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215 pages, Paperback
First published July 5, 2005
To write fiction is to make a succession of choices, to send the narrative and the characters in one direction rather than another. Story is navigation: successful story is the triumphant progress down exactly the right paths, avoiding the dead ends, the unsatisfactory turns. Life, of course, is not at all like that. There is no shrewd navigator, just a person's own haphazard lurching from one decision to another. Which is why life so often seems to lack the authenticity of fiction. And when a writer contemplates her own life, there is an irresistible compulsion to tinker with it, to try out a crucial adjustment here or there. What follows in one such tinkering. The protagonist is not myself, her experience and her associates are invented, but she is perhaps a suggestion of another outcome.The "other outcome" in this section of Penelope Lively's fascinating "anti-memoir" of 2005 is her imagining what might have happened if, instead of continuing in her humble research assistant job at Oxford, she had accepted the suggestion of a visiting American professor that she apply for a fellowship at his transatlantic university. Her alter-ego protagonist, now in her middle years, accompanies her new husband for a guest lecture in Oxford then goes on to visit some relatives she hardly knows. Lively may be imagining a different life for herself, but her portrait of a British expatriate coming back is dead on the money, and (genders reversed) virtually mirrors my own.
Everything pointed to a German assault on Cairo. Now there was a serious exodus. Many went to Palestine, as it then was; others to Kenya, Tanganyika, Aden. And those who could get a passage boarded ships bound for South Africa. Cape Town was said to be delightful.So Jean, Lively's childhood alter-ego, instead of going from Cairo to Palestine, as her real family did, sails for Cape Town in the charge of her nanny—and never gets there.
We dance and dance, and sometime in the small hours we leave for his flat. There is only one way in which this night can end. […] I have had two children; they have been the light of my life. But what about the children who never were, the shadow children never born who lurk in the wings? For me, the night of the Chelsea Arts Ball was just a heady rite of passage—but suppose it had been otherwise?The protagonist in this story is not Miranda, Lively's imagined double who falls deep into the hippie culture, but Miranda's daughter Chloe, determined to undo all the mistakes her mother made; will she manage any better?
And so, by a whisker, he missed the battle of the Imjin River, into which other national servicemen with the Northumberland Fusiliers were flung, some of them within days of their arrival in Japan for forward posting to Korea. […] I might never have known him. We might never have met. There might never have been out children, and theirs, and the forty-one years of love and life and shared experiences, and those long hard months at the end.Writing in 2005, Lively anticipates Kate Atkinson's brilliant novel of alternative endings, Life After Life. A closer comparison, though, is to Jenny Erpenbeck's The End of Days, in which she tells the story of a real person (her grandmother) in terms of a series of outcomes that in fact did not happen. But because it contains so much that is real, Erpenbeck's book reads continuously, as a novel. Lively's breaks into a series of short stories, each with different protagonists and settings, with the author's real life continued only in the brief interludes such as those I have quoted. And as stories, they are of mixed quality. All of them show an uncanny feel for the language and the social attitudes that (to British ears at least) so perfectly capture the time and class. But many of them do not go beyond such vignettes. The few stories that do, however, are special. "The Battle of the Imjin River," for example, contains some of the best battle writing I have ever read from any author, let alone a female one. The first story, "The Mozambique Channel," is a wartime romance narrative with a terrifying climax, made all the more special by being filtered through the mind and voice of a children's nanny. And "Comet," in which Lively imagines that she has been killed in air accident and her remains found only decades later, turns into a beautiful and moving story about two loves: one that budded but never bloomed, and another discovered in the autumn of life.