I’ve come too far to quit. This one scene of my life from a long long time ago continues to play over and over again in my head…

‘You mean to tell me there’s miracles?’

“Of course there are.”

The road to getting to this place has been difficult, challenging and full of mystery at times. I’ve spent thousands upon thousands of hours of learning and digging into areas of life that I never could have predicted I would have to dive into.

The answers were a bit strange.

Not strange in the sense that they were bizarre and hard to understand. More strange in the way that they are so unbelievably potent but virtually unknown. It’s like they were the greatest secrets of all but just a few layers deeper than where most would think to look.

Maybe the inner child in me that loves to dig holes inherently knew that if you continue to dig long enough, you’ll eventually run into something cool.

It was right.

I didn’t get here alone. Far from it. I got here with a handful of mentors, healers and teachers who, once again, I could have never predicted finding. They showed up and echoed the messages that my intuition had been saying for years.

And that brings me to this…

The other day when I was thinking about my struggles with consistency, I came to a particularly interesting insight. It suddenly dawned on me that my difficulty stemmed not from discipline (I’ve got that when I’m locked in) but rather from trust.

Time and time again I felt like my heart had been ripped out…and I don’t know if you can resonate with this feeling, but when you physically feel your chest – like it’s being pulled away from you – because you’re in so much pain, you really don’t want to feel that again.

That doesn’t stop the calling to trust.

All I know is that it takes time to build back your sense of faith. It’s not all gained back overnight. You’re still going to have to work through all of your old baggage – a lot of which is there for good reason – and have the courage to navigate what has been avoided for so long.

But on the other side of all of this is a new way of life.

Miracles do happen.

Trust that.

Evan Sanders
The Better Man Project