I Didn't Ask to Be Crazy is a collection of poetry and personal essays centered around mental illness. Sadee Bee shares her journey with bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, and PTSD, through creativity and raw honesty. It is a collection designed to convey the message "you are not alone." Sadee Bee is an up-and-coming poet with great interest in helping others understand that mental illness exists on a spectrum and not every experience is the same. She hopes others in need find solace in her words and understand that even if suffering cannot be seen on the surface; it doesn't mean it isn't happening. "I Didn't Ask to Be Crazy is only the beginning. Yes, the theme is dark and that is intentional. As I write about my life with mental illness, I wanted to highlight the fact that not everything ends up being positive. Sometimes dark moments are just dark moments. This collection itself is representative of my dark moment. While I am on the other side for the moment; take everything written with the knowledge that a lot of people have been where I have. I Didn't Ask to Be Crazy is only a snippet of time in the wild world that is my mind." - Sadee Bee
Thank you to the publisher and booksirens for an arc.
I think this was beautiful and so brave. To write about the pain and experiences with suicidal thoughts and mental illness (bpd in particular) takes so much strength and I applaud the author for this so much. I think if you know what you're in for, this could make you feel less alone and feel heard.
Thanks to Booksirens and Netgalley for the ARC in exchange of an honest review. 3.5 Stars Perhaps my expectations are to be blamed cause I thought that I will enjoy this poetry and essay collection more than I actually did. It dives into a topic that is one of my favorites to read about, i.e, mental illness. But I simply couldn't connect or sympathize with some of the emotions and their inferences of the author. But overall it's still a good book.
This powerful and meaningful novel dictates the harsh experiences that this personal representation of a Black woman, ensures with regards to her mental health. It is written in the format of free-form poetry, as well as narrative extracts, all of which outline the struggles that the persona is tasked with facing. The negative issues in this novel are what enhances its powerful influence, as the author manages to portray these detrimental issues in ways that evoke a myriad of emotion and understanding amongst her readers.
This book is beautifully written as it focuses on the poet's craft and how their writing style can effectively portray the societal issues faced in a modern day society. Mental health is not only discussed as a whole, but also specifically with regards to women, and how society treats the average Black woman, who behaves "dramatically" or "angrily." The personification that is littered throughout this book, is tremendously done, in my opinion, as it brings words to life - literally. The depiction in "Twenty-six letters" is significantly powerful, as well as the humanization and ironical feminization of Anger, and how it correlates with the views of mental health as a societal issue.
There could be criticisms with regards to the narrative and poetic techniques utilized, as well as the way that the author portrays such serious topics through her own methods. However, this stunning work of poetry impacted me in ways that caused me to resonate with the words being provided to me, as well as the deeper meanings between every statement provided to us, the readers.
Overall, this book is so beautiful and I highly recommend it to anyone, as long as they carefully heed the trigger warnings that I listed above. The topics in this novel are discussed magnificently, and I personally appreciate this novel so much, as I have strongly connected with it and the author's writing style.
I felt like there was a weight on my chest the entire time I read this. It was so raw and honest, and you don’t often get to see into the minds of people with a mental illness because it’s still not talked about enough. This book leads the way to conversations, to important truths of what it’s like to live with these thoughts and emotions that you can’t control, to reaching out to someone you love and trust, to getting help, and to getting rid of any stigmas associated with mental illness. This book took a lot of courage to write and publish and I hope it helps someone else realize that they’re not alone.
Thanks to Netgalley and BooksGoSocial for the ARC of this!
I don’t read a ton of poetry, but when I do I love to see if focus on things that I find very relatable, in this case mental health. The poet struggles with suicidal thoughts, which is not something I’ve ever dealt with, but I found it moving all the same. I enjoyed the essays most of all, because I sometimes struggle to read poetry, though I wish I enjoyed it more. Overall, I found this to be a moving collection that gave insight into the author’s struggles.
The cover is absolutely gorgeous! This is very good about explaining how mental health is and how you might act around other people because of it. I can relate to this, because I have my own mental health issues. This did make me feel a lot and the writing was very good. I would recommend to anyone who like poetry, learning or reading about mental health and how it affects people. I just reviewed I Didn't Ask to Be Crazy by Sadee Bee. #IDidntAsktoBeCrazy #NetGalley
A powerfully well written short read on mental illnesses.
I usually am unable to find myself relating to poems but Sadee has done a wonderful work of getting the reader to relate and feel her just the slightest bit of the hardships she has endured due to being bipolar and depressed and strength to get through them.
Thank you to NetGalley and the publisher for providing this book in exchange for an honest review. This short book is filled with poetry and short essays about the author's struggles with various mental illnesses. She conveys her point that one is not alone in their struggles. I'm not a big fan of poetry so I did get more out of the short essays.
"Duality is necessary Yet, it is tearing me in two. The only thing I truly want Is to fully love, and to be loved too."
This poetry collection centers around the poet's issue with mental illness. I could definitely relate to some of the poems. I wish there were more positivity with some of the poems because it's pretty dark to read, but overall enjoyed this.
Open and succinct, Bee tells her life stories. I could relate with some, having gone through them myself. Sometimes word for word. She's a wonderful person of many identities, all that she tries to arrange in a manner that is easy to follow. I can imagine how powerful some of them would be when read aloud. I'm grateful she could write about these times and reflect.
That title and cover too. Mmm! So delicious!
Wished to have read aspects that went deeper. Beyond accentuating the stigmas, more of empowerment, healing, and self-identity. There are a few poems in there that highlight them. Maybe another essay? Or dare I say, go darker? Because it could go further on that end too.
I'm wondering how the poems would sound with further word and tense play too. Many poems were written with a passive voice and linear structure. Toying with negative space perhaps could make statements pop on the page (although I acknowledge that as a projection of my personal preference).
I Didn't Ask to Be Crazy is a labor of love, and it shines. Without that honest zeal for expressing her truths, I may have been harsher on my rating. I always like whenever someone cracks open that egg within them, peeks into that yoke, and slides it out to the world. I'd only wish for more. Feels like an accent stone on that gorgeous ring. Hope Bee keeps writing!
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
Perhaps maybe my expectations were the reason I didn't like this as much as I was expecting too.
This collection of poems and personal essay centered around Bee's mental health issues.
Perhaps at the beginning I was expecting something deeply personal and devastating which I didn't get. While certainly this is a collection that has a lot of love and strength put into it, it didn't connect with me the way I expected.
My person favourite parts of the collection was "the night I burnt my suicide note" and "I am dying even though I'm alive." Perhaps this was because I related to these sections deeply and they reflected my own thoughts and feeling at times through my journey with mental illness.
With poetry and essays not everything resonates with everyone and I guess aside from those 2 nothing else did on a level that would have made me feel a type on kinship.
Though despite that, maybe from the perspective of someone who does not suffer from mental health issues this would make them feel different. As much as this is a personal and visceral piece if writing I can't help but feel that this was not meant for me. That doesn't mean that I would not recommend it though because I absolutely would.
Firstly, thank you to NetGalley and the publisher/author for a review copy in exchange for an honest review.
When I saw the book blurb, I immediately wanted to read it as I too share the author’s diagnoses. However, because of this common background, I found myself frustrated by the author’s preface focusing on stigmatisation entirely in the negative. Yes, it is true that there is stigma attached but through talking about bipolar and BPD with friends and family - and more tellingly strangers and acquaintances - I haven’t experienced any subsequent negativity. I hope that readers of this collection aren’t dissuaded from sharing their own mental health stories. It has given me more strength than I can say.
Regarding the poetry, I could relate to the content which propelled my reading, but I’m afraid I found the style to be unpolished and simplistic. I totally get that when experiencing bipolar lows, that kind of simple phrasing is the best we can often muster so it does reflect that lived aspect. However, for me, it didn’t make a gripping read I’m afraid.
Wishing the author all the best upon publication and in the future.
This book is a collection of poetry and short essays about mental illness. The author shares her journey with bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder and PTSD through creativity and raw honesty. It is a collection designed to convey the message "you are not alone.” Though the book theme is dark and so is the severity one face when they’re in their darkest phase of life. I can easily relate to each poem as I was reading I was going back to my own memory lane which is not always rainbow. In order to write about mental illness, the pain and experiences with suicidal thoughts takes so much strength and one need to be brave to convey your thoughts out in the wild. This book is beautiful you need to read this.
Highly recommended.
Read and reviewed voluntarily, opinions expressed here are unbiased and entirely my own.
Thank you @netgalley and @booksgosocialgroup for the #drc in exchange for a honest review.
This is a raw and real invitation into the life and mind of someone being boldly and unapologetically honest about their mental illness. Whether you are someone that identifies or adjacent to someone that does, loving the hard ones to love, this collection of essays and poems can give you a sense that you are not alone in the struggles. It can at times set the reader on edge, but because we should be, jostled out of the common-place pattern of ignoring each other and the world's we each live under the surface. Sadee is fearless in her pursuit to cross the boundaries many of us live behind, but it is precisely this fearlessness that begs the reader to bare all as well and begin living a more authentic existence. Coming through it all is a resounding call, one we can all relate to, the desire to be fully know, and loved nonetheless.
Unabashedly raw, intense, frank, and truly exceptional, Sadee’s poems are nothing short of a revelation. Notes about mental illness, personal and poignant, filled with the kind of honesty that makes an impact, these poems aren’t easy to read. They tackle themes we usually avoid, are dark and brooding at times, and yet, they bring to light issues we all should be talking about more. The poems are a window into the author’s fractured soul but are also words I could easily relate to. Although I ended up highlighting quite a few quotes from the book, here are a few I’d like to share… “Hope within yourself drives life outside.” “Leaves of trees provide little comfort Mother Earth is nourishing them while drowning me” I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
WOW!! From the start, I was madly highlighting passages left and right. There were so many passages that I connected to! It feels like kismet that I read this book this month since it’s Mental Health Awareness month. The authors willingness to be open and honest about her journey with mental health is so admirable! I know that readers will greatly appreciate it; I know I did. I received a complimentary review copy from the author via @booksirens but it no way influences my review. Don’t miss out on this fantastic collection! Check out some of my favorite quotes from this powerful and raw book!
✨ Mental illness can be fatal. I’m fighting hard not to be another one of its victims
✨ All my life I’ve been desperate to be happy. Searching hopelessly for something I’ve never known
✨ I never wanted to be resilient. It is a title that was thrust upon me early in life
✨ Queerness within me will not be subdued. My brown skin, my wild spirit, my sensuality; they exist for me and no other
There will definitely be more to come about this book but I couldn’t wait until my date to share some of this amazing writing with you guys. With it being mental health awareness month I had to make sure I brought awareness to this book by @sadee__bee called I Didn’t Ask To Be Crazy. As you can see I had a lot of favorite things I tagged in this book but one thing sat with me and hasn’t let go…. “Many people in my life see me as a bubbly, chill girl, a competent human being. It is an imagine I have carefully crafted over the years, and it takes a lot of energy to uphold.” It takes an incredible amount of energy to stay strong and just… be. I am in awe and so thankful I got my hands on this book and I can’t wait to share more with y’all!
The poems in this are heartbreakingly honestly and raw.
This book gets straight to the point. Showing you what goes through the mind of someone with a mental illness.
I picked this one up because I have family and friends with bipolar and/or bpd. And reading this did really help understand it better.
I think this should be read by more people. It lets you in. Shows you what's really going on. The fact she feels she has to hide her illness is just proof of how society deals with mental health. And something needs to change.
I was given a copy of this book by NetGalley for and honest review.
I really enjoyed this book. There are so many things I could relate to. One thing in particular:
"Be still, my beating heart No, really, please be still"
This quote is a great representation of what anxiety feels like. Sometimes your heart starts pounding for no reason, and it's out of your control. It's annoying!
I also like how Sadee Bee talks about death and anger as if they're people or other living beings. My therapist had me describe what my anxiety looked like a few times. I think it's helpful (for me) to think of these feelings as tangible things.
Wow. Parts of this made me feel like someone ripped out my soul, set it on a table, examined it, and wrote down my most personal thoughts and feelings. It's a small poem book, but I had to put it down a few times because it was so raw and real and I felt it so much. I suffer from depression and anxiety and there's such a stigma around it. "Don't talk about it or you're crazy. Fake it til you make it. You have so much to be happy about. It's all a state of mind." It's not like that. You could have everything in the world and still be depressed. Depression doesn't care. This was such a powerful poem book and shows maybe you aren't alone in why you're feeling.
"We save our truest selves for the ones we love, and even that level of openness can be difficult."
A collection of personal essays and poems that deals with mental health, trauma and the stigma surrounding mental health/illness.
I honestly thought that this collection did not hold back and I could relate to a lot of what was being said. I admire and respect the author for how they wrote such powerful essays and poems with their personal experiences attached.
My only regret is the collection being so short! I finished it in under an hour!
Mental illness is something you can’t explain to people. Even if you give them a story they still won’t understand why your feeling this way. As for me I still don’t understand myself half the time. I have my good days and bad days as well, but I never understand why I get a certain way, till this day I still can’t control it. This book showed me that I’m not alone.
Some may have it worse than others but I’m always here if any of you need a friend😊
That’s what I found in this book, a friend to keep me out of my dark places. Thank you for this great book of your deepest thoughts ♥️
Sadee is an amazing writer and wordsmith! The poems and small essays in her work speak to my own inner turmoils and past trauma. This book gives validation for mental health scars that a lot of people hide and for that I thank her for writing this. This book will keep someone from walking off the edge one day.
A big thank to Booksirens and Netgally for providing me with an ebook of this masterpiece
WOW. I have to say that first and then please search up the trigger warnings. This little book brought up so many emotions in me. Beautiful writing to death and about it. Poems on oneself and their experience in this world. Just beautiful.
So many of the pieces in this collection resonated with me. They were powerful, raw and heartbreaking. I encourage anyone who struggles with their mental health to read this so they can feel less alone. And then I encourage anyone who doesn’t struggle with their mental health to read it so they can better understand their loved ones who do.
Slow but unique, it clearly highlighted that for black communities mental illness is still a taboo and thanks to the author's reflections made it more than clear that it is a space to listen, empathizing and learning about the ups and downs of living without good access to mental health.
Chilling and captivating. A collection of poems about mental illness and the pain and strive that come with. Obviously the subject matter is dark but it was very well done. Thanks to Netgalley and Sadee Bee for an eARC.
Thank you NetGalley for the chance to read and review this book!
While one can tell how honest Sadee Bee is being in this collection, the poetry as a whole wasn’t for me. However, I really loved the short essays she included in this book and would read more of those.
Sadee Bee tackles the hefty topics of bipolar depression, medication issues, and suicidal thoughts with grace and brutal honesty. Through the lens of a black woman she describes how the words angry and resilient are thrust upon her and what they have grown to mean. Bee’s poetry is beautifully written and doesn’t glamorize her struggle with suicidal thoughts. Highly recommend this book and look forward to reading more from this author. Thanks to NetGalley for the early read!