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Natasha Holme

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Born

in The United Kingdom

Website

https://www.lesbiancrushdiaries.com

Twitter

lescrushdiaries

Genre

Gay & Lesbian, Biographies & Memoirs

Influences

Falling in love at first sight with my female teacher at the age of th ...more

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April 2012

URL

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Probably the most prolific diary writer in the history of the world, I have been obsessively recording my crushes on females since the age of fourteen. I currently clock up half a million words per year, but never let on to the woman I'm dating that I jot down everything she says and does.

I LOVED my all-girls public school. Apart from mercilessly hounding Miss Williams, with whom I fell in love at first sight at the age of twelve, I was a model pupil. In my early twenties I swapped my Latin homework for drug-taking and squatting.

Having sported an 'I LOVE MISS WILLIAMS' tattoo on my left wrist for eleven years, I finally tired of the inane questions it encouraged and got a cover-up in 1999.

I'm a list-writing geek and a drummer. I play tabl ...more

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Average rating: 3.45 · 167 ratings · 53 reviews · 5 distinct works

	Lesbian Crushes and Bulimia: A Diary on How I Acquired my Eating Disorder 3.29 avg rating — 91 ratings — published 2012 — 5 editions	Error rating book. Refresh and try again. Rate this book Clear rating 1 of 5 stars 2 of 5 stars 3 of 5 stars 4 of 5 stars 5 of 5 stars
	Secret Diaries Past & Present by Helena Whitbread (Goodreads Author), Natasha Holme (Goodreads Author) 3.83 avg rating — 30 ratings — 2 editions	Error rating book. Refresh and try again. Rate this book Clear rating 1 of 5 stars 2 of 5 stars 3 of 5 stars 4 of 5 stars 5 of 5 stars
	Lesbian Crushes at School: A Diary on Growing Up Gay in the Eighties 3.57 avg rating — 28 ratings — published 2014 — 3 editions	Error rating book. Refresh and try again. Rate this book Clear rating 1 of 5 stars 2 of 5 stars 3 of 5 stars 4 of 5 stars 5 of 5 stars
	Lesbian Crushes in France: A Diary on Screwing Up my Year Abroad 3.53 avg rating — 15 ratings — published 2015 — 3 editions	Error rating book. Refresh and try again. Rate this book Clear rating 1 of 5 stars 2 of 5 stars 3 of 5 stars 4 of 5 stars 5 of 5 stars
	Lesbian Crush Diaries: School, Bulimia, France liked it 3.00 avg rating — 3 ratings — published 2015 — 3 editions	Error rating book. Refresh and try again. Rate this book Clear rating 1 of 5 stars 2 of 5 stars 3 of 5 stars 4 of 5 stars 5 of 5 stars

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Out now: Secret Diaries Past & Present

I have just published a new book—a Q&A collaboration with Helena Whitbread, author of The Secret Diaries of Miss Anne Lister. Anne was a wealthy lesbian diarist who lived two centuries before our time.

Helena and I investigate Anne’s and my obsession with keeping detailed encoded diaries about every aspects of our lives, including our lesbian sexuality. The book is illustrated with photographs of

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Making Connections: 384. LESBIAN CRUSHES AND BULIMIA: A Diary on How I Acquired my Eating Disorder by Natasha Holme	11	54	Sep 29, 2012 02:40AM
Making Connections: 1345. LESBIAN CRUSHES AND BULIMIA: A Diary on How I Acquired My Eating Disorder by Natasha Holme	10	56	Sep 08, 2013 09:42AM
Making Connections: 3347. - LESBIAN CRUSHES AT SCHOOL: A Diary on Growing Up Gay in the Eighties by Natasha Holme	5	27	Sep 24, 2014 01:54PM
Making Connections: 3743. LESBIAN CRUSHES IN FRANCE: A Diary on Screwing Up my Year Abroad by Natasha Holme	2	8	Apr 12, 2015 02:45PM
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“. . . hell is wanting to be somewhere different from where you are. Being one place and wanting to be somewhere else . . . . Wanting life to be different from what it is. That's also called leaving without leaving. Dying before you die. It's as if there is a part of you that so rails against being shattered by love that you shatter yourself first. (p. 44)”
― Geneen Roth, Women, Food and God: An Unexpected Path to Almost Everything

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“A cultural fixation on female thinness is not an obsession about female beauty but an obsession about female obedience.”
― Naomi Wolf

tags: beauty, body-image, culture, eating-disorders, images, society, weight

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“I never travel without my diary. One should always have something sensational to read in the train.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Importance of Being Earnest

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“I wondered if this longing in a three-year-old had sparked what came at eight. That fuzzy feeling of difference, that her crushes on female teachers or her cousin were more real than the other girls' crushes. Hers contained a desire beyond sweetness and attention, it fed a longing, beginning to flower green and yellow into a crocuslike lust, the soft petals opening into her awkward adolescence. It was not so much, she would write in her journal, that she wanted to have sex with women, but that she wanted to disappear inside of them forever. To hide.”
― Alice Sebold, The Lovely Bones

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