Stephanee Killen's Blog: Buddha Breaking Up Blog, page 2

It’s 2 am, and I’ve just finished Episode 55 of The X-Files (my current Netflix obsession).

I haven’t had to argue with anyone over what to watch in 27 months.

That means boxing on HBO Go some nights or, lately, DVR’d episodes of Alaska: The Last Frontier, where I’m learning how to hunt moose in case I should ever find myself living on a homestead in the wilderness—I could, you know! Or maybe I’ll pick up and go to Miami, where I’d live in a one-room apartment in Little Havana (¡La Pequeña Haba...

I am afraid. I am afraid to share my inner feelings, to allow myself to be truly authentic, to speak my truth. I am afraid to be vulnerable.

What if…

I lose you?

You do not accept the real me?

I have to grieve?

It is our fear that keeps us at a distance from others—and from ourselves. It is fear that causes us to build walls. But our inner sentries do not protect our most sacred self. Instead, they protect the terrified ego—the belief that by controlling a situation or people through manipulation,...

“There are three things extremely hard: steel, a diamond and to know one’s self.” ~ Benjamin Franklin

When I was seventeen, I wanted to split men open like oyster shells.

I was naive enough to believe that those emotionally unavailable, mysterious and brooding Adonises must be hiding radiant pearls inside all that protective casing. Shakespeare, in The Merry Wives of Windsor, said,”Why then the World’s mine Oyster, which I, with sword will open.” [...]

Excerpted from elephant journal. Read the f...

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— Stephanee Killen (@StephaneeKillen) January 5, 2014

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Liberate your awesomeness! Melt snow with your rediscovered badass. Learn the secret of turning heads even while dressed in the awful Christmas sweater Aunt Edith embellished with pipe cleaners. Yeah uh-huh, Santa is going to bring you someone incredible this year: YOU.

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You can spill heavily spiked eggnog on these pages, and they won’t even smear.

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We all understand the concept of being of service to others, but the following reality is far more common: I’m going to disappoint you.

We’ll be going along just fine and then all of a sudden, I may behave in a way you’d rather I didn’t. I may say something that hurts your feelings or keeps you from getting what you want from me, and I’m sorry.

The good news, in the midst of all this disappointment is that regardless of whether we are always capable of being of service to others, we will never...

We all understand the concept of being of service to others, but the following reality is far more common: I’m going to disappoint you.

We’ll be going along just fine and then all of a sudden, I may behave in a way you’d rather I didn’t. I may say something that hurts your feelings or keeps you from getting what you want from me, and I’m sorry.

The good news, in the midst of all this disappointment is that regardless of whether we are always capable of being of service to others, we will never...

What do I need most? The answer is always, "Whatever happens."

— Stephanee Killen (@StephaneeKillen) August 18, 2013

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