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November 21, 2016
Letters to Aiden -- A serial supplement to The SCARS Series
Shadows. All I see is shadows. Everything is blurry.
“Damn it David, You should have never come here. Do you see what you did to her? She is fucked up. In all of my life I have never seen Jordan like this.”
“I didn’t come over to hurt her, Beth. I wanted to check on her. Nobody has been able to get past her mother to check on her. I swear that woman is like a hawk watching over her babies. We cannot even pull into the driveway without that woman coming after us with a fucking baseball bat. Shannon said Jordan was here and I came to check on her. I hate what she is going through, but we are all going through it.”
“No, David. We are not all going through it. We know how we feel, but Jordan is different. None of us truly know what she feels, what she is going through. She went to Aiden’s grave today and came back so distraught all she would do is lay on that bean bag and whimper. She sounds like a dying cat the way she sounds.”
“She needs to talk to someone.”
“Well, you most definitely are not that person. You need to stay as far away from her as possible. If not, she may actually kill you. I have never seen her that angry. Close, but never this bad. You really need to leave before she comes to.”
“Fine, but someday soon, I will talk to her. I need her to know that I fucked up and I am sorry.”
“Today is not going to be the day. You had better be glad when she collapsed that she was by the couch and didn’t hit her head on anything. I think it would be in your best interest to turn yourself in and face the consequences. The police have already been asking around. Before long, they are going to get the proof they need to have you up on manslaughter charges.”
“I know the police are asking questions, they have been to the house a few times. I keep telling them that Aiden was driving when we left the store and that I don’t remember anything after that.”
“You lied to the police. Do you realize how much trouble you are going to be in if they find out different?”
“I didn’t really lie to them. I don’t remember anything after the store.”
“Well, you need to do a bit of soul searching, figure out what you need to do. One thing you need to do right now is leave, she is beginning to mumble. I can’t say what Jordan will do when she comes to, but I have a feeling you will not leave here fully intact”
“Okay, Okay. I’m going. I will call you later. Just promise me you will take care of her.”
“I will do my best. Like I said, I have never seen her like this.”
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“Damn it David, You should have never come here. Do you see what you did to her? She is fucked up. In all of my life I have never seen Jordan like this.”
“I didn’t come over to hurt her, Beth. I wanted to check on her. Nobody has been able to get past her mother to check on her. I swear that woman is like a hawk watching over her babies. We cannot even pull into the driveway without that woman coming after us with a fucking baseball bat. Shannon said Jordan was here and I came to check on her. I hate what she is going through, but we are all going through it.”
“No, David. We are not all going through it. We know how we feel, but Jordan is different. None of us truly know what she feels, what she is going through. She went to Aiden’s grave today and came back so distraught all she would do is lay on that bean bag and whimper. She sounds like a dying cat the way she sounds.”
“She needs to talk to someone.”
“Well, you most definitely are not that person. You need to stay as far away from her as possible. If not, she may actually kill you. I have never seen her that angry. Close, but never this bad. You really need to leave before she comes to.”
“Fine, but someday soon, I will talk to her. I need her to know that I fucked up and I am sorry.”
“Today is not going to be the day. You had better be glad when she collapsed that she was by the couch and didn’t hit her head on anything. I think it would be in your best interest to turn yourself in and face the consequences. The police have already been asking around. Before long, they are going to get the proof they need to have you up on manslaughter charges.”
“I know the police are asking questions, they have been to the house a few times. I keep telling them that Aiden was driving when we left the store and that I don’t remember anything after that.”
“You lied to the police. Do you realize how much trouble you are going to be in if they find out different?”
“I didn’t really lie to them. I don’t remember anything after the store.”
“Well, you need to do a bit of soul searching, figure out what you need to do. One thing you need to do right now is leave, she is beginning to mumble. I can’t say what Jordan will do when she comes to, but I have a feeling you will not leave here fully intact”
“Okay, Okay. I’m going. I will call you later. Just promise me you will take care of her.”
“I will do my best. Like I said, I have never seen her like this.”
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November 16, 2016
Letters to Aiden -- A serial Supplement to The Scars Series
August, 1991
My Dearest Aiden,I went to your grave today. Your headstone has been placed and the grass is beginning to look more uniform. It is such an improvement from the fresh dirt with chunks of grass placed on top. The dirt has settled and the grass plugs have grown to full cover. Everything still seems surreal. I don’t know how to move on with my life. I know that life goes on. Like the grass plugs that were placed over your grave after the burial have grown full and lush; I need to move on and grow to achieve something beautiful. Unfortunately, I cannot force myself to move forward.Mom says there is no reason for me to still be depressed. That I should move on since I am “too young to really know what love is”. After you died, I thought mom understood my pain and supported me. Boy, was I wrong. She fed me Valium for three weeks. I thought she was trying to help me cope with what was happening to me. When she stopped giving it to me, I found out what it was truly about. She wasn’t trying to help me. All she was doing was buying time. I think she had the impression that I would forget about you after a few weeks. Personally, I think it has forced me deeper into that pit. I don’t want to get up in the morning. I don’t want to talk to anyone on the phone. I don’t want to go anywhere. I DON”T WANT TO LIVE! Please come and get me; take me to be with you. I refuse to function. I am broken. I am dead.
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My Dearest Aiden,I went to your grave today. Your headstone has been placed and the grass is beginning to look more uniform. It is such an improvement from the fresh dirt with chunks of grass placed on top. The dirt has settled and the grass plugs have grown to full cover. Everything still seems surreal. I don’t know how to move on with my life. I know that life goes on. Like the grass plugs that were placed over your grave after the burial have grown full and lush; I need to move on and grow to achieve something beautiful. Unfortunately, I cannot force myself to move forward.Mom says there is no reason for me to still be depressed. That I should move on since I am “too young to really know what love is”. After you died, I thought mom understood my pain and supported me. Boy, was I wrong. She fed me Valium for three weeks. I thought she was trying to help me cope with what was happening to me. When she stopped giving it to me, I found out what it was truly about. She wasn’t trying to help me. All she was doing was buying time. I think she had the impression that I would forget about you after a few weeks. Personally, I think it has forced me deeper into that pit. I don’t want to get up in the morning. I don’t want to talk to anyone on the phone. I don’t want to go anywhere. I DON”T WANT TO LIVE! Please come and get me; take me to be with you. I refuse to function. I am broken. I am dead.
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November 12, 2016
Letters to Aiden -- A Serial Supplement to The Scars Series
My Dearest Aiden,This past week has been the hardest week I have ever had to experience. I don’t quite know how to go on with my life without you in it. What am I supposed to do now? It was supposed to be you and me – forever. Well baby, “forever” has been taken away from me. I am so alone and so scared. Why did you leave me? Why didn’t you love me enough to stay with me? All I want to do now is die, maybe then we can be together again. Your funeral was yesterday. I don’t remember much about the funeral, but that is no surprise. There is a lot of the past week that I do not remember. I think I had to go through the line three times at your viewing before the reality hit me that you were the one lying in that coffin. They dressed you in a suit that made you look handsome but whomever fixed your hair parted it wrong. I wanted so badly to take my fingers and fix it but I know that would have caused a bit of a commotion. As it was, I caused enough of a scene myself but I had to give you one last kiss. I had to be able to say goodbye in my own way. Mom says that I needed closure. I tried, but I will never have that closure. It may have been your body lying in that coffin, but it wasn’t you. Your body was so still, and cold. I will never get that image of you out of my head. It was not the Aiden I know, rather, the Aiden I knew. The Aiden I knew was warm, loving, and full of life. During the funeral I couldn’t bring myself to sit up front with your parents. It didn’t feel right. I know they are mourning their loss, the loss of their only child. Your mom is devastated and I doubt your dad has drank anything but beer during the last week. I wish I could have a drink. Mom will not let me be alone. I guess she is scared that I will try to hurt myself. She just doesn’t understand the pain I am going through. Hell, I can’t even understand the pain I am going through. I have never had to endure these types of feelings before in my life.David was there, at the funeral. He sat up front with your parents. He should have never been able to sit with them. It just didn’t seem right. In fact, nothing about this entire situation seems right. How is it that David survived the accident and you didn’t? He looked like hell up front sitting in a wheelchair, and he has been acting strange; almost as if he is hiding something. What am I missing? I just cannot shake this feeling that something is off. No matter what, Aiden, I want you to know that I will always love you. I love you more than you could have ever imagined and, truth be told, this hurts more than anyone will ever know. I feel so guilty. I should have been with you. I should have never went with Amy and Amy. If I had been with you, this never would have happened. This is all my fault; my fault for abandoning you and our plans to go out. Why did I have to change our plans? Why didn’t I just go meet with you instead of heading home that night? I should have gone to you, but I didn’t and now I will never get to see you again. I will never get to hear your voice, feel your touch, or hear your heartbeat. When I got home that night, something wasn’t right and I knew it. I couldn’t sleep at all, and when I did finally fall asleep, I didn’t sleep well. In fact, I had nightmares most of the night. I woke up crying the next morning; even before I called your house. Before I ever knew anything had happened.
Was it you, Aiden? Did you come to me in my sleep to warn me of what I would wake to? Were you trying to prepare me for what was to come? If that was it, thank you, but I don’t think anything could have ever prepared me for what was to come. I just wish you knew how much this hurts. No, actually I would never wish this pain on anyone. It hurts so much. I just want to curl up in a ball on the bed and sleep. I want to sleep forever and never wake up because then I will have to come to terms that you are not here. In fact, you will never be here with me again. Ever! Why can’t I just die?
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Was it you, Aiden? Did you come to me in my sleep to warn me of what I would wake to? Were you trying to prepare me for what was to come? If that was it, thank you, but I don’t think anything could have ever prepared me for what was to come. I just wish you knew how much this hurts. No, actually I would never wish this pain on anyone. It hurts so much. I just want to curl up in a ball on the bed and sleep. I want to sleep forever and never wake up because then I will have to come to terms that you are not here. In fact, you will never be here with me again. Ever! Why can’t I just die?
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August 25, 2015
Exerpt from Mending the Wounds
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Jordan
“I’m tired Aiden. I am so tired. I have thought about you every day for over twenty years and it still hurts.”I’m sitting in the graveyard. I come here every week; well, at least I did before I moved to Florida. The only other time in my life when I didn’t visit weekly was when I was enlisted and stationed in another state. But now, I’m back in the graveyard, sitting with my back against the headstone wondering how I have survived since Aiden’s death. It has been quite a while since I have visited; and frankly, I’m not even sure how I got here today. “I miss you Aiden. I miss everything about you. You left me here, all alone, to deal with this shit life I have endured. I should have been with you. You should have taken me with you; but you didn’t, and I have lived a life of pain and sorrow every day since.”Tears stream down my face as I fiddle with the bouquet of roses I brought with me; real roses, not those fake silk roses you find all over the graveyard. The same roses I had placed on his grave when he died and the same roses I have brought every visit since that day. I’m numb, literally. I cannot feel any part of my body and the irony doesn’t escape me. I have been numb for the better part of twenty some years. Well, with the exception of childbirth and raising my children; oh, and the one love I have experienced since Aiden’s death that could even compare, Gavin. The happy moments of my life; falling in love with Aiden, falling in love with Gavin, the birth of my two daughters and my son. In all actuality, for being as old as I am, I should have had more happy moments than what occupies that short list. Instead, my life has been filled with enough hurt and pain to permanently disable one’s will to live. I can admit there have been times when it has affected my will to live. Now all I can think about is that I am tired of fighting. I am tired of having to be the rock that everyone else leans on for strength. Just once, why can’t I lean on someone? It’s time for me to crumble; to give up. “What are you doing, Jordan?”“Hello?” I look around the graveyard trying to find the source of the voice but there is no one anywhere in sight. It’s just me and the headstones. So now I am hallucinating?A bubble of warmth engulfs me where a moment ago I was feeling a chill.“I’m sorry Aiden, I just cannot do it anymore. It’s time for me to give up and maybe we can be together again.”“No you are not giving up!”“Who said that?” I question, loudly, standing up and looking around the graveyard for the perpetrator. “This is not funny! Whoever you are, quit fucking around and come out where I can see you!”“I’m right behind you,” the voice whispers and I feel a tuft of my hair being flicked. I turn around, angry; but all anger dissolves when my eyes land on Aiden. I rub my eyes and look again to make sure I am not dreaming. Nope still there. “Aiden!” I squeal, throwing my arms around him and holding on tight. He returns the embrace and whispers in my ear. “I’ve got you baby girl, but we have to hurry. I don’t have a lot of time and I need to make sure you understand some things before I have to go again.”“No! You can’t leave me again. Please? I’m begging you; don’t leave me again. Take me with you?” I cry out, tightening my grip on his body.“It’s not your time, Jordan. I wish I could take you with me; God only knows how much, but I can’t. I was sent here to help you; to help get you back on the right track,” Aiden soothes, still holding me tightly.I pull away from him and turn my back to him. It is the most unnatural feeling in the world but I have to guard myself. It messed me up bad enough the first time; I cannot bear losing him again. Aiden encompasses me in his arms from behind and nuzzles my hair. “I miss this the most.”“Miss what?”“I miss holding you in my arms, filling my lungs with the smell of your shampoo. I have watched you since the day I died. You never changed; you’re still the same beautiful woman I fell in love with all of those years ago. I have done my best to watch over you; to keep you safe. Things didn’t always work out the way I wanted them to but I couldn’t intervene or else I would have been forbidden from watching over you. I do get to spend a lot of time with Renee’, though.”My body shudders at the thought of my daughter being taken from me way too soon.“Shh, no need to be upset. She is in a better place and boy is she so much like you. Talk about strong willed. Renee’ watches over you with me.”“Why didn’t she come today? I mean if she watches over me, then why couldn’t she come with you?”“This is something I had to do alone. I’m sorry Jordan; while I know that it was written in your stars to withstand the things placed in front of you, I still can’t help but feel like I sent you into that downward spiral. God has plans for you, which is why you were not with me that night. It tore my heart out over and over to watch you beat yourself up thinking you could have stopped the accident. You need to understand that it was my time to go whether you were with me or not. The same goes for Renee’. Both of us were miserable watching you blame yourself for her death. We saw your thoughts. We saw you get onto yourself for going back to work. It was nobody’s fault. If you were home that day and had Renee’ with you, she still would have died. It was her time to go. It was God’s plan for you.”Aiden walks me over and pulls me down to sit beside him against his headstone.“What do you mean, ‘it was God’s plan for me’?” I ask, confused and a bit angry. “What did I ever do so wrong to deserve that plan?”“You did nothing wrong. You were meant for greatness and all of the trials and tribulations you have endured have been to prepare you for your biggest fight yet.”Aiden wraps his arms around me again and pulls me closer to him.Sadly, I admit, “I don’t have any fight left in me, Aiden.” “Yes you do! Just don’t give up. You are stronger than you will ever know and that strength will pull you through this.”“What if I don’t want to get through this?”“You will. You have raised two beautiful children to be assets to the world. If you leave them now, it will be detrimental to the both of them and is not what God has planned for them.”“Why would I want to get through this when I know I can be with you if I just give up?” I question him. “Jordan, I love you and I always have. It just was not in the stars for you and I to remain together. That is why I sent…”My body jerks, “Ouch!” I grumble.Aiden’s eyes fill with sorrow. “Jordan, I don’t have much more time so I need to you to listen to me closely.”My body jerks again and the graveyard begins to fill with a white haze.Aiden’s voice begins to fade as he hurries to finish what he is saying, “I sent the perfect man for you. He was my choice and he loves you. He loves you just as much if not more than I do. Embrace him, Jordan. He will give you everything you have ever dreamed of.”“Who are you talking about?”“You will know in your heart, Jordan. You just have to listen.”Aiden’s body disappears just as he places a gentle kiss on my forehead. I look around and the graveyard is gone. Nothing but white light.My body begins to shake violently.“Jordan! Wake up Jordan. Can you hear me?”My eyes shoot open as tears stream down my face and I cry out, “Aiden! No! Please don’t leave me!”Slowly my eyes focus on my surroundings and I am able to make out a nurse and my doctor standing over me. I start to freak out and begin to try and scramble up from the lying position I am in. I can hear beeping from somewhere beside me as it speeds up quickly seemingly getting louder with each beep.“Jordan, I need you to try and calm down. You are just coming out of the anesthesia and it’s too dangerous to try and sedate you right now,” Doctor Eshbach explains as he continues his attempt to sooth me.I attempt to relax back into the bed I am lying in.“Her heart rate and blood pressure are returning to normal doctor.” I hear someone call from behind me.Just breathe. Inhale…exhale.Doctor Eshbach continues to explain, “You are just coming out of the anesthesia and we are having you moved into your room to be monitored following your surgery. The surgery went well and I am expecting you to heal very quickly. Currently you are still on a Morphine drip for the pain and as the day goes on, we will slowly reduce the amount you are given so we can judge your pain levels. There is a bit of swelling, which is expected, and we have placed skin stretchers as well as attached drains where your breast tissue was removed.”
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Jordan
“I’m tired Aiden. I am so tired. I have thought about you every day for over twenty years and it still hurts.”I’m sitting in the graveyard. I come here every week; well, at least I did before I moved to Florida. The only other time in my life when I didn’t visit weekly was when I was enlisted and stationed in another state. But now, I’m back in the graveyard, sitting with my back against the headstone wondering how I have survived since Aiden’s death. It has been quite a while since I have visited; and frankly, I’m not even sure how I got here today. “I miss you Aiden. I miss everything about you. You left me here, all alone, to deal with this shit life I have endured. I should have been with you. You should have taken me with you; but you didn’t, and I have lived a life of pain and sorrow every day since.”Tears stream down my face as I fiddle with the bouquet of roses I brought with me; real roses, not those fake silk roses you find all over the graveyard. The same roses I had placed on his grave when he died and the same roses I have brought every visit since that day. I’m numb, literally. I cannot feel any part of my body and the irony doesn’t escape me. I have been numb for the better part of twenty some years. Well, with the exception of childbirth and raising my children; oh, and the one love I have experienced since Aiden’s death that could even compare, Gavin. The happy moments of my life; falling in love with Aiden, falling in love with Gavin, the birth of my two daughters and my son. In all actuality, for being as old as I am, I should have had more happy moments than what occupies that short list. Instead, my life has been filled with enough hurt and pain to permanently disable one’s will to live. I can admit there have been times when it has affected my will to live. Now all I can think about is that I am tired of fighting. I am tired of having to be the rock that everyone else leans on for strength. Just once, why can’t I lean on someone? It’s time for me to crumble; to give up. “What are you doing, Jordan?”“Hello?” I look around the graveyard trying to find the source of the voice but there is no one anywhere in sight. It’s just me and the headstones. So now I am hallucinating?A bubble of warmth engulfs me where a moment ago I was feeling a chill.“I’m sorry Aiden, I just cannot do it anymore. It’s time for me to give up and maybe we can be together again.”“No you are not giving up!”“Who said that?” I question, loudly, standing up and looking around the graveyard for the perpetrator. “This is not funny! Whoever you are, quit fucking around and come out where I can see you!”“I’m right behind you,” the voice whispers and I feel a tuft of my hair being flicked. I turn around, angry; but all anger dissolves when my eyes land on Aiden. I rub my eyes and look again to make sure I am not dreaming. Nope still there. “Aiden!” I squeal, throwing my arms around him and holding on tight. He returns the embrace and whispers in my ear. “I’ve got you baby girl, but we have to hurry. I don’t have a lot of time and I need to make sure you understand some things before I have to go again.”“No! You can’t leave me again. Please? I’m begging you; don’t leave me again. Take me with you?” I cry out, tightening my grip on his body.“It’s not your time, Jordan. I wish I could take you with me; God only knows how much, but I can’t. I was sent here to help you; to help get you back on the right track,” Aiden soothes, still holding me tightly.I pull away from him and turn my back to him. It is the most unnatural feeling in the world but I have to guard myself. It messed me up bad enough the first time; I cannot bear losing him again. Aiden encompasses me in his arms from behind and nuzzles my hair. “I miss this the most.”“Miss what?”“I miss holding you in my arms, filling my lungs with the smell of your shampoo. I have watched you since the day I died. You never changed; you’re still the same beautiful woman I fell in love with all of those years ago. I have done my best to watch over you; to keep you safe. Things didn’t always work out the way I wanted them to but I couldn’t intervene or else I would have been forbidden from watching over you. I do get to spend a lot of time with Renee’, though.”My body shudders at the thought of my daughter being taken from me way too soon.“Shh, no need to be upset. She is in a better place and boy is she so much like you. Talk about strong willed. Renee’ watches over you with me.”“Why didn’t she come today? I mean if she watches over me, then why couldn’t she come with you?”“This is something I had to do alone. I’m sorry Jordan; while I know that it was written in your stars to withstand the things placed in front of you, I still can’t help but feel like I sent you into that downward spiral. God has plans for you, which is why you were not with me that night. It tore my heart out over and over to watch you beat yourself up thinking you could have stopped the accident. You need to understand that it was my time to go whether you were with me or not. The same goes for Renee’. Both of us were miserable watching you blame yourself for her death. We saw your thoughts. We saw you get onto yourself for going back to work. It was nobody’s fault. If you were home that day and had Renee’ with you, she still would have died. It was her time to go. It was God’s plan for you.”Aiden walks me over and pulls me down to sit beside him against his headstone.“What do you mean, ‘it was God’s plan for me’?” I ask, confused and a bit angry. “What did I ever do so wrong to deserve that plan?”“You did nothing wrong. You were meant for greatness and all of the trials and tribulations you have endured have been to prepare you for your biggest fight yet.”Aiden wraps his arms around me again and pulls me closer to him.Sadly, I admit, “I don’t have any fight left in me, Aiden.” “Yes you do! Just don’t give up. You are stronger than you will ever know and that strength will pull you through this.”“What if I don’t want to get through this?”“You will. You have raised two beautiful children to be assets to the world. If you leave them now, it will be detrimental to the both of them and is not what God has planned for them.”“Why would I want to get through this when I know I can be with you if I just give up?” I question him. “Jordan, I love you and I always have. It just was not in the stars for you and I to remain together. That is why I sent…”My body jerks, “Ouch!” I grumble.Aiden’s eyes fill with sorrow. “Jordan, I don’t have much more time so I need to you to listen to me closely.”My body jerks again and the graveyard begins to fill with a white haze.Aiden’s voice begins to fade as he hurries to finish what he is saying, “I sent the perfect man for you. He was my choice and he loves you. He loves you just as much if not more than I do. Embrace him, Jordan. He will give you everything you have ever dreamed of.”“Who are you talking about?”“You will know in your heart, Jordan. You just have to listen.”Aiden’s body disappears just as he places a gentle kiss on my forehead. I look around and the graveyard is gone. Nothing but white light.My body begins to shake violently.“Jordan! Wake up Jordan. Can you hear me?”My eyes shoot open as tears stream down my face and I cry out, “Aiden! No! Please don’t leave me!”Slowly my eyes focus on my surroundings and I am able to make out a nurse and my doctor standing over me. I start to freak out and begin to try and scramble up from the lying position I am in. I can hear beeping from somewhere beside me as it speeds up quickly seemingly getting louder with each beep.“Jordan, I need you to try and calm down. You are just coming out of the anesthesia and it’s too dangerous to try and sedate you right now,” Doctor Eshbach explains as he continues his attempt to sooth me.I attempt to relax back into the bed I am lying in.“Her heart rate and blood pressure are returning to normal doctor.” I hear someone call from behind me.Just breathe. Inhale…exhale.Doctor Eshbach continues to explain, “You are just coming out of the anesthesia and we are having you moved into your room to be monitored following your surgery. The surgery went well and I am expecting you to heal very quickly. Currently you are still on a Morphine drip for the pain and as the day goes on, we will slowly reduce the amount you are given so we can judge your pain levels. There is a bit of swelling, which is expected, and we have placed skin stretchers as well as attached drains where your breast tissue was removed.”
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August 22, 2015
I must have fallen asleep sometime during the last half o...
I must have fallen asleep sometime during the last half of the movie because I startle awake around three and force myself to get up and go to the bedroom. For a brief moment, I contemplate driving across town and crawling in bed with Jordan but I know it would never fly, merely delaying the obvious, that I will be sleeping alone, yet again, in my own bed. ~~ Gavin, Mending the Wounds#amwriting #mendingthewounds #scarsseries #breastcancerawareness #romance
August 18, 2015
“Jordan will be going in for what is considered a modifie...
“Jordan will be going in for what is considered a modified double radical mastectomy on the twenty-third. She will need to be at the hospital at five o’clock in the morning so that we may get her into the operating room by six. I will be doing the surgery and will make sure that you are notified the moment the surgery is finished and I step out of that room. During the surgery she will have both breasts and nipples removed as well as the lymph nodes in both underarms. This surgery has a high success and recovery rate since it leaves the pectoral muscles intact.”
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***Mending the Wounds ***Coming Soon
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August 6, 2015
2015 is already over halfway gone and I am still working ...
2015 is already over halfway gone and I am still working on Mending the Wounds. I want to let the fans know that while it is taking a while to finish -- it will be well worth it. Mending is going to be an extremely emotional read for everyone as it showcases the trials and tribulations people endure during cancer treatments. Where Mending will stand out from other books with this storyline is that it will showcase multiple POV's and each persons reactions and emotions.
Please bear with me while I ensure that you will love Mending.
Please bear with me while I ensure that you will love Mending.
May 7, 2015
I didn't fall off the face of the earth.
Busy Busy Busy....Finished editing a work by an author named C.Craig Coleman....if you like The Hobbit, Lord of the Rings, Dungeons and Dragons type reading....check his work out.
Still working on finishing MENDING THE WOUNDS as well as recording and editing 5 audiobooks for various audiobooks.
All three books in the SCARS SERIES are now available not just on Amazon but now can be found on Google Books and Nook. Still finishing up setting them all up for iBooks. Will post links as soon as they are available.
Big News --- I put in an offer on a house today ..... Wish me luck.
Lots of Love.
Still working on finishing MENDING THE WOUNDS as well as recording and editing 5 audiobooks for various audiobooks.
All three books in the SCARS SERIES are now available not just on Amazon but now can be found on Google Books and Nook. Still finishing up setting them all up for iBooks. Will post links as soon as they are available.
Big News --- I put in an offer on a house today ..... Wish me luck.
Lots of Love.
April 28, 2015
SCARS SERIES EXPANDING ACROSS PLATFORMS
SCARRED, WOUNDED BY HER, and SHATTERED by C.R. Gress are all now available on Nook.
SCARRED: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/scarred-cr-gress/1117736871?ean=2940..
WOUNDED BY HER: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/wounded-by-her-c-r-gress/1119062127?..
SHATTERED: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/shattered-c-r-gress/1120432457?ean=9..
I am still working to get them all uploaded to iBooks.
All three books are currently available on Amazon, Nook, and Google Books.
#amwriting #amreading #amexpanding #googlebooks #amazon #nookbook#scarsseries #ebooks #romance
SCARRED: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/scarred-cr-gress/1117736871?ean=2940..
WOUNDED BY HER: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/wounded-by-her-c-r-gress/1119062127?..
SHATTERED: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/shattered-c-r-gress/1120432457?ean=9..
I am still working to get them all uploaded to iBooks.
All three books are currently available on Amazon, Nook, and Google Books.
#amwriting #amreading #amexpanding #googlebooks #amazon #nookbook#scarsseries #ebooks #romance
March 2, 2015
Author C.R.Gress March Updates
Well it's already March and boy does it seem that the year is already moving so fast.
I have finished recording an audiobook short named "Dominated by the Billionaire and the Shiek" and am patiently waiting for approval from the rights holder as well as ACX to perform their quality checks so hopefully I am looking at a two week window for it to be available for purchase.
I am also in the process of recording the third story in a four story bundle titled "Threesome Desires". This one is not due until the end of April but I want to go ahead and get it finished soon.
Don't think that I have give up on writing because that is so far from the truth -- I am diligently working on Mending the Wounds (Scars Series Book 4) but this is a very emotional book and takes quite a bit of finesse to deliver it the way I want it.
Another project I am working on is slowly formatting and uploading my first three books (Scarred, Wounded by Her, and Shattered) to Google Books, Nook, Barnes & Noble, iBooks and more so that they are ready with my latest enrollment in Kindle Select is up (April) so that I am not restricted to selling just on Amazon. Soon they will all be available anywhere you look.
If anyone has any questions or comments, please feel free to message me.
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