Chronically ill chaos discussion

I have depression too

Same

My depression sucks…it hurts a lot

same Josh 🫤

Yeah same 😭

its mostly my fault because I will hurt myself but it hurts a lot

I have depression too but like it only kicks in in like random situations

Especially ones that are like extra stressful

Yeah I get that

yeah same, something will trigger it

Hi, I am not diagnosed with depression and I am not sure if I have it, what are the symptoms you guys experience?

I definitely have it all the time and it sucks when seasonal depression hits on top of your normal depression

Yeah, I think I might have seasonal depression because I feel way more sad and apathetic on a daily basis during the summer than most of the year

Some symptoms I have are things like tired all the time, I've lost interest in lots of things, I feel major sadness all the time, laughing feels forced, bad thoughts, and lots of other ones

Thanks. Lately I’ve been feeling more emotionless/ apathetic, like when I see something really funny, I’ll think “haha that’s very funny and clever” but I don’t actually laugh, or things that used to make me happy will make me think “oh yay” but I don’t actually FEEL happy, and it’s similar with other emotions too. And the few times I actually DO feel emotions most of the time it’s sadness

Okay sorry to like say this but why did getting a bf trigger my depression a little??? It kinda makes no sense bc im really happy with him

I know that feeling of falling through the floor. The kind of depression that is not just sadness but a full collapse of gravity. There were mornings when even breathing felt like trespassing. I tried to leave this world twice, and the silence of that attempt still lingers in my chest 💔

When I wrote my memoir, it was less about literature and more about survival. I bled on the page because I had nowhere else to put the weight. The book became a strange companion, a witness to my spiral through psychiatric wards, addictions and the nights where ending it all felt like the only mercy 🌑

But it also holds the flicker of love that kept me tethered. Obsessive, manic, unholy at times, yet still the thing that whispered stay. In the middle of all the ruin, that love made me write. My name is Oz Gold, and the book is called Through the Flesh. It is raw, unapologetic, and it does not dress depression in pretty clothes. It shows it the way it lives inside me 🌹

I am not here to advertise, only to say you are not alone in that hollow. Words can be an anchor when nothing else is. And if my words reach someone on the edge, then the pain I dragged into print might serve a purpose beyond myself 🌊 Through the Flesh

izzy pookieee ✧･ﾟ: * wrote: "Okay sorry to like say this but why did getting a bf trigger my depression a little??? It kinda makes no sense bc im really happy with him"

idk why the same things happen to me-- like something that makes me genuinely happy makes me kind of sad inside