Saving Noah question

In my honest opinion, I truly loved the way this book made me think. It's such a unique perspective that not many people can put themselves into. This was one of the only books (so far) that has made me actually cry. I don't disagree with the reasons Noah wanted to end his life, but my heart absolutely broke for Adrianne. Was she in denial and would she had been an enabler? Absolutely. But I think it's in a mothers nature to try and see the best in their child despite what they do. It's truly unconditional love.
As for Noah, I can't imagine being so self aware about something as awful as being attracted to children. Do I think he deserves forgiveness? No. Do I think he should have continued living? Not if he knew he would reoffend. But to know that you're a monster and there is nothing you can do about it? Excruciating. That's why I don't disagree with his choice to end his life. Again, it's just an impossible situation to navigate, and I feel like this was the most sane decision to prevent any more harm from happening.