Racquel Marie > Quotes

“Maybe it's not about whether my crushes work out in the end. Maybe it never was. Maybe it's about letting myself have them. Letting myself feel love and lust and heartbreak, my own version of magnificent misery in the process, and never changing my heart for anyone's benefit but my own. I don't mind being the lover, the one who waits, but I won't hesitate to love myself with all I've got in the meantime.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“Being queer is hard enough. Don’t lock yourself out of all of this just because you’re scared you won’t fit in the keyhole, without even trying.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“The perks of being queer.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“I may doubt the truths of the world, but never again will I doubt whether or not the person that I am, or may be, is loved or worthy of love. I know myself, and I don’t. Both can be true.
I am not Ophelia: daughter of Polonius, sister of Laertes, lover of Hamlet.
I am Ophelia Rojas: daughter of Miguel and Stella, best friend of Sammie and Agatha, aspirational lover to many, many boys and one girl.
And I am so much more, just waiting to be discovered.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“HAMLET MAY HAVE BEEN A TRAGEDY. BUT OPHELIA DESERVED A COMEDY”
― Racquel Marie , Ophelia After All

“But sometimes, when you’ve known someone for years and they build up this image of you, it’s hard to talk about things that mess with that image. It feels like you’d be breaking some bond of trust between you and that person by being different than you were before. I don’t just mean subtle, slow changes. I mean, like, the big things that they never saw coming.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“But I don’t think the truest love is deemed so because it’s the most painful. Waiting for someone to love you back seems beautiful in a miserable way when you’re young. No offense.” She smiles. “But a life spent waiting is not a life spent loving. It’s a life spent wasting away on the promise of something you’re not guaranteed.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“It's been hard and messy and scary. I want you guys to care about it and what it changes for me, but without it changing us.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“My parents love me. I know this for sure. But I also know they love weddings and grandchildren and the expectations they have for me. They love the daughter they know, but what if I stop being that daughter?”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“...the girl who kissed a girl and liked it but didn't like kissing me...”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“I didn’t react. I didn’t know how to, given the hot, oddly pained feeling that the look she gave me left in my chest. More than that, I was overwhelmed by the confusing intensity of why I suddenly needed to know everything about her.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“it leaves me feeling less like a whole person with a complete, unique makeup, and more like two halves of a girl who is never enough.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“Good things come to those who overcome their fears”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“I think my heart has always half belonged to the world and half belonged to me. But I would've given her the whole thing, had she asked me to.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“Lightning struck, except death isn't lightning. It's the sun setting because it rose. It's an inevitable thing...”
― Racquel Marie, If We Survive This

“The single bloody hand print on the back window reminds me that miracles these days are just the remains of other people’s nightmares.”
― Racquel Marie, If We Survive This

“Not one bit.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“But morbid curiosity is a bruise I've never been able to stop poking, a beast I can't stop feeding despite its insatiability.”
― Racquel Marie, If We Survive This

“But questioning who you are? It’s a risk we all take. It’s your risk to take if you want to. No one else gets to decide this for you; it’s your life.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“She sighs. “You’re every English professor’s dream.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“He’s not all bad,” I defend, unsure exactly why I’m doing it. I guess when you only have one living parent left, you’re more willing to swallow their bullshit. And despite what he does, I can’t fight the ingrained feeling that I can’t speak ill of my family. In my head, and maybe even aloud with Jorge, I can say whatever I want about my dad and the way he treats me. But the rest of the world isn’t supposed to see so transparently what I deal with.”
― Racquel Marie, You Don't Have a Shot

“No matter what changes or who you do or don’t love, I will always love you. That is the legacy I want for you, not to be the girl who loves too much, but to be the girl who is loved more than enough.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“I watch her ruffle her curls while she drives one-handed. They bounce softly around her face in symmetrical coils. She looks like an equation done right. “Your secret is safe with me too.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All

“I smile at the gift, at being human. At loving something that can’t die, gifted by someone who could.”
― Racquel Marie, If We Survive This

“As per usual, though, closure is just out of my reach. Closure means
ending, and I have never known how to swallow one of those without
choking.”
― Racquel Marie, If We Survive This

“I don't want the type of love that uses our bodies to cover the holes in our relationship.”
― Racquel Marie, Our Shadows Have Claws: 15 Latin American Monster Stories

“Getting comfortable is how you die. I’ve never been comfortable, though, not fully. Even when life was
gentle with me, my brain sensed the danger. How generous of the world to finally validate my fears.”
― Racquel Marie, If We Survive This

“I may doubt the truths of the world, but never again will I doubt whether or not the person that I am, or may be, is loved or worthy of love. I know myself, and I don't. Both can be true.”
― Racquel Marie, Ophelia After All