For the last...month or so, I haven't been able to really write anything.It's starting to annoy me, quite a bit.I had books that were slated to be written, edited and published that have been pushed back and now I'm a whole month behind in my writing and editing and publishing.I can't help but wonder why.I've been writing since I was a kid but I feel as if my brain and my muse have been sucked right out of me.While I'm so excited by the wonderful things happening in my personal life, I can't help but be a little frustrated by the fact that my professional life seems to be, at least in my mind, suffering a little bit.I'm sure that my characters are talking to me. Know for a fact that Tommy never stops talking to me...ever, but I can't seem to hear them. There's nothing but white noise in my creative brain and I'm trying not to be concerned or worried, but I must admit to a little bit of nervousness on my part.Why me and why now? Now that people are expecting me to write, now that people are taking notice, now it seems as if I'm standing on stage with this huge wealth of talent within me and I open my mouth and nothing comes out.Stage fright. I have stage fright or what equates to writer's block and as someone who has only ever experienced this horrible, scary phenomenon a few times before in his life, and remembering the causes behind it, I can't help but wonder why it is happening now.I am determined to power through of course. So maybe I release free reads on here and on my website (http://www.vicktoralexander.com), different stories for different sites. Maybe I'll try getting you all involved to give me the umph, that push, the encouragement that I need to put my fingers to the keyboard and start writing again.Or maybe I'll just pour my woes out online and hope that somewhere out in the eternal cosmos my muse will hear and return to me from whatever vacation that he went on.Maybe then I'll be able to write again.
-Vicktor Alexander