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Nyghtmare, Master of MMORPG
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Sep 17, 2010 04:05PM

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No you don't. You just hate this particular part. It'll get better. And worse. Don't worry, everyone hates their life at some point. Even the insanely ridiculously rich. I think.
First there's sprains
Then sickness
Bruises and breaks
Cutting and stabbing
Ends in death
What does it mean?
Oh and today my eyes are moss green and tinged with a yellow ring.
Then sickness
Bruises and breaks
Cutting and stabbing
Ends in death
What does it mean?
Oh and today my eyes are moss green and tinged with a yellow ring.
Woah...Deep. Cutting and stabbing...that sounds suspiciously like the people who cut themselves. Is there something you need to tell us? JK, don't worry.
Dude! That's cool!
Dude! That's cool!
you know what's weird? this girl in my P.E. class broke down and said, "Can I go scream in a closet? I'm going to go scream in a closet!" And she ran out of class.
I did that, I had to leave and I screamed in the bathroom. I nearly did it in class and could not work the rest of the day.
It seems every thing that I do, it upsets a family member...
WHY CAN"T I DO ANY DAMN THING RIGHT?!?!?!
WHY CAN"T I DO ANY DAMN THING RIGHT?!?!?!
I can't do it!!!!
MY family nearly found out and I'm to sick to eat a thing from depression!
8 french fries nearly came back up!
MY family nearly found out and I'm to sick to eat a thing from depression!
8 french fries nearly came back up!
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Then sickness
Bruises and breaks
Cutting and stabbing
Ends in death
What does it mean?
Oh and today my eyes are moss green and tinged with a yellow ring."
Oooh ooh!! My eyes are like that tooo!! Except they're like that all the time...except for when I'm crying...then they're freakishly green...and when I'm wearing blue...then they're blue...or when I'm wearing gray...then they're gray. *rants on about eyeballs*

all day I feel dizzy and I'm almost falling asleep, and I haven't smiled much at all. Yet I act....cheery and stuff. I dunno, it's wierd....it's like, if I'm with a friend, or writing something, I feel and act all happy but when it's just me to myself I'm sad and lonely....but in a way, I like it. And I would never, ever kill myself...
I feel depressed because we moved to the U.S from Canada last year, I'd been living in canada my whole life, in the same house for 11 years. Before I moved, my cat whom I loved so much got stolen, then my gecko got so sick we had to give him away, then when we moved I had to leave behind everyone i'd ever known + our three snakes, back home in Toronto where my grandparents live and where I was born. Then my parents moved apart, my dad was seeing someone else for awhile, my parents aren't fully divorced and they're getting back together again which is awesome but they still live apart, the guy i really like is my friend's boyfriend and she's shoving it in my face, and I feel so excluded from my friends....they all talk about things I don't know or care about all the time...
I had kidney cancer when I was 2 and apparently the chemo affected my brain in some ways, so my memory is a bit messed up, and I have a math disorder,and I have a scar that stretches from my stomach to my back which is getting tighter as I get older and taller and bigger, so I can't quite breathe when I run. I pass out from lack or iron sometimes, I take pills for that, I've been to the hopsital for something major nearly evrey year of my life, I was born with a huge birthmark on my lip so I had to get plastic surgery when i was in grade 1....
I miss the snow so much, I can barely exhist without the cold....my best friend goes to the school I really wanted to go to as well....
ok, there it is, the epic story of why i'm sad.

I'm guessing all this depresion is caused because my mom died, my parents got divorced, i haven't deen my brother since june, PEOPLE KEEP MAKING FUN OF MY LAST NAME,i'm i a writters block, my snarkybi-polar mom is up in my case 24/7, my sister is the most annoying person in the world,i'm possibly bi-polar, and the girl i thought was my friend usedme, then pushed my boundries and insulted my mom, and now she tries to insult me at every chance she can.
Not to mention my sister makes fun of me when i cry, my parents leave every night, yet think i can't be alone, and my step mom is holding babysitting over my head whenever i mess up.
FML
