Journaling discussion

I've never done this before, I'm kinda nervous...

so, it's currently 5:36 am and I haven't slept yet. and I kind of force myself to stay awake. don't know why. I think I'm really anxious. and that greatly affects my sleep *sighs* I'm going to try to sleep, but I'll probably dream about who knows what, that I won't rest at all.

I was thinking a lot today about how difficult it is to be 16-18 years old.You have to figure out your life without experience or connections. You don't know what to do yet, but you're forced to figure it out. You don't know if the friends you have will stay in your life or if you will meet new friends who will be better. You don't know what the future holds, but you have to think in advance about what you want to do with your life. You feel like no one understands you, not even your friends, siblings, or parents. And on top of all this, you still don't know what kind of person you are, but somehow you have to know what kind of person you want to be. People expect things from you. Sometimes they have high expectations, others have low ones, but you know you'll never be able to meet them. So you ask yourself: What am I going to do?I've been feeling so anxious about it. I've been racking my brains, and I still don't know who I am, what I am. And I don't think I'll ever know.