Dont Be Shy™ discussion

I shall call you "sanity" henceforth you are the only think keeping me sane.

S a n i t y,
I am not much of a person to share my thoughts to the world. I might make an exception. Although, I might not share all my thoughts or problems, fore you might think I'm crazy. Here, I'll share what I think is decently normal. But of course, what is normal? Normal could mean a bit of sanity or it could mean insanity all together. As I like to quote, "We are all mad here."

You think I have forgotten to introduce myself in a way. But I certainly have not. Even for lurking eyes, names aren't much needed. After all, you are my sanity.

As I'd like to repeat, I'm not much of a person to share my problems. So don't expect much from me. You'll get the occasional heartbreak entry or maybe a suicidal note but that's just about it. Who knows, my mind might be completely indifferent than yours, or any others. But who gave you permission to lurk through my indifferent mind?
I n s a n i t y

February 8, 2016

S a n i t y,
Hello, again. I have a few thoughts to share. I'll try to be as open as possible only so my insanity doesn't take over.

I was called "ugly" today. Nothing new. But this time for some reason, the word smacked me in the face. I guess it was because not only did I spend more than an hour on my appearance this morning, I also have had sudden bursts of confidence these past two days, which is highly unusual. When I hear a comment like that after a pretty darn good day, my bubble had burst. I then went to the bathroom and washed all the makeup from my face and put my hair in a sloppy bun. After this, I had no cares in the world. I was just a sudden "no one", once again.

{{ Some days I often think, Why do I even try?
I know I am beautiful. I really do.
But what drives a person to say such a thing to another.
I have no clue. }}

It's truly funny how it is so easy to tap someone's breaking point. Coming from a girl who gets her breaking point tapped on like kids at a snake exhibition. I'll admit, I'm not well-tempered. But if I wasn't, that wouldn't make me who I am. One day, people will except me for who I am and not who I'm trying to be. One day. But that day isn't today.
I n s a n i t y

February 9, 2016

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