Random Ramblings discussion

How did it go?

It was alright. They weren't too annoying so that made it a lot easier haha

Phew, okay XD

I wish I could babysit. Babysitting means money. And I need money. Unfortunately, I have two older sisters and why would someone hire a 13 yro if they could hire a 20 or 17 yro?

True. I could use some money too. But I can't stand most little kids. Unfortunately.

I think if someone wanted to hire a babysitter from my family it'd be me, because my brother is 6 feet {or 6'1"? I really don't know} and always has this extremely intimidating and very. very slightly hostile look on his face if he doesn't know you. Not to mention he sucks at dealing with kids. Not to mention I'm the one who can actually take care of people...XD My brother can't take care of himself.

I'm fine with older little kids like 5, 6, or 7 year olds. I actually can become friends with them. But I'm horrible with younger kids, especially the crying ones. I have no idea what the frex to do when a kid cries.

Haha yeah usually I feel really awkward around kids. Well, around people in general. But I babysit my friend's little sis cause I need cash for gym.

And she's adorable too.

Some kids are okay and some kids aren't. Just like people.
But I guess if I try, I'm like the nicest person you will ever meet child and don't cross me either, thank you, okay?

Adorable kids are the best.

Assuming they aren't really bothersome.

Assuming they don't cry.

Assuming they're nice kids that fit our requirements.

Yes, assuming...

Assuming...

I FORGOT I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW and there're 4 days left so I guess it should count and I'm tired of being tired
So. BYE!

BYE!

OHMYGOD I CANNOT DO CHILDREN. Like. The OCD monster just makes them super panic alert. The sneezing, coughing, nose picking, snot, spit, dirt, ohmygod...

Hahaha, I like little kids unless they're like the Demon Child that goes to my pool. He's seriously scary.

The sound of him sounds scary. o_O

Robin wrote: "OHMYGOD I CANNOT DO CHILDREN. Like. The OCD monster just makes them super panic alert. The sneezing, coughing, nose picking, snot, spit, dirt, ohmygod..."

THAT IS WHY MOST OF THE TIME I CANNOT TAKE CHILDREN. I mean, I'm not officially OCD but I'm a neat freak and I can't stand unorderliness {which is what most little kids are} or grossness or mess. No. Just no.

But I have weird personalities around kids because I get all sweet and understanding and nice and helpful and gentle and delicate and generally amazing and I'm like awh you wanna tissue here go to the bathroom kay?

and other times I'm just like GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME DEAR GOD PLEASE NO NOT THIS GROSS LITTLE TERROR NO NO NOOOO
Except outwardly I'm still nice and sweet except I get the heck out of there and no I will not help you.

I have OCD, so it's also a problem for me.

I see.

Don't make me start the ocean thing again!

I SEA.

I HAVE OCD TOO HIGH FIVE!!!!!!

*high five*

My OCD is sort of getting worse...To the point that I have to count ceiling tiles in my C period class to keep from having a break down because it's so awful. And I wash my hands until they bleed because I just have to. Brush my teeth so much my gums bleed. I have to have the same tea every morning at breakfast. I have a special breakfast for finals/midterms. Like. It's getting debilitating.

With me the major ones are that I can never ever go barefoot (except in the shower), I can't even walk around in socks. And I never touch door handles and such, I use my jacket sleeve to open them.

I have to wash my hands a lot. Everytime I get home from somewhere, and after PE, even if we just walked the track and I didn't even touch anything. My things always have to be neat and organized. One thing I hate is when people borrow my colored pencils because they always have to be in order, always. And people never put them back right so I always end up dumping them out again and rearranging them.
Oh yes, and I always have to check things. If I lock the door, I have to check it multiple times to make sure I actually did it. And if someone does something for me, I have to check and make sure they did it right. Which is why I hate group projects, because I always end up doing most of the work, since I don't trust other people to do it.

I'm not OCD... Soooo yeah.

*I don't have OCD. You can't actually be OCD.

THANK YOU for that distinction. People screw that up all the tiiiiime.

But yeah. My mum's talked about sending me to therapy and to get meds. I just declined.

When it first started (at age 8) my parents sent me to a psychologist.

It was much worse back them by the way...

Wow. If anything for me it's getting worse with time, not better.

Mine is too.

I also have the organizing part of OCD.
It's really obvious if you look at my Goodreads shelves...

Dude. I take half an hour every night organizing my BACKPACK. I redo the silverware drawer every Tuesday.

I'm not OCD, so I can't be OCD...I once read a book about this guy with OCD and one of the things he hated most was having non-OCD people act like they were OCD. So I don't...I'm just another neat freak perfectionist. No OCD. I know people messing that up would definitely bother me...
And do guys arrange the letters so it's alphabetical, like CDO? My friend and this guy I know do that...

I think the guy was having a breakdown and he was ranting about his OCD in the middle of science.

NO.

NO. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DO THE WHOLE "I HAVE CDO. IT'S LIKE OCD BUT THE LETTERS ARE ALPHABETICAL".

Like. No. Just because I have OCD does not mean I am an idiot. Therefore, I logically understand that "OCD" is an ACRONYM. And it actually bothers me MORE when people mess that up because "Compulsive Disorder Obsessions" MAKES ZERO SENSE OHMYGOD

Yes yes yes I HATE when people act like they have OCD when they obviously don't. Like, no. It's not fun to have it. At all. So stop pretending like you do just to get attention.

And I also hate when people think they have OCD just because they have 1 quality of it, like being organized or something. That's not it at all.
I think I've discovered that my OCD is one of the reasons for my low self esteem, because for me, anything less than perfect is not good enough. Like, on a test, if I miss 1 and end up with a 98%. Most people would be stoked about that, but for me, I'm not, because I'm not happy with myself unless I get 100. And it's really getting hard because obviously nobody's perfect, but the OCD is making me feel like I'm not good enough unless I'm perfect. And obviously I can't be perfect, therefore I will never be good enough. It's a circle that I can't get out of, and it's driving me crazy.

Sorry I'm ranting so much btw.

): OCD must be really tough...sorry...
And ranting is what everyone needs, right?

I didn't really get the whole "OCD into CDO" thing because OCD is OCD so..Robin..thanks for your input. It makes sense.

And I should probably leave you all to this...kay..bye..

I've never heard of the CDO thing. That is realllllly dumb. Wow.

Seems like it.

Robin wrote: "NO. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DO THE WHOLE "I HAVE CDO. IT'S LIKE OCD BUT THE LETTERS ARE ALPHABETICAL".

Like. No. Just because I have OCD does not mean I am an idiot. Therefore, I logically understa..."

*cough* OCD is an initialism.

I definitely don't have OCD, so I really don't think I should comment on that.
I'm not really good with small children either, yes that topic from way back at the beginning of this page, but that's because I just have no patience with them. That makes me kinda mean doesn't it...

Nah, we just have different tolerances for children..XP

ahh it's horrible when my relatives come round and then leave me with some cousin who's like four and is totally pissing me off, running riot and not listening to a thing I say. I sit there thinking you can't shout at someone else's child. You can't shout at someone else's child....
Then they finally come back to a completely trashed room and are like-
"Why did you let them do this?"

and I'm like - _ -
I would have done a better face but I'm not very good at doing them, and I kinda got carried away in the rant...