated here – it’s incredibly realistic and spoke to me on a very personal level. The whole story did – it touched my heart in a way that very few books have ever managed to before and I am never going to forget this one.

As with any Kate McCarthy book, this story was hard to put down. She writes incredibly compelling and captivating plots and her writing style and the pacing are perfect and I just allowed this story to roll over me, never once really knowing how it was going to end but preparing myself for the worst. It’s been one of the highlights of my reading year and one of the best books I’ve ever read. It’s just exquisite.

5 stars – 6 if I could!

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[Lady Vigilante (Feifei) · Rating 3 out of 5]

2.5-3 stars!



About 7 months ago, I received a Christmas present: an ebook of Fighting Redemption emailed to me from my mom who read and loved it after seeing it on Amazon’s recommendation list. Our tastes almost never converge so seeing her love a military romance really brought this book to my attention. It was also impossible to ignore all the reviews and status updates about the book – almost everyone who did read it ugly cried and said it was a top favorite of the year. I told myself right then and there that I would wait at least half a year to read it: I didn’t want the hype and the bandwagon effect to cloud my reading experience. So yeah, this book scared the crap out of me. But there was never a doubt in my mind that YES, this is the kind of story that I wanted to read.



So now that I’ve finished the book, I’m mulling it over in my head. It took me almost 3 days to read and I’ve DNFed twice before picking it up again. Also cried twice. The very first thing I noted was that Kate McCarthy is an extremely talented writer. I’ll admit she is very brilliant with her words so it’s easy to get lost in the wave of emotions her writing evokes, especially when it came to the numerous obstacles keeping Fin and Ryan from each other. Except…now that I think about it, I never understood their love for each other in the first place. For me, they go from children growing up together, having the occasional conversation/interaction, hit puberty and had crushes on each other (NEITHER voiced their feelings), then Ryan went off to war and Fin got herself a boyfriend. Now 6 years later, they see each other and immediately start professing ‘I’ll-die-for-you’ love?  Where’d that come from?? So right off the bat, that was a big disconnect for me.



It doesn’t matter that Fin knew she had feelings for Ryan, Ryan knew he had feelings for Fin, and I knew they both had feelings for each other. They never gave weight to that “love,” never voiced it until it was too late. Another thing was the third person POV. I’m usually not too picky about the POVs but for some reason, third person here only served to sever any possible connection I had with these characters so for the entire book I never was invested in their story. That beginning made their love seem a bit insta-ish and then the writing style just wasn’t my thing. I also despise time gaps and lemme tell you, there are tons in here. The one that absolutely pissed me off and marked my first DNF was when the author fast-forwarded the story to ‘6 months later’ after Fin comes back from her trip from Antarctica and immediately breaks up with her boyfriend Ian. I literally just read about Ian and Fin in the last chapter. Do authors slap a ‘_____ months later’ at the beginning of a chapter and seriously expect readers to assume there was plot & character development in between? To me, time gaps and this one in particular is a sign of lazy storytelling.

But like I said, I cried twice. Too bad both times I cried they were for dead characters, not the couple in question. However, my heartstrings were tugged at in certain scenes like the parts where Ryan was off at war or the very rare parts where raw, heartfelt emotion was displayed.



It always disappoints me when I don’t love a book as much as my friends do. No one wants to feel like a lone wolf but honestly, I just did not click with this book. Perhaps if I read it all those months ago my outlook would be different. But since I read it now, all I can say is unfortunately, this book didn’t wow me and isn’t anything I haven’t read before.

P.S. My second DNF mark was when Fin got pregnant (because that’s what happens when you don’t use a condom) and wasn’t able to tell Ryan because he was being a noble asshole running off again.

P.P.S. Not sure why I felt like adding this but I guess it’s just one of those trust-your-gut ideas. Anyways, this review is in no way trying to diminish or trivialize the sacrifices, experiences, and efforts soldiers make for their country. Its sole purpose is to express my somewhat dissatisfied reading experience regarding this particular book.

[Anna · Rating 5 out of 5]

I'll love you longer than the stars that live in the sky


What a beautiful unforgettable story ❤️


This is a story about war and the cost of sacrifice. Where bonds are formed, and friendships found. Where those who are strong, fall hard. Where love is let go, heartache is born, and heroes are made. Where one man learns that the hardest fight of all, is the fight to save himself.


Ohhh
My
God

Goodbye heart ❤️

He couldn’t think of Fin as his. He couldn’t feel that way. Ryan had to focus on fighting his way out of this town. How could he do that if Fin owned his heart?

Fin ~ beautiful clumsy nerd ..... She loved Ryan her whole life. There was so much genuine adoration between these two that I could not stop sighhhhing and then crying and then full-out wailing. I love this book with all my heart. This is my signature read. Weepy-steamy ...... Holy F ! This book wrecked me.

“I’d give almost anything to wake up to that every morning.”
He hated the words that came out of his mouth. It hurt like a bitch knowing her beautiful smile belonged to another man.
“Almost anything.” She backed up a step. “That’s always been our problem, hasn’t it?”



“When I’m near you I’m consumed by you—your smile, your eyes, your heart. Even though we’ve never been together, you’ve always been mine, and even if I never get to keep you, you’ll still be mine. "


“Enough!” She jabbed a finger in his chest. “There’s hurt in there. I know it. You know it, but you’re not going to move on from it until you let that shit out. Whatever you’re doing now isn’t working. Own it, Ryan. Stop letting it own you.”

This book is too beautiful to review without being very vague and giving away too much! I'm still crying ! I can't stop thinking about this book !!

[Katy Loves Romance ❤️ · Rating 5 out of 5]

6 Outstanding, blow my mind stars ******

Family, friendship, love, loyalty, protect, strength, PAIN

This is a well thought out, well put together story that gives you glimpses into the effect of being a soldier, what its like to be a family who has members that are in the SAS plus what a military wife/lover goes through when your heart is literally put on the line every time your love could be taken right away from you at any moment.
This story ripped open my heart, I cried full pelt sobbed, remember to breathe, tears down my face crying, but it was worth every tear seriously every single person should read this book.
I will say though and I give warning here I thought this was going to be a light read, I heard good things but I don't know what I was thinking, SERIOUSLY WHAT WAS I THINKING because I found myself in the midst of their story and unable to pull myself away, I couldn't concentrate on much else and I NEEDED to keep reading till I finished just so I could breathe . NO JOKE this is a phenomenal book.





So What' s it about?
When Fin was 8 and Ryan was 10 Fin stumbled over, Ryan knelt down to help being drawn to Fins unique innocent nature, upon helping Fin, Fins brother Jake wanted to know what was going on and that is where the three of them embark on a friendship. But Ryan and Fins chemistry is intense and difficult for Ryan to keep away but he does as Fin doesn't include his plan.





Ryan comes under the tortured hero label, he thinks he doesn't deserve to be loved, he comes from a home of abuse which is why Jake and Fins family take Ryan on as another son and as their own. He has one plan out of life and that's to become a SAS Soldier, to make a difference, to become somebody and to make his parents proud of him, he lives, breathes, dreams and wants this so he won't let Fin into his heart, he's trying to protect her. So he goes to war and Jake follows suit so Fin becomes an independent beautiful scientist.






So years pass and they move on but eventually as they are a little older they all come back together, and that spark is still there so yes they get together, but that comes with the agony of having to live with war in their life, of the worry of having there hearts broken and this is just gut renching pain in parts, Ryan is just stubborn in parts but he is always putting Fin as number one in every decision he makes, he is her heart and hers his they struggle to survive without the other.



Jake

I'm just going to take some time here to explain all that is Jake and what a beautiful character he is, he loves his sister like any brother would but he has a big huge heart, he's so proud of her and is her best friend in many ways. In constant contact with her, keeping her up to date with everything he's doing. Equally he loves Ryan as his brother.... they met as kids and as adults that bond is strong as ever, that's all I'm going to say here but he's one swoon worthy man, that I know you'll all love but he'll most definitely melt your heart like he did mine.

"Brothers forever, right, Kindall?" Ryan grinned. "Brothers forever, Tanner."

So here the story continues on, moving forward, and I'm not going to tell you anything else just read it its one that needs to be experienced without much more information that I've given, but what I will say is that I have a new found love and admiration for family's in the SAS but also for military wife's that could have their worlds taken away from them at any second, that must worry constantly and for the soldiers that fight our country. I will now listen more carefully when anything comes on the news and pray for those family's to keep strong. I honestly don't know how they do it, please please read it <3





Ryan


Finley



And for those of you that are worried about the end and if there's an Happy HEA... the answer is YES

[Michelle · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is a 6+++ star book

" I'll love you longer than the stars that live in the sky."






Before reading this book, make sure to have tissues nearby. Your heart will ache and yearn from this emotionally compelling story. I cried ugly tears but it was worth it. I can truly say that without a doubt Jake, Kyle, Ryan and Finlay have touched a part of my heart, soul and mind. Hands down Fighting Redemption is in my top 10 favorite books of 2013.



Fighting Redemption is more than a story about war and the men who sacrifices their lives to protect their country and freedom. It is also a story where bonds of brotherhood and friendship are formed. Lives are lost and saved. Where family is more than just blood. Where love is first found and lost, where grief and guilt can overshadow any happiness, where unspoken love speaks volumes of never-ending beautiful heartfelt love, where truths and secrets are revealed, where redemption can finally be found, where heroes are born and finally when to say goodbye and let go.





Ryan Kendall grew up with a with an abusive father and a mother who neglected him till he found a second home with the Tanner family through his friendship with Jake Tanner. Ryan and Jake were inseparable; their friendship was so deep that were like brothers. Brothers who would have sacrificed and gave their life for one another. When Ryan meets Finlay, Jake’s baby sister, it was love at first sight. In his eyes, Fin was just perfect. She was the only one who had his heart. Never having told her how much he loved her, Ryan joined the SAS Army at the age of 19. Six years has past and his love for Finlay remained.

“Six years, Ryan. Do you know how hurt I was, each day passing by and getting nothing-not even a note or an email? I didn't just lose you. I lost my brother too. Both of you left me, and I was okay with that. I understand that this was what you needed to do, so I moved on. I built a life that doesn't include you. That was what I had to do.”

“Why can’t I force myself to leave? I hurt too. For six years, I fought every day not to think of you, and I lost, because every day you were all I could see. You were the best thing in my life-so sweet and innocent, and so goddamn tempting… I stayed away so you could move on.”

“Don’t ever be sorry. Guilt is the only thing I can’t let you live with, baby. I won’t do that to you, even if it kills me.”



Ryan and Fin’s relationship can only be described as raw, intense, fierce, palpable, and heartbreaking. Their love for each other can be felt from the first page of the prologue till the last page of the epilogue.Though their journey was never easy, Ryan and Fin, in the only way they knew how made it work.

"I have a thick skin, baby...but you're under it. You're buried in there so deep it's like I was born with you in my soul. When I'm near you I'm consumed by you--your smile, your eyes, your heart. Even though we've never been together, you've always been mine, and even if I never get to keep you, you'll still be mine."




Have you read a book that makes you stop and reflect on how deep and amazing these characters were? Jake, Kyle, Ryan, and Fin were fictional characters, but the way Kate McCarthy had written them, they could be easily be real. The story was so raw, honest and practically real that military families could easily relate to their story from deployment, waiting to hear if their love ones are okay, and getting that phone call or visit that will forever change your life. This book was so raw and heartfelt that every letter, every conversation, and every thoughts that Jake, Ryan and Fin exchanged played an integral part to the story-line. Ms. Kate McCarthy did a fantastic job in this book because she was able to showcase what friendship, redemption, brotherhood, family and love entails. An absolute must read!



Kate McCarthy

[Val ⚓️ Shameless Handmaiden ⚓️ · Rating 4 out of 5]

Strong 4.5 Stars



I am having a hard time gathering my thoughts for this one...but that's because:

a) It's 0600 and my brain does not seem to be working yet. And...

b) I'm incredibly pissed off because I had the most awesome review EVER (well my sleep deprived mind said so for what it's worth) for this all completed, but point a resulted in me hitting delete instead of save.



So this is going to be a lot shorter and a lot less eloquent than I had originally intended.

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First of all, let me start by saying that this is not an original story. This is a story about love and war, the dichotomy between those two entities being the foundation of stories, movies, and sonnets since...forever.

Seen this before?



Me too.

Now I am not here to make a political statement about war. I am here to discuss a work of fiction; however, war is not fiction and I will say that I believe there is an inherent beauty in the selflessness of soldiers (male and female, from any country) choosing to give up their homes, time with their families, and sometimes their lives to fight for their country. For their beliefs. For their families.

For the men and women in uniform standing to their left and their right.

Because that's what this book is about.



And I thought the author did a great job.

I really liked Finlay and Ryan. And I LOVED Jake. In fact, my favorite aspect of the story was the brotherhood between Ryan and Jake.

Also, I have and always will be a sucker for the childhood love theme. And I thought Finlay and Ryan's story was pretty epic.



My only complaints about this story are:

The beginning. I hate it when an author starts a story by revealing a major plot pointand in this case pretty much the ending.

And the ending. I feel like the story...lost some steam toward the conclusion. The author had built up an amazing climax. She even had me crying - which is really rare for me seeing as I am cold and heartless.



But instead of an awesome burst, I felt like I was left with a slowly deflating balloon. And a squeaky helium voice.



Overall though, I thought this was a really beautiful book about love, war, brotherhood, and the lengths to which we will go to right old wrongs...no matter how valid those wrongs may or may not be...all very timeless subjects that I thought the author weaved together to make a really beautiful story.

I would definitely recommend this to anyone who loves a classic, war themed romance novel.

[Patty ~ Wrapped Up In Reading Book Blog · Rating 4 out of 5]

*****4.5 STARS*****

[♥Sharon♥ · Rating 5 out of 5]

5 ★★★★★'s!!!

This book really touched my heart. It was a one day read for me so that should tell you something. I loved every minute of it.

Fighting Redemption was such a wonderful book. It was AMAZING. It was TOUCHING. It was BEAUTIFUL. It was EMOTIONAL. Why I waited until now to read it I have no clue because it is an absolute MUST READ!!



Okay so now that I have that out of the way let me tell you a little bit about the story. I won’t say much because I think having only a little about the story in the back of your mind will allow you to experience the book better. At least I found that to be true for me.

Fighting Redemption wasn’t just a story about the men that risk their lives to protect and defend their country and freedom. And it wasn’t just a simple love story. It is so much more. It is a story about friendships, bravery and sacrifice not only in war but within family and it is a story about strength and self-respect.

The beautiful main characters in this book are Ryan Kendall, Jake Tanner and Finlay Tanner. But I also fell in love with a secondary character Kyle Brooks. I can’t put my finger on why but he crept into my heart as well. Even though he was described as being made up of “nothing but rock solid muscle” he came across as a big teddy bear. He was that guy that loved to bust balls and flirt with the ladies but he was also the guy that was there for everyone when things got tough. And things got tough.

Ryan met Jake and Finlay at the beginning of one school year. Jake and Finlay were new to the school. They were all young, Finlay being the youngest. But when Fin literally stumbles into his life there was no turning back. Finlay took hold of his heart without even knowing it.

I loved Jake. He was always so protective of Finlay and wanted her to be happy. He was such a sweetheart.



And Finlay. Well she was just a simple girl. And a bit of a klutz. :) She just wanted to fall in love and live happily ever after. She was beautiful inside and out.



The thing is, Ryan’s own family life had fallen apart. He experienced something in his young life that caused him emotional and physical pain. But it made him stronger and he became a wonderful man.



Through his friendship with Jake, the Tanner’s became his new family. And from there a family bond, like no other began. The brotherly love and loyalty that grew between Jake and Ryan was something that stayed strong throughout their late teenage years and followed them through their enlistment in the SAS Army.

But Ryan’s feelings towards Finlay grew, matured and filled his heart. Ryan loved her. He wanted to protect her and always keep her safe. But he knew that his future in the service wouldn’t allow for the type of relationship she deserved so he kept his feelings tucked away. But Finlay could feel it. She knew he had feelings for her but without ever hearing those words Fin lived her life, dated and moved on.

Now six years have passed and Jake and Ryan are returning home. Time causes change and all three have changed a lot. Fin has created a life for herself with her boyfriend Ian but it isn’t a life that is complete. Hmm I wonder why that is? And Ryan, he has experience things that has tested his bravery and his mental and physical strength. But the one thing that hasn’t changed is his love for Finlay.

After their return, so much happens with Finlay, Ryan and Jake. Some of it is painful and some of it is beautiful. Their lives will never be the same be that good or bad. But what will always be a constant for them is love, friendship and the inevitability of always being part of each other’s lives.

Ryan and Finlay’s relationship was one that will grab hold of your heart and not let go. The stages they go through and what they deal with is evident that fate is playing a part in it. It wasn’t easy. But how does that quote go…. “Nothing worth having is ever easy, and all the best things in life are the result of pain. In the end, that’s what makes the good things go very great, and that’s what makes it all worth the struggle.” This is so true for them.

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

Sorry, I know I said I wouldn’t say much right….but I got carried away. If you haven’t read this book please give it a try. I highly recommend it. It is a story that had me thinking about things. About the families that are left behind of those that serve, about sacrifices people make and about all the good that come from all the amazing people in our armed services. ❤

I’ll leave you with one of my favorite parts in the story. Fin and Ryan are talking about when he will be leaving again and she has asked him to promise that he will be safe.



“You know I can’t promise you that.” You speak to me of love, yet you’ll walk away from me so easily to go and put your life on the line! Do you know how hard that is for me?” “I’m sorry.”

Ryan pulled her around the table and into the circle of him arms. “Every piece of me is in here.” He placed his palm flat on her chest, feeling her heart beat hard and steady beneath his fingers. He closed his eyes briefly at the beauty of it. “My breath, my heart, my life. I won’t ever leave you if you if you keep that safe inside of you.” ღ

[Patrycja · Rating 4 out of 5]

Fighting Redemption is one of those reads that literally choke you with so many beautiful and aching emotions you can’t breath for what seems like ages. It touched me so hard, it seemed I won’t be able to think about anything else for a very long time. I really enjoyed reading Kate McCarthy’s book, because it not only took me on a wild ride through life’s obstacles and showed me amazing example of love, but made me feel, think and I just… have no words how to describe a book like this. This novel is nothing like I’ve read before, and for that I’m very grateful. It captivated me quickly with brutal honesty, raw ad gritty storyline and beautiful romance. Step by step, page by page I slowly fell in love with this complex bittersweet story.



Fighting Redemption is Ryan and Finely’s story. Both of them loved each other from the time they were kids. Ryan was best friend of Jake, Finely’s brother. There were reason they buried feelings for each other and went on hurting without the other one close.
When Ryan joins the Army with Jake, Fin’s heart broke. Now, long years later they have the chance to finally find happiness, but there is just so many other obstacles, that maybe the happiness wasn’t written in their stars.



It’s exceptional, gut wrenching novel. McCarthy’s done a great job in creating poignant, unforgettable, beautifully erotic tale of true love, while still fantastically picturing life of a soldier. I was astonished by how tragic and sad some things were. From time to time, my heart started beating faster and whole ‘real life’ got blurry. I was so into Ryan and Finely’s story, I wasn’t even paying attention to what was happening around me. I was hooked and then floored and then a crying mess.



Why four stars then? I don’t like reading stories written in third person point of view. This type of writing usually cheapen the experience for me. You can’t imagine how frustrating for me is loving the book but hating the third person point of view. I feel lost and not able to connect with characters more. It’s like watching TV, while I’m addicted to being one of characters. It’s hard to do so while everything is written this way: ‘she went, she thought’ and so on. So if you prefer third person point of view or it doesn’t irritate you, Fighting Redemption will be phenomenal for you. Overall, Fighting Redemption is engaging, breathtaking story that will keep you on the edge of your seat. It’s Unputdownable, good written novel that every fan of beauty, emotional roller coasters and exceptional tales of love will devour.


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[Plamena · Rating 5 out of 5]

5 Beautiful Stars



“As long as she was here, he could run as far and as fast as he wanted, but for her he would always return.”

Fighting Redemption is a beautiful and emotional story. A story worth remembering. A story worth reading over and over again. I loved every word. It’s because of books like this one that I love reading.



I was so emotional after finishing this book that I needed new days to cool off. The story touched me so deep and it felt so real.... This is the story of Ryan and Finlay. It’s a story of their love, friendship, pain and fighting for redemption.




Ryan is a SAS soldier fighting in Afghanistan. Joining the army has been his dream since he was very young. Due to his dysfunctional family and an awful tragedy, Ryan is broken and needs to prove to himself that he is worthy of the redemption he seeks. So fighting for his country and helping innocent people is his way to do it. Finley and her brother (Jake) have been his family since fifth grade. And since then he has been in love with Finley. But he doesn’t have any room for mistakes... he has a goal and no one will stop him...not even the love he feels for this girl. So he leaves everything so he can pursue his dreams.

Finlay has been waiting for Ryan for six years. Granted, she tries to move on but she struggles to let go of her love for Ryan. Then he comes back and he finally wants her but it’s not that simple. It never is in life. So when they both experience one of the greatest losses in life...it’s up to them to put their broken hearts back together. And again...It won’t be easy!!!

“You’re all I see. Nothing holds more beauty in my eyes than you do. No one will ever love you the way I do.”


I loved this story. I truly did! Every word got to me and I felt the pain AND the joy... It’s one of the best books I have read this year and I’m really happy I picked it up.

“There are no goodbyes in life. Only see you later.”

I definitely recommend this story! Read it...You won’t regret it!

[Jennifer Kyle · Rating 5 out of 5]

4.5 Stars

“Why did everyone always paint love as pretty rainbows and happily ever afters? It wasn't any of that. To love was to feel the greatest of agony, burn in the hottest fires of hell and fail the only people who mattered."



I’m not a huge fan of third person pov writing, but this story was well written, well paced and I actually read it in one sitting and was left with a big smile on my face once I finished.

I did however struggle with my feelings for Ryan for most of the book and was on the fence on whether Ryan deserved Finlay at all. I mean he didn’t do anything with feelings for years. Write her a note, give her a call do something! He was very good at walking away and made it seem so easy BUT that did give him a real feel and he battled his own demons and fears. I found him so frustrating but I think that was the idea of the story on some level to rejoice when he finally got his act together.

My reasons for not fully 5 starring this one:

I think at some point in their childhood there should have been a special moment or something that showed their connection. Something swoon worthy or unforgettable.

I loved the supporting characters as much as the main characters, Jake, Rachel and Kyle were just fantastic.

This is definitely a story that has me still thinking about it long after I read the last page.

Overall, a good read that I would recommend because Ryan and Finlay definitely worked when all was said and done.

Job Well Done Kate McCarthy!

“I’ll love you longer than the stars that live in the sky.”

[Christy · Rating 4 out of 5]

4 stars

This one really put me through the ringer. If you’re looking for an angsty and emotional read, this is for you. It was frustrating at times, and there were a few things I had issues with, but the end had me in happy tears and overall I loved Ryan and Fin’s story.

Audio book source: Audible
Story Rating: 4 stars
Narrators: Rupert Hamilton & Taryn Eva
Narration Rating: 4 stars
Genre: Romance
Length: 9h 10m

[❥ KAT ❥ Kitty Kats Crazy About Books · Rating 5 out of 5]

5 staggering "Ryan" stars ARC

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I've just finished this and it feels like all my emotions have been put through the wringer and spat out, this book will make you laugh, cry, you'll feel moments of anger you name it, you will feel it!!

Saying I loved this book is an understatement, I devoured it, it consumed me!!

Ryan's always dreamt of being a soldier just like his grandfather, he'd been ten years old when it had taken root in his head,even at that age his dream of being a soldier had already taken hold in his soul.

Life at home for Ryan was a nightmare, his dad was an asshole and a drunk, becoming a soldier would be Ryan's escape plan and something he had to focus on..

That was until Fin stumbled into his life and he nearly lost focus of that goal..A strong bond of friendship forms between Ryan, Finlay and her brother Jake is breathtakingly beautiful, they became fast friends..



Ryan was sixteen when he realized the tightening in his chest when he looked at Fin and that one simple word echoed in his head when he thought of her as "Mine" but that's where he kept on putting up barriers, he couldn't feel that way, Ryan had to keep his main focus on fighting his way out of town..

How could he do that if Fin owned his heart?

By eighteen Ryan ached constantly with the need to touch her, consume her, make her his..

What do you care about he asked her one night, "I want to be a scientist."

"What about you Ryan, what do you care about?"

"Being in the army, being a soldier, I want to get out, I need to get out, I can't live at that place for much longer, I want to be SAS", he replied.

"Your leaving", she choked out.

"I'm sorry," he said.

"When?"

"In the morning."

"I have to do this", he whispered hoarsely.

"You understand, don't you Fin, why I have to do this?"

"Don't let anyone stop you from being who you need to be."

That was the last time he saw Finlay Tanner

A month later Jake joined him on the other side of the country, after three years of rigorous daily grind in the Army, they both made it through the SAS selection.. Two soldiers who may not share the same blood, but brothers in every sense of the word..

Brothers until the end, Brothers for life



Six long grueling years go by



"Six years, Ryan, do you know how hurt I was, each day passing by and not even a note or an email? I didn't just lose you, I lost my brother too, both of you left me, but I was ok with that, I understood that this was what you needed to do, so I moved on."

"I'd have given you my entire heart if only you'd only asked, but you never did, but it's not yours now."



"I have thick skin baby, but your under it, you're buried in so deep it's like I was born with you in my soul, when I'm near you, I'm consumed by you, your smile, your eyes, your heart, you've always been mine."

My breath, My heart, My life.



"I'll love you longer than the stars that live in the sky."

This is the first book I have had the pleasure of reading from this author, and after reading this it won't be my last, so beautifully written!!

[Smitten's Book Blog · Rating 5 out of 5]

Oh my goodness!! Wow!

Yeh, that just about sums up my feelings right about now.
This book is absolutely stunning. You have to read this!



5+ Stars for Ryan & Fin!



Oh God. This book did a number on me. I was a mess. I'm still a mess!



Ryan Kendall first laid eyes on Finlay Tanner when she was just ten years old, and she was eight. He fast became inseparable with Finlay's brother, Jake and all but moved in with their family to escape the cruel hands of his abusive, alcoholic father and the devastation that ruled his household.
As Jake and Ryan grew older, they made plans to join the army. For Ryan, it was a way of escaping and ultimately proving that he could be somebody. As Ryan, Jake and Fin matured through their teenage years, Ryan became increasingly aware of his feelings for Fin, but always knew that he would never be able give her what she deserved and in the end, he knew he would have to leave her, to go to war.

The Army, and the war, owned him - body and soul. Fin never stood a chance.

But as a huge part of each others lives, Fin and Ryan's paths cross as time passes and their lives move on. An avoidable connection, tragic circumstances, shared sorrow and a bond that rooted itself deeply in each of them as children makes staying away from one another impossible.
Can Ryan allow himself to be the man that Fin needs and deserves, or can Fin stand to fall for with the tormented, broken, guilt ridden soldier that she has always loved?

What if love wasn't enough for them? Would it heal the deep lacerations life had placed on his heart, or would he always be so completely broken that he would never fully be hers?

I've read Kate McCarthy's work before. I read and loved Give Me Love and I have Give Me Strength on my Kindle waiting to be read. So when she asked me to take a look at Fighting for Redemption I almost bit her hand off. I'd heard great things about the book, not least of all that Ryan Kendall had just been crowned 'Sexiest Soldier' in my Smitten's Book Awards 2013, so I couldn't wait to dive in. I naughtily whizzed it to the top of my TBR pile and off I went. Well... Kate absolutely blew me away!



This book is heartbreaking. Truly heartbreaking. It's a total 'ugly-cry' candidate. Face-goosebumps, snotty nose, stomach ache, the whole hog! I absolutely sobbed my heart out at numerous points. One part in particular was just excruciating. It's so emotionally heartfelt and evocative. I really felt every single word with everything in me. It's one of those that takes over your life while you're reading it. Functioning goes out of the window and it's just better for everyone if you get the book read so that you can resume some semblance of your normal self. You've all been there. Well, Fighting Redemption is one of those.

"I'll love you longer than the stars that live in the sky."

So, it kicks off with a beautifully heart aching prologue that will give you a little panic attack. I have to admit, this did make me hyperventilate slightly and I did just have to check that I wasn't reading a book that'd leave me bleeding raw emotion all over the carpet at the end with no chance of survival. Don't worry. Rest assured, this book does have the perfect happy ending. So now we've cleared that up...

I love the characters. The character development is superb. We get a great insight in the childhoods of Ryan and Fin, as they grow, mature, become aware of their attraction to one another, try to fight it, follow their dreams, etc. etc. Kate McCarthy ensures that you fall in love over the years, with each adorable moment, teasing touch and stolen glance, just as Fin and Ryan do. I felt like I really knew these characters; a sure fire way to engage a reader. And I just could not put this book down. In fact, I finished it at 3.30am this morning, do I am a super sleepy Smitten today! But it was so worth it.



Fin is a great leading lady. She's smart, gorgeous, ordinary, a little gawky, a tad awkward and I absolutely adore her relationship with her brother Jake, who we will chat more about in a sec. Fin is two years younger than Ryan and it's clear she idolises him. It's sooo sweet to read. Her heart breaks when Ryan and Jake go off to war and I really felt her pain. But I loved that she had her own ambitions and dreams and that she made sure she carved out a great future for herself.

"I'd have given you my entire heart if you'd only asked, but it's not yours now. It's not yours."

I don't even know where to begin with Ryan. One of my favourite book characters ever. Seriously. This guy is book-boyfriend gold! He's so heavily weighed down with his past and it's frustrating as hell, but oh my goodness you just want to scoop him up and cuddle him better. He has a beautiful heart and absolutely worships both Jake and Fin. And let's not forget that he is sexy as hell!! He's a muscle bound, tanned, ripped, tattooed army GOD! *fans self* I can't even... *wipes drool from chin*

"Stop trying to be a hero all the time. You're so busy saving everyone else you forget about yourself."

I love how much he wants Fin. Scratch that, he needs Fin! It's insanely sexy. The sexual tension is delicious. I love it; that but that makes you scream 'Get together already' at your Kindle, when in reality, it's the fact that they're teasing and enticing you that makes it all the more scrumptious! But that tipping point, when he decides nothing is going to get in his way any longer... Squeeee... *claps hands* I was so there. So in those moments, cheering him on.

"I want you, Fin," he finally admitted. "So much I can't sleep from it. I lie in bed at night and I dream of my lips on yours, my mouth tasting every inch of you. I want to fuck you until I go blind from it and even then I don't think it would ever be enough."

And as Fin and Ryan's relationship develops, there are so many scenes that just melted me inside. It's intimate, intense, tragic, romantic and there's a sense of desperation that tugs at your heart-strings. I've got the most gorgeous feeling right now, a mix of longing and warmth.

"I have thick skin baby, but you're under it. You're burned in there so deep it's like I was born with you in my soul. When I'm near you I'm consumed by you - your smile, your eyes, your heart. Even though we've never been together, you've always been mine, and even if I never get to keep you, you'll still be mine."

I can't write this review without giving a very special mention (and a face) to the best brother ever, Jake Tanner!



What a cutie!! Again, he's a hunky army hottie with a great, fun, confident, cheeky attitude. Jake and Fin are very close and it's so lovely. He's the protective, loving, funny older brother that we all wish we had. His relationship with Ryan is heart warming too. Ryan has so little in his life of any worth and Jake just totally makes up for all of that! They really are brothers in every sense of the word other than blood. In every way that matters. Jake plays a massive part in this story. He's the glue between Ryan and Fin, he's the voice of reason, he's the relief in dark, heavy situations. Be warned; You'll fall almost as head-over-heels for Jake as you will for Ryan.

"There are no goodbyes in life. Only see you later."

And did I mention that these sexy so-and-so's are also Australian?? So all of this is wrapped up with a swoonworthy Aussie drawl! And yeh, I totally read the whole thing in that sexy accent, too! Hey, it sounds great in my head!

Obviously this book is about the life of a soldier and the loved ones they leave behind. Honestly, I have no idea how the military wives do it. I cannot begin to imagine how it feels to stand and watch your man board a plane to take him off to the uncertainty of war. Because it broke my freakin' heart just to read it. I truly have the utmost admiration for the men who serve our countries and the women who wait for them at home. Jeez, what a painful, terrifying life.

"Don't go lusting after a soldier, Rachael. They're not good for your health."

There is so much I can't mention, because I really don't want to spoil anything for anybody. But there's a lot to this story. You will go through so many different emotions and highs and lows. I so want every single person on my friends list to read this book, because I want to have late night heart-to-hearts about how wonderful Ryan Kendall is.
Fighting Redemption moved me on so many levels. This is one of those books that I will think about and lovingly sigh over in months/years to come. I know it. And those are the books that everybody needs to read.



And now I am off to give everybody dear to me a huge great big hug, because that it was what Fin and Ryan's story has done to me!





Fighting Redemption Statistics
• Steam Rating (out of 5): ♥♥♥♥
• Ending: HEA
• Length: 346 pages
• Narrative: Alternates between Ryan and Fin's POVs. Third person. Past tense.
• Series: ✗
• Can this be read as a standalone? Yes
• Themes:
War
Tortured hero
Childhood friends
• WARNING. This book includes...
Sexual content. Death. Scenes of war.
• Writing: Fantastic

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[M. · Rating 3 out of 5]

My issue with this book, and many other books too, is that they're all so much alike. It's just so standard, that I guessed pretty much all of what happened. Even Ryan's huge secret that made him self-destruct and run away to become a soldier wasn't a surprise to me.

I understand that almost everything has already been tried before and authors are bound to work with the same themes and events. That's fine though, as long as the execution is amazing, I can get over the unoriginality. However, the execution of Fighting Redemption was just okay. I didn't feel any connection between the love couple, I didn't feel connected to any of the main characters and, to me, it felt like their actions didn't make any sense.

I love a good build-up to a relationship, but when an author decides to skip the build-up, start in the middle, and explain by flashbacks, I want the flashbacks to be powerful. I felt like the flashbacks in this story lacked power completely. From the flashbacks, I got the impression that Fin and Ryan were really good, close friends, and none of them ever tried to be more. When they reunited after six years, suddenly they were spilling their hearts over how hurt they are, how much they missed the other and how they just cannot be. I just feel like I missed the boat on their relationship. And when they do finally admit all this, they just keeping running around in circles. I thought Ryan was stupid. Fin annoyed me in the beginning too. I wanted to punch both at some points. And my lack of tolerance had everything to do with the lack of connection.

Also, I felt a lot of it was repetitive and some of the dialogue was cheesy. They always kissed until they had to catch their breath, or until one of them was breathless. And there was a big emphasize on Ryan being possessive and alpha in the bedroom and I was like, whatever the author/Ryan is trying too hard. Now that I think of it, the characters felt hollow to me, like silhouettes. The only ones that showed some color were Kyle and Jake.

The only war story that I have read that really shows the effect war has on soldiers and the ones left behind, is In The Stillness. That story was so powerful and realistic. I cried every time I read a flashback in that book and the story was just so emotion-driven. No excuses, no dark pasts, no abuses, just plain, real, unapologetic pain. The author managed to take a theme that's been used a lot and still make it original.

Sorry, I'm such an asshole for talking about another book in my review for this book. I'm just gonna finish this review by saying I gave this three stars, because I felt indifferent towards it. It wasn't bad, just nothing that got my heart racing and nothing that hasn't been done before.

[Jess-i-ca · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 stars



Ryan has had an awful childhood and has basically been adopted by brother and sister Jake and Finlay. Jake is Ryan's age and becomes his best friend.



Ryan is great but I will say Jake is an awesome character as well. He is an all around great guy and absolutely loves his sister!



Finlay is 3 years younger than both of them but has always been in love with Ryan.



Ryan thinks the best thing for him to do is to stay away from Finlay so he leaves for the Australian army and doesn't contact her for 6 years.



She grows up and tries to move on with her life but still has Ryan in the back of her heart.



Ryan comes back and its like he's never been gone and that spark is still there.

"For six years I fought every day not to think of you, and I lost, because every day you were all I could see."



Ryan still doesn't think he is good enough for her and wants her to move on with her life.



But will Finlay move on with her life or try to stay with Ryan and help him battle his demons, or will she eventually wind up by herself anyway?

"It doesn't matter if you live a billion years, or just a short handful. It's how bright you burn while living that really matters."



Oh and FYI you will at least tear up in this book. If you don't, you probably don't have a soul. ;)

[Tammy · Rating 5 out of 5]

6 HUGE STARS

This is a story about war and the cost of sacrifice. Where bonds are formed, and friendships found. Where those who are strong, fall hard. Where love is let go, heartache is born, and heroes are made. Where one man learns that the hardest fight of all is the fight to save himself.

"The Army and the SAS had been his dream--his chance to be somebody, save lives, show his parents he was worth something. Being a soldier had been his escape, his flight from the demons that bound him. War is a cold, selfish bitch. It changes you. It makes you hard, and it makes you hurt, yet somehow, we keep going back for more."

I'll be the first to admit, I am a bit biased, as I beta read this stunningly beautiful story of war and its aftermath. However, I'm not reviewing this book as its beta reader, I am reviewing it as a huge fan of Kate McCarthy's. What I love the most about her is her uncanny ability to write one hell of an addictive love story that you feel with every breath you take and live with every turn of the page, that is just one of the many reasons I am such a huge fan of hers.

"Would they only ever have those fleeting moments—the ones where you lived the briefest, loved the hardest, and burned like the devil had set fire to your very soul? They were the only moments in his life that had been worth a damn."

Fighting Redemption is the epitome of powerful; the gamut of emotions you'll experience will leave you aching in ways I can’t even begin to describe. I want you to prepare for the fact that your heart will be sitting huddled somewhere in the corner of your stomach for at least 75% of this book. Let us also not forget that you’ll barely be able to breathe, or even contain the ability to see through the tears freely sobbing down your face. Fighting Redemption is the newest emotional thrill ride coming soon to an e-reader near you. I strongly suggest you buckle in and hold on tight. Unless you're one of those oh so fearless types who like to test their courage and ride the ride with their hands thrown in the air, at that point there’s nothing else I can tell you, other than don't say I didn't warn you. I promise even with holding on to those bars you’ll still experience a rush. Please don't dismiss it lightly when I tell you, you’re about to experience, one hell of, an intense emotional roller coaster ride.

"Why did everyone always paint love as pretty rainbows and happily ever afters? It wasn't any of that. To love was to feel the greatest of agony, burn in the hottest fires of hell and fail the only people who mattered."

Ryan and Fin's relationship is a gut wrenching and heart-breaking tale, that will not only transport you to another world, it will hold you captive from the very first page. Our hero and heroine are gritty, raw and beyond captivating; their connection a beautiful blend of chemistry and frustration. Their two worlds colliding and exploding as they struggle to deal with tragedy, inner demons, mistakes, love, loss, forgiveness, and redemption. These two have to work double hard to overcome the hellish obstacles life has thrown at them, in order to experience even the tiniest slice of heaven. Nothing about this duo was easy, everything in their lives has come at a price, and that price was so damn steep. There wasn't a moment throughout their journey that Ryan and Fin weren't ripping my heart out with their intense depth, love, and emotions.

"I have a thick skin, baby...but you're under it. You're buried in there so deep it's like I was born with you in my soul. When I'm near you I'm consumed by you--your smile, your eyes, your heart. Even though we've never been together, you've always been mine, and even if I never get to keep you, you'll still be mine."

Alas, just when you think you can lean back and settle in all comfy like (I’d like to be able to say there isn't that much more hell Kate could put us through, but…), I'm here to warn you that’s not even remotely close to being a possibility. Stop, I can already tell you want to be brave and loosen your grip!! Do not drop those hands, keep holding on tight to those bars. I promise they are there for your safety, as well as the safety of your e-reader. Kate is pure evil, I tell you, and she isn't anywhere close to being done with utterly and completely wrecking you! This is an author who has no qualms about slowly twisting your heart into tiny little pieces that hurt so excruciatingly bad that you think you may just pass out from the pain; then and only then does she decide you've held on long enough and can begin the mending process.

“I’d give almost anything to wake up to that every morning.”
“Almost anything.” She backed up a step. “That’s always been our problem, hasn't it?”

This book is by far my number one read this year. FR is Kate McCarthy at her BEST. Ryan, Jake, Fin, and Kyle will be with me for years to come, as these characters invaded every ounce of my heart, soul, and mind. I know without a doubt that this book will go down as an ultimate favorite of mine. Kate has proved herself time and time again to be a gifted author. Fighting Redemption has her heart and soul laid bare on every page, with every single word. She's set the bar high, and I, for one, am wicked proud to be one of the first people who had the chance to experience the beauty of Ryan and Fin from day one.

Hands down a 6 star read for me!

P.S. Don't forget to buy stock in Kleenex.

Thanks to Kate McCarthy for providing me a beta copy and arc in exchange for an honest review.

[AJ · Rating 5 out of 5]

“You’re all I see. Nothing holds more beauty in my eyes than you do. No one will ever love you the way I do.”

Oh. My. God. What an incredible, intensely emotional story! Not only is it a beautiful, heart-wrenching romance, but it’s also a story about the love of family – both made and chosen, the bonds between brothers, and the sacrifices made by those who choose to fight for others.

Fin and Ryan have loved each other since their childhood. The best friend of Fin’s older brother, Jake, Ryan practically lived in their house, trying desperately to escape his own family. Through the years they were close and were always there for each other, but Ryan never felt worthy of Fin, so even though they both knew there was something special between them, neither of them ever acted on it.

Having dreamed of being a soldier for as long as he can remember, Ryan and Jake enlist with the Australian Army, and the two of them become members of the SAS (special forces) and are sent to fight in Afghanistan. Six years later, they have returned home after their fourth tour, and upon seeing each other for the first time in six years, the chemistry between Fin and Ryan, which has only increased over the years, explodes.

“I want you, Fin,” he finally admitted. “So damn much I can’t sleep from it. I lie in bed at night and I dream of my lips on yours, my mouth tasting every inch you. I want to fuck you until I go blind from it and even then I don’t think it would ever be enough.”

“For six years I fought every day not to think of you, and I lost, because every day you were all I could see. You were the best thing in my life”

Just… wow. The emotion and the UST between these two is off the freaking charts! You can feel every little moment, and I was bouncing up and down in my chair and squeeing with glee! But there are a lot of things standing in their way. And with their careers, relationships, issues from the past, fear for the future, and the reality of both of their lives to overcome, it’s far from an easy road for either of them

I feel like anything else that I say about the storyline is going to sound cliché, but it’s absolutely not, and there’s no way I can do the story justice. You need to read it and just take it all in as it unfolds, because it’s an amazing story. Both beautifully romantic and horribly devastating, it’s one of those books that you don’t just read, you experience.

The relationship between Fin and Ryan is absolutely incredible. The love that they have for each other is so strong, and I felt every moment along with them. The longing, the heartbreak, the passion, the huge highs and the devastating lows. They go through so much in this story, and at times it’s really hard reading, and yes, I read with tears streaming down my face. But there are also lots of happy (and steamy) times, and I loved seeing them together! And through it all, there is never any doubting their love for each other, and every single moment is beautiful.

“I have a thick skin, baby … but you’re under it. You’re buried in there so deep it’s like I was born with you in my soul … When I’m near you I’m consumed by you — your smile, your eyes, your heart. Even though we’ve never been together, you’ve always been mine, and even if I never get to keep you, you’ll still be mine.”

“Every piece of me is in here.” He placed his palm flat on her chest, feeling her heart beat hard and steady beneath his fingers. He closed his eyes briefly at the beauty of it. “My breath, my heart, my life. I won’t ever leave you if you keep that safe inside of you.”

Of course there was never any doubt that I would fall in love with Ryan. He’s brave, strong, loving and loyal. I loved the way the author explored his commitment to his career, and his heartfelt need to help others, doing it without question and with such devotion. You have to respect him for that. He’s also got a huge heart, and although he is emotionally damaged, he is absolutely crazy about his girl.

“Christ. He didn’t just love her, he fucking adored her. He’d give his life for her if he had to.”

And Fin more than holds her own against him. She’s intelligent, she’s sensible, and she knows what she wants and isn’t afraid to reach out and grab it. She shows amazing strength in all that she goes through, and I love that she’s strong enough to put herself out there for Ryan and be there for him when she knows he needs her.

“You’re the strongest person I’ve ever known, but someone smart and brave once told me that it’s always the strongest that fall the hardest. You can trust me, Ryan. Let go. I’ll be here to catch you. I’ll always be here.”

Throughout the book there is a very strong focus on relationships, and I loved how the author explored that. Not only between Fin and Ryan, but also their relationships with Jake. Fin has a beautiful relationship with her brother, and Jake and Ryan’s bond is amazing. I loved the scenes with them all together.

The other characters also bring a lot to the story, and I love the relationships and how they all interplay, particularly with Kyle, Rachael, Fin and Jake’s parents, and the boys in Ryan and Jake’s squad (the banter between these guys is sensational!). The bonds are all really strong, and I love the way that they all have each other’s backs, but they’re not afraid to pull out the punches when needed.

Through war and tragedy, love and life, Fin and Ryan’s story unfolds with incredible emotion. It's one of those books that's written in a way that you can see it all playing out in front of you like a movie, with the dual POV letting you know exactly what they are both feeling, and it's so beautifully done. I felt so connected to these characters (possibly helped along by the fact that they are living in my home town, which was a surprising bonus!), and I was mesmerized from start to finish. It broke my heart over and over, only to patch it up and have me swooning soon after. The story is an incredible journey and I absolutely loved it - and yes, there is a HEA.

5 stars.


On a side note - I can’t even begin to imagine what the families of soldiers go through with their loved ones so far from home and facing death every day. They must be so proud, but to live with so much fear has to be truly horrific. I witnessed a small piece of it here, and my heart goes out to all of those who sacrifice so much for the sake of others, and to those who love them. I know the final scene of this book is going to be one that stays with me forever.

[Sharon ∞❥ is an emotional book junkie ❥∞ · Rating 4 out of 5]

3.5 -4 ★'s

"I'll love you longer than the stars that live in the sky."

I'm just going to premise this review by saying I am not a fan of military type stories. I know, I know...then why the hell did I read it? Well, for the angst of course, but I should've known better because there's always a certain plot line that's in these stories...~sigh~

However, as you can see by the 3.5 - 4 star rating that I did enjoy the story. Ryan and Finlay are wonderful and sweet together even though you are going to want to hit Ryan over the head a few times.

They meet when Ryan is twelve and Finlay is ten. He is instantly drawn to her but he becomes best friends with her brother, Jake. That doesn't stop him from wanting her unfortunately he has something he wants even more and that's to be a soldier. It pretty much colors every aspect in his life.

He never acts on his feelings for Finlay and then him and Jake are off to the Australian Army and are gone for six years. It was a bit to take in that he never even wrote her in all that time.



Finlay wants Ryan just as much as he wants her but make no mistake about it, she's not waiting around forever. In fact, she dates in high school and then has a pretty serious boyfriend (Ian) by the time Ryan does come home.

Things are little intense when that happens because Finlay and Jake have bought a house together and that's where Ryan is staying. And let me just say that the sexual chemistry is off the charts! But remember what I said about knocking Ryan in the head? Yea, you're gonna want to do that a few times.

Then "that" plot line happens and yes, it's emotional, but I just hate it. It just made everything that much worse for these two but at least it gives them the final push that they needed. And for a while...things were just peachy, it just didn't last.

From the prologue, you have an idea of what's going to happen next. It took some crazy drama for Ryan to finally figure things out but thankfully, it happened.

♦ BTW...we really need a book about Kyle and Rachael!

[Mikee (ReadWithMikee) · Rating 4 out of 5]

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❝That’s how I remember you. But you’re not looking at me like that now, and I need you to do that. I need you to wake up and smile at me like I’m your everything, because without you, I’m not anyone’s anything.❞

Okay so I decided to spontaneously pick this up and I'm honestly surprised at how much I actually enjoyed this. I've been searching for a storyline similar to this and I'm glad I found it in Fighting Redemption.

This book is far from perfect. It isn't the greatest book ever written nor is it the most original, but I still loved every single minute of it. I'm a tough romance reader because I always tend to get bored once the couple gets together but Fighting Redemption kept me interested until the very end, and that's something that rarely happens nowadays with me when it comes to romance novels.

It does have it's flaws but they weren't bad to the point where I wanted to instantaneously put the book down. There were parts that did frustrate me especially when it came to Ryan. I felt that he was drowning in self-pity for most of the book but I can understand where he was coming from.

In the beginning, the relationship between Fin and Ryan did feel a little insta-lovey but as the story progressed so did their relationship. I was beyond nervous every time Ryan went back out to war and my heart would feel so much for Fin when she was on her own.

I can't really say much without giving a lot away but this was a cute, quick, little read and I'm glad I decided to pick this up! I've been looking for a modern military romance book and Fighting Redemption really fulfilled that for me.

[.Lili. · Rating 5 out of 5]

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[Paula · Rating 5 out of 5]

Fighting Redemption is a deeply touching, emotionally charged, well-developed new adult romance filled with heartbreak, fiery chemistry, and loveable characters. Go ahead and grab the Kleenex, you’re going to need them. This story kept me in a constant state of tears and high emotions. I love this book hard.

"I'll love you longer than the stars that live in the sky."

Ryan Kendall comes from a broken home, where his father abused him and his mother ignored him. He learned at the age of seven about pain and suffering. His life changed for the better when he met two new students at his school. Jake, with is laidback and playful personality, immediately became Ryan’s best friend and was always by his side. Then there is Jake’s little sister, Fin, who Ryan felt an immediate attachment towards with the need to protect and, as they grew up together, silently fell in love with her. Ryan has dreamt of being a SAS solder since he was ten years old. It gives him purpose and a way to escape his broken home life.

Finlay Tanner is a compassionate, sweet girl who loves science and has a bright future ahead of her. She eventually comes into her own as a young woman. The feelings Ryan has always had for Fin grow more every day as he watches her grow and change. He loves her, but won’t let himself have her. Not to mention he is leaving one day to join the army to start his new life. Fin has also developed feelings for Ryan. No boy can hold a candle to what she feels for Ryan.

No words were ever spoken about their feelings towards one another, but they both knew they were there. Even if they never acted upon them. Ryan kept his distance from Fin until the time came for him and Jake (who would follow Ryan into hell) to leave for boot camp and then deployed to Afghanistan to join the war. And six years go by before Ryan and Fin see or talk again. Fin moves on with her life, eventually, during that time but never truly moves on from Ryan. She thought she had it all figured out, until Ryan finally comes back home and everything changes.

Ryan comes back from the war older, harder, edgier, and sexier. He’s an incredible yet complicated man. He’s driven by the need to save and protect people. He’s a war hero who fights hard and loves even harder. But he’s a broken man who has never confronted the past nightmares that have shaped and molded him into the intense, tortured man he is today. If he wants to be truly happy, he must face the demons that haunt him day after day. And now that he’s back home, it’s time to face the girl that has always owned his heart.

One of the main things that drew me to this story was the idea that two friends who grow up together eventually fall in love. Ryan goes off to war before anything develops between them, but they both continued to carry a flame for each other. The love between Fin and Ryan is one of a kind; unbreakable and deep. And, for six long years, the heart-pounding chemistry between them laid dormant… until they see each other again. The love, the passion, and the undeniable lust between them, come skyrocketing to the surface the moment they see each other again. I felt it all strongly. However, there is a lot of emotional turmoil and complicated issues between them that need to be hashed out. So much so that, as much as Fin would like to drop everything for Ryan, she can’t just let him into her heart and… into her bed. This doesn’t stop Ryan from revealing to Fin all the things he should’ve told her years ago. And the things Ryan would say to Fin… be still my heart. Ryan melted me with his honest and passionate words.

"For six years I fought every day not to think of you, and I lost, because every day you were all I could see."-Ryan

"Even though we've never been together, you've always been mine, and even if I never get to keep you, you'll still be mine."-Ryan

As the story continues, it felt like the world was working against this couple being together. So much happens in this story with its layers upon complicated layers that revolve around unbreakable bonds, loss, grief, self-sacrifice, broken hearts, redemption, forgiveness, personal healing and, most importantly, war. Fin and Ryan had so much to overcome before they could be together. Just when you think they will finally be happy together, the story would take a turn that would make my emotions clinch – which happened often – and the tears would fall. There were scenes where my heart was pounding with every emotion expressed, every action taken, and every reason behind their words or feelings.

This book has so much heart. I loved the beginning, the middle, and the end - which almost gave me a heart attack. I honestly felt breathless and emotionally exhausted by the last page. The scenes with Ryan in Afghanistan were depicted so realistically. I don’t know much about the military but this part of the story was well-done and intense. I would love to read more about Ryan and Jake’s army buddies and see each one of them find love. I HIGHLY recommend you grab this book ASAP!

Rating: A
Heat: Warm

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[Michelle · Rating 5 out of 5]

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5 touchingly beautiful stars!



Ryan Kendall’s life changed the day he saw Finlay Tanner; the need to protect her instant. And the bond of friendship that forms between Ryan, Finlay and her brother Jake is one that knows no end.

“All of a sudden she smiled, wide, vibrant. The way it lit up her face drew the attention of those around her. It was like you’d been given the gift of seeing the sun radiate brilliant rays through dark clouds.”

Ryan had only wanted one thing his entire life, to escape and to be a soldier. It was his escape plan and the only way he knew how to silent the ghost of his past. But the way he felt for Finlay wasn’t something that was erased with the six years since he said goodbye.



Ryan and Jake are stationed in Afghanistan, two soldiers who may not share the same blood, but are still brothers in every way.


When they are set to return home Ryan is coming face to face with the girl he left all those years ago. The one girl that he has never let go.

Fin fell in love with a boy that became a soldier, a man dedicating to protecting and sacrificing himself for the ones he loved. So she lived her life, for six year she tried to let go of the dream of the man she loved, a man that would always be leaving. But when she welcomes him and her brother home, living under the same roof might just prove to be a temptation far too great to resist.

“You came home and God help me, I’m so relived you’re here that it burns me from the inside out.”

Kate McCarthy’s Fighting Redemption was a powerful and moving story that exceeded the realm of romance. This was about war, the unbreakable bond that is formed, the feeling of looming loss that weighs down the hearts of those standing at the airbase waiving their goodbyes and this is about healing the scars of the past so that you can have a future.

A broken hero, childhood friends, war, loss, pain, healing and love. This was everything all rolled into one fantastic story. I

I bawled like a baby. Plain and simple. Completely shameless as I read this book with vision blurred with tears. I felt like my heart was ripped out and shoved back into my chest. Stories about war are just one of those things that hits you hard. Even if you don’t have love ones serving, it’s just one of those things that moves you. Kate McCarthy did an amazing job portraying the sacrifice of those that serve their country and how that affects those that they must leave behind to do so.

There were so many moments in this story that crushed me in that good way that just makes you smile at how much it hurts. This was an unputdownable book.

[☆ Sammy ☆彡 · Rating 5 out of 5]

What It's About
Love * Loss * Friendship * War * Freedom * Redemption

Ryan Kendall knows his share of pain & loss. Growing up with an absent mother and abusive father, he dreams of joining the Australian Army in hopes of protecting and fighting for other people's freedom. He is so focused and determined to become a soldier that he sacrifices his own happiness along the way.

"being a soldier is never just about strength. It's also about knowing what you want, how hard you're willing to work for it, and what you're willing to sacrifice for it."

Finlay Tanner stumbled her way into Ryan's life while they were in grade school and Ryan's friendship with her older brother Jake, ensured that Ryan was always in Fin's life. For years he viewed Fin almost like a little sister, protecting her from anything he believes could cause her pain, including himself. Ryan never believed he would have anything in his life that might stand in the way of his dream of being a soldier. So at the age of nineteen, a realization of his growing feelings and attraction for Fin causes Ryan to panic and leave early for the army.

After six long years of fighting for his country and trying his best not to dwell on Fin, Ryan returns home during a break between deployments. Being around Fin again makes Ryan realize just how empty his life is without her and no matter how hard he tries he can't live his life without her.

"Christ. He didn't just love her, he fucking adored her. He'd give his life for her if he had to."



Unfortunately, the biggest obstacle in their relationship is Ryan himself. He believes he is too broken, too damaged, and completely unworthy of a woman like Fin. He will need to find redemption and forgiveness within himself before he can move forward with his life and a relationship with Fin.

"This is a story about war and the cost of sacrifice. Where bonds are formed, and friendships found. Where those who are strong, fall hard. Where love is let go, heartache is born, and heroes are made. Where one man learns that the hardest fight of all, is the fight to save himself."

My Thoughts
I loved Fighting Redemption so incredibly much! I would give this beautiful story all the stars in the sky if I could <333 I laughed, cried, was so completely giddy at times that I wanted to run and dance around my house, and I fell in love with Ryan Kendall! I would classify this book as one of my top reads so far in 2014 and I would list it among my favorites of all time. Please, do yourself a favor and read this book! Just make sure you have a box of tissues handy =)

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[Grecale · Rating 3 out of 5]

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[nicklein · Rating 5 out of 5]

Still crying my eyes out. This was such a heartbreaking story. I loved it.

[J · Rating 5 out of 5]

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I have so much to say about this book and yet have no idea how to even put it into words. I absolutely loved every single little bit of this book. McCarthy showcases what a talented writer she truely is.
The very first quote alone sets a powerful tone for the entire book:



There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.



This story begins years before the fact when Ryan and Finlay first meet. Ryan 10 and Fin 8.
Being the new kids at school, Fins' brother, Jake makes quick friends with Ryan when he helps Fin up after a fall. As the years go by you watch as Ryan and Jake become Best friends.
With a bad home life, Ryan is always over at the Tanner's house, their home become his refuge his place to feel safe. While Ryan is aware of the connection he has with Fin, he acts indifferent to her. Quietly observing the sweet girl who deserves more than he could ever offer.

Ryan has always wanted to join the Army and as soon as he is old enough, he packs up to leave, no looking back. Fin, still in high school, watches as the boy who holds her heart walks out without giving her his own.



"Don't," he whispered thickly. "Please don't cry. You have such a big future ahead of you. You're going to do big things with your life. Dont let anyone stop you from being who you need to be."



Six years later Ryan and Jake, now SAS soldiers come home on leave. The last 6 years Ryan has had no contact with Fin. Keeping her at a distance was suppose to be the plan, but a few seconds in each others presence has everything he worked so hard on, come crashing down.

Fin has worked hard herself the last 6 years. Her career is on the fast track. She is about to make a huge career move when Ryan comes home for a visit. One look at him has her questioning where her life is meant to go. Their attraction is palpable and their pull is so strong that both are left feeling confused after each interaction. Ryan can't seem to fight his attraction to her, leaving her shocked that he even felt this way. Where is this coming from? She built a life that didn't include him and moved on. He never asked for her heart, so she did what she had to. But we see, and we feel Ryan's own internal struggle. What he lived through being away from Fin.


"I hurt too. For six years I fought every day not to think of you, and I lost, because every day you were all I could see. You were the best thing in my life- so sweet and innocent, and so goddamn tempting."



But their story has a long way to go. He struggles with his feelings, pushing her away. Wanting her to have a better life without him. He doesn't want to put her through the pain of what War does to people back home.




Don't hope for us, Fin. I can't have you wasting your life waiting for someone who might never return.



And she does, she takes her job, leaves everything behind and Ryan heads back to Duty. But when tragedy walks into her life, she must find her way through the darkness.



It's always the strongest that fall the hardest



I can't tell you what happens next without revealing too much. But this is when the story really starts to weave its heartbreaking tale. The Heartache and Pain, the Love and Tenderness, the Happiness and Laughter all of it will worm its way into your heart. And you won't want it to stop.
I was drowning in the pages and never wanted to surface for air. This story was beyond phenomenal
it moved me to tears. At times Kate's words were so poetic and insightful but also had the ability to break me down. Kate allows you to connect with Ryan, you feel his insecurities, his pain. You were there with him, hurting with him.



"I'm so tired," he whispered to her, his voice muffled against his knees. Hot tears fell thick and fast down his face and nothing could hold them back. He didn't even have the energy right then to hide them from her. "So tired of living with so much pain."



Ryan is book boyfriend perfection. It was an absolute treat to get inside his mind, and I fell even more in love with him every time we got his side. His devotion and love for Fin makes my heart smile.


"I have a thick skin baby, but you're under it. You're buried in there so deep it's like I was born with you in my soul. When I'm near you I'm consumed by you - your smile, your eyes, your heart. Even though we've never been together, you've always been mine, and even if I never get to keep you, you'll still be mine."

♥♥♥♥

"You could carry me into Hell and I'd go with you."
"I've been to Hell, baby," he replied. "It's the one place I'll never take you."




This book captured my heart. I wasn't sure what to expect from it but it completely blew me away. It was quite a roller-coaster of emotions. The writing was exceptional and the characters are so well written. Kate's ability to draw you in, knock you on your ass and break you down piece by piece is exactly what I crave for when I pick up a book. She left me hanging on to every scene, every page, every line. I devoured Ryan and Fin's story. Do yourself a favour and get familiar with Kate McCarthy's work, you won't be disappointed.



"You're all I see. Nothing holds more beauty in my eyes than you do. No one will ever love you the way I do."



☆☆☆ 5 I love you all the Stars ☆☆☆

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