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Sometimes, looking at him was like looking in a fun-house mirror.

Zoe’s life has gone off the rails.

When she left Seattle to go to college in New York, she was determined to start fresh, to figure out what being a lesbian meant to her, experiment with clothes and presentation away from home for the first time.

Instead, she lost touch with her freshman orientation friend group, skipped classes, and failed completely at being the studious premed student her parents wanted her to be.

But the biggest derailment of all? Her newly minted ex-boyfriend—and the fact that she had a boyfriend to begin with. When she met Alden, he made her feel wanted, he made her feel free. He made her feel . . . like she could be like him, which was exciting and confusing all at once.

So, Zoe decides a second fresh start is in order: she’s going to take a cross-country train from New York to Seattle for fall break. There, no one will know who she is, and she can outrun her mistakes.

Or so she thinks, until she meets Oakley, who’s the opposite of Zoe in so many ways: effortlessly cool and hot, smart, self-assured. But as Zoe and Oakley make their way across the county, Zoe realizes that Oakley’s life has also gone off the rails—and that they might just be able to help each other along before that train finally leaves the station.

304 pages, Hardcover

First published August 19, 2025

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Jake Maia Arlow

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Jake Maia Arlow is a Stonewall Honor author, podcast producer, and bagel connoisseur. They grew up on Long Island and now live with their girlfriend and loud cat in the Pacific Northwest.

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Profile Image for nikki | ཐི༏ཋྀ​​݁ ₊  ݁ ..
873 reviews313 followers
August 22, 2025
“You can’t go back, can’t get rid of that knowledge. But at least now you get to find out who you are in the knowing.”

rating: 4.5★

before sunrise (1995) but with a nonbinary jewish lesbian and a freshly ex-mormon lesbian, leading to many conversations about sexuality, gender, and religion.

this was funny and thought-provoking as zoe and oakley sort through their conflicting, confusing, and sometimes illuminating thoughts and revelations around identity and life.

The room technically labeled me properly; I was a woman. But if that was true, why did it feel like I was playing a part?

i loved the setting of a cross-country train. it's something i've always wanted to do, but also the metaphor of that transient place in life of adolescence / early adulthood (and all of life, really), the mingling of people of all walks of life in a short but intimate voyage, the feeling of temporarily (or maybe even permanently) being a new version of you for the duration.

Because I wasn’t perfect, and I didn’t even know if I was a girl. I was just a mess.

i just read arlow's other book excavate and something about their writing just hits for me. it's exciting and refreshing to see someone writing about gender and identity like this in YA and i genuinely hope it paves the way for more.

Even if you do the same thing over and over, you can find new people, new places. Even if it’s just for a few days, they can change the course of your life.

an honest arc review ♡
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304 reviews251 followers
April 7, 2025
“College hasn’t exactly been ‘great.’ I would struggle to characterize it as ‘fine.’ ‘Steaming pile of dog shit’ is about right, though not entirely accurate, seeing as dog shit can be cleaned up.”

Desperate to get away from college in New York and dreading being home in Seattle, Zoe does the obvious thing and books a three-day cross-country Amtrak ticket. Smart, really. Turns out three days is just enough time for a confused teenager to fall hopelessly in love.

Leaving the Station is a gem. Don’t get me wrong, this is contemporary YA to a T—don’t expect anything fancy, literary, or particularly original. But it’s just got the magic. I loved Jake Maia Arlow’s first YA romance, How to Excavate a Heart (“so cute it’s almost physically painful,” I noted at the time). And on some level, this is kind of the same book. Setting aside the whole cross-country train trip, they tell similar stories. Leaving the Station is maybe a little less funny, a little less weird, a little more contrived. Which I know makes it sound worse. But it’s really not. Actually, I think it may be better. I can’t really put my finger on why. But I loved it, despite its flaws (among them more than a few one-note side characters and some very unrealistic train delay shenanigans that in real life would almost certainly have left these kids in the middle of nowhere without their bags—at best). Whatever, that’s not the point. Leaving the Station is sweet and silly and the emotional core of it rings absolutely true. The kind of book that feels like an act of kindness in itself.
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936 reviews106 followers
July 20, 2025
A wonderful queer romcom that tackles some deep content while also being descriptive, sweet and relatable. Sure to be one of the top sapphic romances of 2025.

Zoe is escaping from their first semester in New York, they are figuring out if pre-med is right for them. In fact, they're figuring out a lot of stuff. Zoe has a great group of friends from freshman orientation, but soon becomes interested in Alden, another college student that they love hanging out with.

The narrative is dual-linear, meaning we are following both Zoe's experiences on a cross country train ride from New York to Seattle, as well as Zoe's experiences in their first college semester up until fall break. The experiences on the train are well crafted, character-driven, and nuanced. There is a strong theme of train travel and how the characters of Zoe and Oakley evolve and grow as they are on the journey. There is something so romantic about train travel- and everyone on the train has a story as to why they have chosen that transportation method and how they are experiencing the trip.

The narratives following Zoe in college, while starting only 3 months apart, show us that Zoe has learned more about themselves in the experience. The train gives us a side character of Aya, a 9 year old traveling with her mom, she is precocious, sweet, and very realistic.

Jake Maia Arlow writes young people very well, they are bright, clever, and insecure while being confident. It is the ultimate contradiction of teenagers, they simultaneously view themselves as both inferior to and superior to others. Some YA romantic fiction really misses the mark on an 18 year old, their inner dialogue sounds like a much younger child. That is certainly not the case here, and it is a breath of fresh air. I absolutely loved this book. It's so smart.

Thanks to NetGalley and Harper Collins for the advanced copy in exchange for an honest review. Book to be published August 19, 2025.
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November 12, 2024
you ever just write a book about nonbinary lesbian on a cross-country train trip deconstructing gender only to become that nonbinary lesbian on a cross-country train trip deconstructing gender? life really does parallel art smh ...

Hello ! I'm the author of this book, and I wanted to leave you with some content warnings as early copies are going to start going out soon (I will update the CWs with specific page numbers/time stamps once the final version is available).

Generally, this book is about deconstruction in many forms, whether that be gender or religion, so please take care while reading.

More specifically, there is discussion of religious trauma from a Mormon/LDS character, and there is also internalized transphobia from the main character as Zoe processes ~gender stuff~. There is a scene of underaged drinking, and there is an implied derogatory slur toward two lesbian characters that is challenged.

This is not an exhaustive list, and I am happy to update (I am also writing this while sick at 6:50 pm post-daylight-savings which might as well be midnight so I'm a little loopy).
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176 reviews8 followers
February 5, 2025
wait this was so cute i love friendship and plants and gay people

ALSO leavenworth moment?

this was a really fun short y/a book! it IS a romance but i felt like it was equally a book about finding yourself in college and discovering who you are, what you enjoy, and what you want to do in the future. i'm the same age as these characters and i also took a nontraditional education path (gap year) AND i am moving across the country for college. so i felt like this was a very relatable read.

i liked the train setting a lot and felt like the side characters were really fleshed out as real people, not just there to set up the leads.

definitely recommend :D
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308 reviews151 followers
August 24, 2025
This was definitely a rude wake up call for me to start reading the summaries of books before I start them lmao. I ran so fast to double check the synopsis when I realized I was watching a lesbian develop a crush on a boy. I only chilled out once I realized that it was actually a lesbian questioning their identity and mistaking their gender envy for romantic feelings.

Leaving the Station starts with Zoe boarding the train for a 4-day long journey back home to Seattle. Trying to delay the inevitable conversation she’ll have with her parents about the absolute dumpster fire of a college experience she has left behind. On board she meets Oakley, a cool self-assured girl who is also heading back home after her own failed journey.

I definitely wouldn’t go into this expecting a romance novel. This is a very strong coming-of-age contemporary. The central focus is on deconstructing and reshaping identity. There are a lot of conversations around religion, gender, community, and agency. Oakley and Zoe’s interactions are very colored by these philosophical discussions comparing and contrasting their experiences. They both have these big decisions that have to be made after they get off the train.

It’s understandable that they form a very strong attachment to each other considering the raw conversations they have and the very isolated feeling they share. And also since they both have their first queer experience with each other. I don’t really see them working long term, but I think they formed a really strong companionship. It was interesting seeing how their values and personalities clashed.

I liked the shenanigans they got up to on the train and the people they met. I could see that Arlow was trying to highlight the wide range of people you would meet on such a trip, but a lot of the people they encounter felt kind of hollow. I liked Aya though. I didn’t really care for the flashbacks to Zoe’s time on campus. I think the story still would have worked without them. Zoe is definitely a complex character that was difficult to like at times. If I was Oakley I would have punched Zoe in the face after she said she had a boyfriend back at school.

This will certainly be a very relatable novel to those wrestling with their gender and sexuality, as well as going through a huge life change like starting college.
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1,404 reviews215 followers
June 16, 2025
I’ve pretty much loved every book I’ve read from Jake Maia Arlow. They have such a knack for creating complex, messy queer characters who go on interesting personal journeys. Leaving the Station is a beautiful story about two characters, Zoe and Oakley, connecting on a cross country train ride as they’re going home for Thanksgiving. They’ve both left home looking for new experiences, but haven’t exactly gotten what they were looking for.

The explorations of queerness, gender identity, and religion were all so interesting. I loved seeing all the different conversations that Zoe and Oakley had, when they would open up, and when they pushed back against one another. While it was tough to read about, getting to see all the ways that Zoe was struggling during the first year of college just felt so incredibly real.

Definitely check this out if you enjoy queer YA romances that also tackle deep subject matter!

Thank you to the publisher for providing an advance copy via NetGalley. All opinions are my own.
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685 reviews151 followers
December 26, 2024
2.5 ✨️
I know a lot of people will absolutely love this and while there were aspects I loved as well (the two timelines, the gradual exploration of gender and how to express what and how you feel when you're not sure if you want to be *with* someone or just *be* like them, the way the first semester of college can feel like a fresh start but also like a competition to figure out who you are before anyone else labels you), I didn't vibe with the way these two characters interacted with literally anyone in the story. Another reviewer called their conversations a weird mating ritual and I can't help but agree. Every single conversation that was about something real felt staged and secondary characters were merely used to create conflict where the MC and Oakley could then battle out social issues to show just how woke they were and how attractive that then was to the other one. A lot of characters were stereotypes so it could be shown just how bad and sleazy some people are and while no one loves hating men on principle more than me, here I felt like you could have also just beat me over the head with it and be done already. It just really rubbed me the wrong way, especially since there is a whole cast of secondary characters and they all sound the exact same, from the small girl Aya to the MC's (ex)boyfriend Alden (also do not get me started on how they handled a situation with a kid and their mom and a secret being kept from the daughter because I will riot). Alas, if the secondary characters had been more fleshed out, maybe the "make clear just how woke and up and up you are on social and political and religious commentary" would have felt more genuine and less like it was supposed to educate the reader.
Again, this book will be a smash with so many readers and I'm so so glad we're getting more representation of gender questioning in older YA characters, but it simply wasn't my cup of tea. 🤷‍♀️ hopeful that another book by the author might be up my alley, though!
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738 reviews17 followers
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September 19, 2024
god i am so excited??!?! deconstructing gender?? road trip vibes but on a train?? religion? lesbian? coming of gender? dual timelines? college as the other location? cannot wait!!!!
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373 reviews12 followers
August 17, 2025
Did this author split my soul into two pieces and name them Zoe and Oakley? It sure feels that way!

Zoe, after a disastrous end to their first semester at college, has decided to take a cross-country train trip home to Seattle for Thanksgiving break. We get to experience both timelines throughout the book, learning more about what happened at college and how it’s affecting them in the present timeline.

On the train, they meet Oakley, a blonde lesbian who’s reconciling with leaving the high-demand religion of Mormonism. She moved to New York City in search of community, but ended up feeling more lonely and out of place than ever. The train leaves both characters with nowhere else to be, and the two find comfort and connection in each other as they open up about what they’re going through.

The amount of care and intention that went into crafting this book is clear, and as a queer ex-Mormon myself, it means a lot to see many of my personal experiences represented so well in a fictional character. It’s also powerful how Zoe’s internal monologue is told throughout the book, as we get their self-discovery of their gender and acceptance that they don’t have to have it all figured out.

On top of that, the writing is impeccable, and every single character stands out. The connections Zoe and Oakley make on the train are palpable, not only with each other but also the other passengers. Aya, an adorable 9-year-old girl on the train with her mother, is a standout character who is endearing and realistic in all of the best ways.

The romantic storyline is also beautifully done. Because of the temporary nature of the train trip, it feels natural and authentic how the characters are drawn to each other. It stands out that they communicate well and encourage honesty in one another, showing depth beyond physical attraction (though that chemistry is also strong and well-done). All of the rom-com beats I love come through strongly, but my expectations are also subverted in the perfect ways at every turn. I’d be laughing and giddy one moment and crying the next, and that’s just how I like it.

All of those things make this book both the perfect rom-com and an extremely important and valuable book for young queer people who are also in the midst of figuring themselves out. It’s powerful to see stories like this in fiction, both for the representation that makes people like me feel seen, and for the empathy it can hopefully foster in people with different lived experience. It’s highly bingeable and fun to read, but also full of depth and real situations. I highly recommend it if any of those things sound relatable to you or anyone you know. It might hit closer to home than you expect, but in the best way possible!
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985 reviews31 followers
December 10, 2024
Zoe’s life is spiraling, but a chance meeting on a cross-country train with Oakley might just be the fresh start they both need.

*thank you NetGalley and the publisher for a digital copy of this book to review.*

First of all… this cover and premise is iconic. Road trip, but make it a train. Religion questions, gender, queerness… this book has a little bit of everything!!

*spoilers*

I absolutely loved the back and forth between before the trip and during. It was such an effective storytelling tool. I felt everything right along with Zoe. When they start questioning everything about who they are and why they are attracted to Alden. When the wonder about Oakley. Ugh I just loved it!

The train characters were so incredibly great. Who wasn’t crying by the end with Aya and Edward?? And the epic grand gesture. Truly wonderful.

I really enjoyed my time in this world. 💜
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17 reviews
December 24, 2024
This book is a mixed bag for me. I really did not gel with the first half, but the second half was alright. Don’t be fooled by the adorable sapphic romance cover though, you’re not really getting that here. In the first half, the way the two main characters talk to each other and flirt came off as a bit rude. It brought back memories of bad dates and negging.

I do want to address some positives first. The plot meanders over the course of a cross country train ride, with occasional flashbacks to a past relationship that led to a falling out in a preexisting friend group. By the time you get to the halfway point, it starts to make sense what the two main characters’ plot lines are. They’re both really struggling and running away from themselves and their lives, but there is substance there, and that was interesting. In the last bit the main characters’ relationship just kind of hits the gas all of a sudden and all plot points are instantly resolved, which was pretty jarring, but at least the plot does resolve by the end, which is a plus. There was a very nice subplot about a side job at a greenhouse that I really enjoyed, and the character of Alden ended up surprising me. There was something that came up with him that I wish got explored a bit more.

On to a few drawbacks. The book is heavy on the social commentary, which is weaponized as a mating display, and there’s not much nuance to it. I’ll admit this is one of my pet peeves, and I couldn’t get past it. Some of the characters are stereotypes who exist just to demonstrate this social commentary. Interactions with side characters feel unnatural at times. At parts it almost had me recalling that movie The Room by Tommy Wiseau, because people were just popping into scenes and saying things you really just wouldn’t expect them to say. The unnatural scenes and dialogue are used to propel the plot in a specific direction and carry the narrative. The narrative kind of presents itself as being groundbreaking while not really clearing the bar, which leaves it feeling a bit pretentious at times. One of the characters is frequently described as being so smart, but it just doesn’t feel earned. That’s a show-don’t-tell type of deal. If you have to spell it out, they probably aren’t pulling weight there. The child in the book doesn’t really act or speak like a child. Kind of on that point, all the characters have the same voice. You could swap out one name for another and not tell the difference in most cases.

About a third of the way in, the girls are running around a train doing a scavenger hunt and one of them finds a breastfeeding mom and main character starts trying to strike up a conversation with her while she’s doing this (girl no). The baby is described as looking up at her, so that means the boobs are just out on display right there on the train. Some man, who apparently has been watching this woman breastfeed (excuse me??) says he noticed she fell asleep with her eyes open! What?? Wild to begin with but no mom should be doing this, it’s very unsafe. Then the mom wakes up and (boobs still out I guess) forces this complete stranger to take her baby for her! I wanted to DNF the book there, but I did want to give it a fair shake so I stuck it out.

Overall though, it’s a no from me dawg. I’m really sorry to the author, I know they are active on here and it’s giving me heartburn. To borrow from the Boulets, literature is art and art is subjective, so if you can stomach some indelicate social commentary, some unintentionally wacky characters and scenes, and the main characters’ borderline unpleasant dispositions in the first half, check it out. 2/5 stars.

*An uncorrected proof of this book was provided by the publisher at the reviewer’s request in exchange for a fair and uncompromising review.
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300 reviews407 followers
July 11, 2025
Got an arc from ABA

This was charming! A fun fast read you can knock out in a day that I feel is definitely gonna resonate with the kids who don’t know who they wanna be. I wish I’d had this in college when I felt so overwhelmed and unsure. It deals with some heavy shit but in an optimistic way that makes you feel decidedly less alone, and I love that
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871 reviews68 followers
June 1, 2025
5 Stars

I loved this book so much. It takes some really big questions, the kind of big questions and hard decisions that don't have concrete answers. It isn't a coming-out story but a figuring-it-out story, and I love that, too. Questionably marketed as YA, because I don't know that these questions are ones the YA market will invest in as much as an older audience might. But that's just a marketing issue. In every other regard, I loved it. I highly recommend it, and I've got a lot more to say about it.

But that will have to wait for my full review, available at Gateway Reviews on August 8, 2025. Swing by if you get the chance!

Note: I was provided with an ARC by the publisher through Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. All opinions here are my own.
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August 24, 2025
This book reminded me why I love YA so much! I loved the exploration of self and our place in the world. I loved the deep conversations around religion and that complicated feeling of missing parts of a religion, but debating if the good outweighs the harm of the bad. I also loved reading about the high of falling for someone and the exploration of feelings as two people reach new levels of intimacy for the first time.

This has truly become a new favorite book of mine! I loved the whole cast of characters from our MC to our LI to all the side characters on the train. I adored them all!

I highly recommend this one!

Thank you NetGalley and Storytide for a copy of this eARC.
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January 11, 2025
Thank you to NetGalley for gifting me an ARC!
I am so excited for this book to be out and to be in the hands of nonbinary lesbians out in the world. At a time where a lot of people are wrongfully questioning the validity of being lesbian AND nonbinary, I’m glad that a book like this exists because it shows young adults that their existence is not up for debate. This story explored gender envy and sexuality exceptionally well, in addition to other topics such as religion, friendship, and questioning your career path. I am looking forward to reading more from this author.
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October 21, 2024
If you've read any of Jake Maia Arlow's other work (and if you haven't, why have you been living under a rock??), you know we're in for a treat!!! Lesbians on a train LFG!!!
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252 reviews13 followers
December 21, 2024
There's a fundamental raw honesty to this book. I did not always like Zoe, but my God, were they relatable. And not just because I'd shared a number of their experiences, from college burnout, to questioning my own identity and sexuality (ace-spec may be orthogonal to non-binary, but it can throw some similar confusion wrenches into everything,) to love of train journeys. Arlow's words serve as a fierce conduit to every one of Zoe's emotions, and watching them grow and develop was pure joy.

What I liked most of all was the subtlety of this growth. Arlow never had to beat me over the head with the fact that Zoe was growing more empathetic and better at meaningfully connecting to others. Just look at the difference in the way the Tees are described early on—very aesthetic-based, almost no internality—and the small yet intimate details we learn about the other passengers on the train. The growth is shown, not told, and it's beautiful.

Like Zoe, I did not always like Oakley, but as with Zoe, I'm glad Arlow let her keep her flaws, instead of idealizing her as a love interest. Both were real, and vulnerable, and messy, and I almost surprised myself with how much I wound up wishing them well. (Still think she was a self-absorbed hypocrite for the way she treated Nanami, though.)

In fact, let me go further with that. Arlow made so, so many wise, empathetic, nuanced character choices throughout this book. A lesser author would have found a way to vilify Alden. Or dismissed Virginia as old and therefore conservative/hostile. Or used Aya as a cute prop instead of a believable, three-dimensional child. Arlow did none of that, leaving their book richer with every choice.

Publishers' comps are not always to be trusted, but in this case, the comparison to Nina LaCour is very apt. Leaving the Station shares the same warmth I associate with LaCour's writing, and I'm so glad I picked it up on the basis of this comparison.

Thank you to NetGalley and Harper Collins for the free ARC in exchange for an honest review. All opinions within are my own.
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293 reviews4 followers
August 20, 2025
I enjoyed Arlow's How to Excavate a Heart, so I picked up this one with giddy anticipation. A non-binary lesbian who takes a 4 day train trip from New York to Washington state right before Thanksgiving Break to flee the shit show of their first college semester and falls for an ex-Mormon lesbian who is also pondering her life and choices?!? Well, I was in, as a travel, finding yourself, romance is always something I'm down for, and there's always something romantic about trains!

Zoe had fled her college life after spending the semester flunking out, alienating the queer friends who took her in early on, and dating Alden, a guy who enthralls and interests her, yet one who they cannot love. And this has further complicated their feelings towards their gender and sexuality. Their only solace has been a job working at the campus greenery, caring for the plants and making them grow. When they meet Oakley in the dining car, they start to see that maybe their original thoughts on her sexuality are still true, but what does that mean about the past 4 months? Alternating between the present 4 days on the train and flashbacks that slowly reveal the bombshell of the last 4 months from Zoe's perspective is an effective way to reveal the true understanding and wrestling that both Zoe and Oakley go through. The side characters, especially Aya and Edward, represent the found family vibes that are common in travel stories. While this was much more serious than I originally expected, as the story and train progressed, I found I was rooting for Zoe in a way that I didn't initially expect the first few chapters in. I was rooting for their understanding and joy and the realization that "all you can do is live right now...and not worry if it's the best life you can live. Maybe it is; maybe it isn't. But it's the best life you can life right now" (bless Virginia--what a gem she turned out to be!). A great read to hand to any student who is struggling with identity, religion, sexuality, etc.

Thanks you to Harper Collins and Netgalley for the e-AC. This one is out today!
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218 reviews68 followers
July 11, 2025
This was a truly gorgeous book. It's incredibly introspective and encourages the reader to think about so many things regarding identity, community, and who we are in the past, present, and future (and, of course, on the train).

Leaving the Station is a Young Adult book, but it definitely leans towards a more mature young adult audience, which I really appreciated as someone who has mostly grown out of the genre. This is a book that could be enjoyed by an audience of any age, and provides reflections that are relevant at any point in a person's life (as represented in the novel). Further, though the book is only 300 pages long and takes place over a time period of four days, the plot and character development feels complete and unrushed, and I truly believed that these characters could form such strong connections during the span of the train ride, which is a really hard thing to write and which I very often have criticisms about. Arlow however is a genius with pacing and narration, and there wasn't a second of this book that I felt needed to be longer or shorter.

Both Zoe and Oakley are incredibly strong main characters, and I really enjoyed the way their stories and lives are running parallel to each other and how they helped each other make sense with themselves and their place in the world. While the romance in this book is far from the main point, it is certainly central and emphasizes the true messages of the story. The side characters were just as engaging, and I really felt like I understood the magic of a cross-country train ride and who we are in the undefined time between where we're going and what we've left behind.

TLDR: Absolutely fabulous, and I want to take a four-day train ride.

I received a free arc of this, but the review is my own.
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2,262 reviews492 followers
August 21, 2025
I wasn’t sure if I could fit this one in when the publisher sent it to me, but I was able to and it was worth it. There was a lot to like about this story. And a lot to really think about and that even learn or understand a different viewpoint.

Zoe has gone to school thinking she can finally be a lesbian in the open. She can own her sexuality as she feels it is supposed to be. In fact right away she meets a group of people who are gay or fit on the LGBTQ spectrum in some way. And they become her friends. But shortly after she sees a boy that she can’t take her eyes off of. And now, while she’s always thought she was gay, she has a boyfriend. Because of this she is soon pushing away her first day friends. I think it was because she felt like she couldn’t really be in a straight relationship around them since maybe she felt it was a lie? And as the relationship with Alden progresses, because he really does like her, she soon finds that maybe she’s attracted to him, or pulled toward him for reasons other than sexual attraction. And she finds that maybe she is more trying to learn about her gender than her sexuality.

The story is told over her train trip home from college for Thanksgiving. In between the flashbacks we get her current story on the train when she meets Oakley, who she is sexually attracted to. Oakley has her own issues though. She left her Mormon family to go to NYC to explore her sexuality. She had planned to have all sorts of experiences, but now she is going back home to her family, and thinks she is just going back to her religion and former life as well. She does have her “queer experience” as she refers to it with Zoe on the train though.

The two girls really get to know a lot about each other over the train ride. Not to mention there were some great characters on the train with them. The snack cart guy. A little girl who kind of adopts first Zoe and then Oakley. The older couple that are sitting at the dining table with Zoe and Oakley the first night on the train, and others.

I loved the way the story ended up, both girls figuring out that basically they were still trying to figure things out. For Oakley that meant maybe not just going back home and forgetting Zoe. For Zoe it meant that maybe she had to deal with how she told her parents and what she did next differently. As I mentioned at the beginning, there was a lot to read and think about, especially from Zoe’s POV when she figured out what it was about Alden that she was pulled by. And I liked the whole aspect of why Oakley decided at first just to go back to her family and religion. I’m sure many people do just go that easy route. And I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with that, it’s just something that made me think.

Review first posted on Lisa Loves Literature.
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859 reviews17 followers
July 14, 2025
Thank you to Harper Kids and Netgalley for providing me with an eARC. All thoughts are my own.

This was such a wonderful read. It takes place on a train journey across the US and it really felt like I was on that journey alongside those characters.

This whole book felt so personal and raw and earnest and at times that made the main character unlikeable, but not in a way I was unsympathetic towards. Everything Zoe did, I understood even if I wanted to shake her into making better choices.

Oakley, despite not being a POV character, was just as full and fleshed out as Zoe. She shares so much of herself with Zoe and therefore the audience and I loved her so much.

Everyone Zoe connects with on this journey was so wonderful to meet and get to know. I genuinely felt like I was on this train with them, chatting to them too.

It was honestly the epilogue that tipped this into a 5 star read for me. Only two pages long and from the POV of a plant and yet it made me cry so there’s that.
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675 reviews16 followers
August 23, 2025
oh this was such a wonderful book🥺🥺🥺🥺at first i was like meh too YA/early college for me but there was a lot in here that transcended age/was just wonderful. the characters were amazing and so fleshed out, the conversations around religion were wonderful (i loved the judaism stuff but i also loved the mormon stuff! who knew!) i really liked the complexities around gender and relationships and sexualities and i’m glad it wasn’t just “ugh straight boy” with alden (he was actually so great and lovely). aya was also great. i mean so were zoe and oakley but that’s a given. the train stuff was so cool and original!!! i giggled and highlighted the shit out of it too. all in all, just a wonderfully beautiful and original book that i kinda wanna cry about (but maybe that’s more to do with other things)
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92 reviews3 followers
March 22, 2025
I absolutely loved this book so much! This is the second novel I’ve read from Jake Maia Arlow and felt so connected to the characters. The queer self discovery the characters go through is so so relatable. I wish I had this book when I was younger. I felt such shame being a lesbian growing up in religion and this made me feel like a part of me has been healed. The found family from the cross country train trip made this so good!! I loved the whole cast of characters.
The flashbacks to Zoe’s college experience really made you understand what she was battling and went though mentally, physically, and emotionally. I feel like this is going to be a comfort read for me going forward and I’d recommend this book to anyone. I can’t wait to read more from Jake Maia Arlow in the future.

Book comes out on August 19th, 2025.
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249 reviews8 followers
April 4, 2025
This was my first Jake Maia Arlow book, and I was pleasantly surprised by how much I enjoyed it. I initially picked up this book because I love character driven stories and this one felt like a coming of age, introspective book and of course it takes place on a train from New York to Seattle, which being a PNW girl meant I had to pick up. I found the flow of the book to work pretty seamlessly. I liked being able to learn about the MC both in present and the past to see what led them to where they are now. I also appreciated that this book was in fact messy. There were no perfect answers or endings because life just isn't that way. When it comes to identify and having to navigate labels with gender identity, religion, and having your whole life mapped out the first year of college, it's going to be overwhelming. The MC did make a lot of mistakes that others might find childish, but I truly believe as humans we need to give each other grace. All in all, I've found this to be a thought provoking, but fun read. I loved the other characters on the train and learning their stories alongside our MC. I'm definitely intrigued to check out Arlow's other work.
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280 reviews7 followers
December 28, 2024
Love the idea of the train passage across America. Themes of identity, friendship, and coming of age. Cute story.
45 reviews1 follower
March 30, 2025
I had a terrible time with this and couldn't wait for it to be over, probably would have DNFed but persisted to review because it was an ARC. Every character was annoying and insufferable but the mc was the worst. They didn't care about anyone really and basically viewed all ppl as just NPCs in their story. The only character I liked at all was Alden because he was just being himself and didn't know what mess he had gotten into.

Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for the e-ARC in exchange for an honest review.
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