C. JoyBell C.'s Blog, page 23
May 21, 2015
Spacetime and Lifetime
I have been wondering and I have been thinking... what if we have already died? And what if we have already died many times before? And what if, after death, we simply return to the moment, or the day, or a few days, before the time that we died? And what if that is what deja vu really means? So, what if we are all going through life thinking that death is an ending to this lifetime, meanwhile, everybody has already actually died at least once before? What if we are actually continually reversing in time, going back to those days before our death, only to continue in what we believe is the same life? Receiving a second chance (or hundredth chance) to relive our lives? What if it's like a game and you're game over and you just go back to the last place you saved your game at, to try to do better this time?
You see, spacetime is not a really fixed rule. In fact, we are still struggling to make meaning of spacetime continuum. It might be a loop, it might be bendy, it might be twisty like a stick of licorice! What if it's totally malleable? What if death has never actually been an end to life?
When you go under anaesthesia, you wake up after the operation believing that nothing has happened yet, because your brain is connected to the very last moment before you went under the knife. So you wake up after your operation, asking, "Are we going to start now?" But in reality, it's already over! Now, what if this same principle applies to the lives that we are living? Think about it.
You see, spacetime is not a really fixed rule. In fact, we are still struggling to make meaning of spacetime continuum. It might be a loop, it might be bendy, it might be twisty like a stick of licorice! What if it's totally malleable? What if death has never actually been an end to life?
When you go under anaesthesia, you wake up after the operation believing that nothing has happened yet, because your brain is connected to the very last moment before you went under the knife. So you wake up after your operation, asking, "Are we going to start now?" But in reality, it's already over! Now, what if this same principle applies to the lives that we are living? Think about it.
May 20, 2015
As It Is Above, So Is It Below
No one can successfully tell me that material things cannot bring happiness. For as the spirit is medicine to the bones; so is the happiness of the bones a medicine to the spirit. Without a soul, the body is dust; but without a body, the soul cannot fulfil destiny. Neither one is more important than the other; both are equally important. One will last longer than the other, yes, but while we are on this Earth, both are equally important. Surely money itself cannot make one happy; but it is what one does with money that makes one happy! If you do not know what to do with it, then it will not bring you happiness! But if you know what to do with it; there is no reason why it cannot bring you happiness. People think I am a very spiritual person; yes, this is true; but I have not achieved it through denial of the flesh. I have a new vision. I take pleasure in the pleasures of this world and I seek fulfilment in the answers of the spirit. I find happiness in the material and the physical things of this nature and I find joy in the connections I have with what is divine. Do I imagine myself on top of a mountain, detached from all the things I want to buy and to own? Never. My spirituality is not one of negative righteousness; my spirituality is one of the rose. It is whole and it is above as it is below.
This has always been my creed, and C. JoyBell C. was founded upon this creed. I developed this belief as it was revealed to me in my spirit, in my mind's eye. Nobody taught it to me. And then years later, after I had already used my courage to build upon the new foundation that I called my own and that nobody around me believed in; I then came across a very old Rosicrucian manuscript, written some hundred years ago. It is in that manuscript that I discovered that my creed was shared by the Rosicrucians. The creed of the Rosicrucian is to develop a threefold person in all equal portions: Mind, Body and Soul. There is no such thing as negative spirituality (Spirituality that results in a negative effect upon the body, in favour of the Soul). And those who belong to the self-denying spirituality are those who are misled, while in turn misleading others. When I refer to, "The Rose", I am referring to the hidden secrets of the Rosicrucians. When I say, "it is above as it is below", I am referring to the hidden knowledge of Hermes. These things are not hidden to me, so what I freely receive, I also freely give! Although the things that I write are blanketed in modern-day presentations, in order to be understood by everyone; they are still the same ancient teachings that were once only taught to initiates. And who am I as an initiate? That is simple— I am me.
This has always been my creed, and C. JoyBell C. was founded upon this creed. I developed this belief as it was revealed to me in my spirit, in my mind's eye. Nobody taught it to me. And then years later, after I had already used my courage to build upon the new foundation that I called my own and that nobody around me believed in; I then came across a very old Rosicrucian manuscript, written some hundred years ago. It is in that manuscript that I discovered that my creed was shared by the Rosicrucians. The creed of the Rosicrucian is to develop a threefold person in all equal portions: Mind, Body and Soul. There is no such thing as negative spirituality (Spirituality that results in a negative effect upon the body, in favour of the Soul). And those who belong to the self-denying spirituality are those who are misled, while in turn misleading others. When I refer to, "The Rose", I am referring to the hidden secrets of the Rosicrucians. When I say, "it is above as it is below", I am referring to the hidden knowledge of Hermes. These things are not hidden to me, so what I freely receive, I also freely give! Although the things that I write are blanketed in modern-day presentations, in order to be understood by everyone; they are still the same ancient teachings that were once only taught to initiates. And who am I as an initiate? That is simple— I am me.
May 14, 2015
Dear Seashell, Know Thyself!
Hey, my wonderfuls! How is everybody doing today? :) Lately, I have been thinking about "multitasking" and also about "prioritising" and about what these two things mean, for one another and for us as individuals. First up— is "multitasking" even real? Scientifically, it's not. Scientifically, the brain is only able to truly focus on one thing at a time. Does that mean we will not be able to do many quality things? Not really. But does that mean we would live a more productive and fulfilling life if we were to curtail and discipline ourselves to focusing on one thing at a time? Probably so.
It is the unfortunate reality that we live in a world that has somehow turned many of us into mindless consumers, participating in a worldwide corporation. No longer able to live with meaning, people are increasingly living for profit, or for whatever is able to make them react to stimulus. People have become mere reactions to various stimuli!
What about prioritising? What does that mean? To me that means choosing what is more important and elevating those important things to a better standpoint in your life, where you are able to give more of your focus and affections, to it.
So what does this all mean? Well I believe that this means, that it should be one of our greatest pursuits in life, to find the area of our priorities. To retreat from the reality of mindless consumerism and into the gardens within ourselves. Within our souls, we have gardens where our peace may be found; and within our minds we have oases wherein we are Masters of our Will. You may not be the Master of your own Will right now; but somewhere inside of You, you are! Somewhere inside of you, you are not an empty shell!
Perhaps we are all shells; but some of us have found the pearls inside, and this makes all the difference!
Marcus Aurelius once said, "Men seek retreats for themselves, houses in the country, sea-shores, and mountains... But this is altogether a mark of the most common sort of men, for it is in thy power whenever thou shalt choose to retire into thyself. For nowhere either with more quiet or more freedom from trouble does a man retire than into his own soul, particularly when he has within him such thoughts that by looking into them he is immediately in perfect tranquility; and I affirm that tranquility is nothing else than the good ordering of the mind."
We prioritise by identifying those people and those things that deserve a place in the inner gardens of our minds and of our hearts. We keep those things and those people there, regardless of how many other tasks and things we need to look after and to work on, in our daily lives. But it's also where we keep our real selves, it's where we retreat to, in order to meet the pearls within the shells that we are.
So, maybe it's not scientifically possible to truly multitask and maybe the world only understands how to prioritise on a very shallow surface level, but the whole idea of being you, is being different. And I believe that through these principles, we will be able to exercise this difference in our lives. Living within a system wherein we feel like we need to frantically struggle to keep up with ourselves, just to stay afloat on top of the "noise" (and we call this multitasking), we can be people who are able to go deeper than that, realising and understanding that it is not really about the ability to multitask (which is in itself a proven myth); but that it is really all about age-old principle of Mastership. Know thyself, master thine inner worlds. Create what is on the outside, through what is willed on the inside. As the Rosicrucians say, "When a man Wills for something, and he says, 'Nothing in this world and beyond will be able to stand in between myself and what I will', this is a man so strong that even the gods and angels honour and respect him." It is the Will of both man and woman, that must be cultivated, in order to live the higher form of life that we are all initially called to live.
It is the unfortunate reality that we live in a world that has somehow turned many of us into mindless consumers, participating in a worldwide corporation. No longer able to live with meaning, people are increasingly living for profit, or for whatever is able to make them react to stimulus. People have become mere reactions to various stimuli!
What about prioritising? What does that mean? To me that means choosing what is more important and elevating those important things to a better standpoint in your life, where you are able to give more of your focus and affections, to it.
So what does this all mean? Well I believe that this means, that it should be one of our greatest pursuits in life, to find the area of our priorities. To retreat from the reality of mindless consumerism and into the gardens within ourselves. Within our souls, we have gardens where our peace may be found; and within our minds we have oases wherein we are Masters of our Will. You may not be the Master of your own Will right now; but somewhere inside of You, you are! Somewhere inside of you, you are not an empty shell!
Perhaps we are all shells; but some of us have found the pearls inside, and this makes all the difference!
Marcus Aurelius once said, "Men seek retreats for themselves, houses in the country, sea-shores, and mountains... But this is altogether a mark of the most common sort of men, for it is in thy power whenever thou shalt choose to retire into thyself. For nowhere either with more quiet or more freedom from trouble does a man retire than into his own soul, particularly when he has within him such thoughts that by looking into them he is immediately in perfect tranquility; and I affirm that tranquility is nothing else than the good ordering of the mind."
We prioritise by identifying those people and those things that deserve a place in the inner gardens of our minds and of our hearts. We keep those things and those people there, regardless of how many other tasks and things we need to look after and to work on, in our daily lives. But it's also where we keep our real selves, it's where we retreat to, in order to meet the pearls within the shells that we are.
So, maybe it's not scientifically possible to truly multitask and maybe the world only understands how to prioritise on a very shallow surface level, but the whole idea of being you, is being different. And I believe that through these principles, we will be able to exercise this difference in our lives. Living within a system wherein we feel like we need to frantically struggle to keep up with ourselves, just to stay afloat on top of the "noise" (and we call this multitasking), we can be people who are able to go deeper than that, realising and understanding that it is not really about the ability to multitask (which is in itself a proven myth); but that it is really all about age-old principle of Mastership. Know thyself, master thine inner worlds. Create what is on the outside, through what is willed on the inside. As the Rosicrucians say, "When a man Wills for something, and he says, 'Nothing in this world and beyond will be able to stand in between myself and what I will', this is a man so strong that even the gods and angels honour and respect him." It is the Will of both man and woman, that must be cultivated, in order to live the higher form of life that we are all initially called to live.
April 28, 2015
Tremble
Tremble
It’s a maddening world we live in
We’re told to pick a crownSo we choose our crownsAnd then we are mockedThe colour, size and materialAll laughed at
We’re taught to grow thornsWe’re taught to grow fangs and clawsBut then we are judgedFor becoming uglyAnd afraid
It’s a maddening world we live in
We are given voicesThen told to shut upWe are given dreamsThen told they aren’t realThey laugh, they judge, they lie
Wear your crownEven though they laugh
The way you survivedIsn’t ugly; it’s real
You must sing, you must writeYou must dream and then not believe them
You must soften and tremble and unfold
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
It’s a maddening world we live in
We’re told to pick a crownSo we choose our crownsAnd then we are mockedThe colour, size and materialAll laughed at
We’re taught to grow thornsWe’re taught to grow fangs and clawsBut then we are judgedFor becoming uglyAnd afraid
It’s a maddening world we live in
We are given voicesThen told to shut upWe are given dreamsThen told they aren’t realThey laugh, they judge, they lie
Wear your crownEven though they laugh
The way you survivedIsn’t ugly; it’s real
You must sing, you must writeYou must dream and then not believe them
You must soften and tremble and unfold
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
The Ponderings of a Single Flower
It is a very strange sensation that I feel when I read how other people describe themselves and all of the things that they're doing or all of their achievements... all of the adjectives that they use, all of the things that they do for the world, they list down all the dreams that they have... it's weird for me to hear people refer to themselves as "gurus", as "world-changers"... it's like people WANT to be all of these things... and it's strange for me because these things are thrust upon me but I never asked for them! I don't want to use many adjective to describe myself; I just want to say that I am a person who likes cake. Red velvet specifically. Well, blue velvet is on my wish list (never had that one yet). I grow tired of people telling me how much my work has changed their lives... because honestly, I don't have a dream of changing people's lives! I'm merely friendly, authentic, and I like to meet people— that is all. I don't have a dream of changing the world! And I simply rise to the occasion only because chance keeps on putting me on this path! If I were only living in a beautiful home, with beautiful children, in a beautiful place with beautiful flowers and many chocolates, I would be just as happy as I am now that many people know my name and know about what I do. I might even be happier! Why? Well I suppose this is the difficulty that I bear only because I actually know the meaning of life! Those who do not understand the meaning of life, do not share in this knowledge which can become a burden to have! Am I supposed to grow happier as more and more people know my name? I don't think so... I would rather live in a place where there is much cake at every corner! And many nice shoes to buy! Am I supposed to grow happier because my work changes the lives of people? Why should I? The only portion of the world that we are responsible for, is the portion of the world that is in our hearts and souls! Nobody is born to change anything but his or herself. A flower grows and buds and blossoms, not to make the whole garden beautiful; but a flower grows and buds and blossoms because it wants to. Because it is a flower. And I am just a flower. A flower who finds it strange why and how other flowers think that they are changing the whole garden! Again, this is my fate to think like this, only because I know the meaning of a flower. And so, perhaps there is a truth to the saying that goes, "It is not good to have too much wisdom."
People send me emails and ask who I am, and I say, "I am me." What else am I supposed to say and what else am I supposed to be? Again, all I know is that before I started doing what it is that I am doing, I felt that there was something that I should be doing! There is a hunger that is planted into the hearts of flowers that are supposed to do things! So, where is the choice, where is the free will, in this? Is free will a reality, if you are destined to go hungry if you do not do something? What if you don't want to do it? What if you just want to be a flower that is there because it wants to be there and not because it must affect the whole garden? But then... you are hungry and so you search for that which may fill your hunger! And then you will always find it strange why other people go around and broadcast how hungry they are! "I do this, I do that, I am this, I am that... I save the world..." all it sounds like to me, is, "I am hungry." And that is why I don't describe myself in such ways; instead, I just say that I want to eat cake! Because then that solves the whole problem!
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
People send me emails and ask who I am, and I say, "I am me." What else am I supposed to say and what else am I supposed to be? Again, all I know is that before I started doing what it is that I am doing, I felt that there was something that I should be doing! There is a hunger that is planted into the hearts of flowers that are supposed to do things! So, where is the choice, where is the free will, in this? Is free will a reality, if you are destined to go hungry if you do not do something? What if you don't want to do it? What if you just want to be a flower that is there because it wants to be there and not because it must affect the whole garden? But then... you are hungry and so you search for that which may fill your hunger! And then you will always find it strange why other people go around and broadcast how hungry they are! "I do this, I do that, I am this, I am that... I save the world..." all it sounds like to me, is, "I am hungry." And that is why I don't describe myself in such ways; instead, I just say that I want to eat cake! Because then that solves the whole problem!
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
April 25, 2015
Don't Listen To What They Teach You About Women
Women are like bodies of water, and we are all bodies of water to different degrees of flow, greatness, reach, so on and so forth. This is the soul of woman. All women have individual souls, yes, but all of these individual souls are likened unto bodies of water. This is just the nature of the souls that we have.
Today, men are being taught by columnist and blogger and editor and author and, "expert", to deal with women according only to what the corporeal nature has to say about her. In magazine columns and blog posts, books and articles here and there— we are referred to as if we are animals to be analysed. Only physical bodies without souls. Right now, we are at a definite point in time where men are being taught to define a, "real woman" as someone who can easily detach herself, someone who is, "not needy", "not clingy" and, "not jealous"... all these "not's"... which are all really just descriptions of not being a soul that cares about anything other than what is immediately practical. So men are taught to look for these traits in order to identify, "real" women, and then they marry these types of women, and then when the relationship becomes no longer practical, they are of course left by these types of women in favour of what is more practical and then the men are left in a sorry corner writing, "notes-to-self" about how all women are evil whores on the inside, and are materialistic beasts who only care about physical things. But here is my "note-to-men": you are being taught to search for this type of woman as the ideal woman, and because this is what women know you are looking for, this is what women in turn become! They become what you are more likely to choose! At the end of the day, the minds of men are moulded into wanting the very monsters that will break their hearts somewhere down the road, anyway. All throughout antiquity, it is the Goddess nature of the watery soul of the woman, to find security and solidarity in a man who possesses the strength enough to weather her storms and to stand strong throughout the very natures she possesses that make her a woman. The nature of the REAL woman, is to want to know that she has a man with whom she may feel free to be human! The ideal man is like a lighthouse, a beacon of light, a source of solidarity and reassurance! Strength. Inner strength and fortitude. How is a woman to know if a man is strong enough, if he is being taught to shun the very oceans, seas, rivers, waves that are vital to the woman's watery existence? In our oceans can be found shipwrecks, lost souls, coral reefs, treasures, pearls, diamonds and rubies... but can a man stand strong in the midst of all of these— this is the question! And it is when we are driven away from this innate spiritual need and desire, that we fall. If we are not secure in our freedom to flow and to feel and to be human, because there is not that strength that stands strong for us, then that is when love becomes pointless and simply a matter of practicality. But it was never initially that way, it was never meant to be that way. Our lighthouses are taken away from us by the very people who claim to know us so well (bloggers, editors, authors, "experts", so on and so forth). Now, I'm really not talking about uncultured, uncivilised, barbaric behaviour here. As with all things, there are of course individuals who are simply uncultured and honestly quite barbaric and manipulative; of course, as another human being, you do want to steer clear of those kinds of people! Be they men or women! So, what I'm writing here is really not to say that I want to defend all forms of uncivilised behaviour and mentalities in females— no. But I need you to raise your consciousness higher right now and dwell upon the purpose of the female soul on a quantum and spiritual level. It is her nature to seek the lighthouse, it is her nature to yearn to be loved, it is her nature to protect what she loves, it is her nature to lavish in the elements that make her human, to swim in the very sea that is her soul! And yet it is this very nature that is attacked by modern day society and ridiculed and trampled under foot, in favour of the detached, conniving, "practical" woman of today. And there's nothing wrong with being a practical person. But if you are so practical to the point that you don't care about how you feel on the inside— that's when you know you have a problem with existing as a living being on this planet! There is not a problem with the female in general. Your, "notes-to-self" written in your lonesome corners are the published products of the monsters that you created. And it is modern day mainstream mentality that is in turn responsible for moulding these ideals in your minds, in the first place. The "monster moulds" were put there in your heads and you bought the moulds, and you baked cookies with them and then your cookies went bad, you went ahead and decided to blame it on the dough and the chocolate chips and everything else but your own cookie cutters! I am of course not saying that all women are good people and all men have made monsters out of women— no. But what I am saying, is, that it is time for every man to step back from what is being fed to him in his mind and to reflect upon what the nature of the woman really is. They have made you think that you are a, "real man" if you have a, "real woman"... the definition of, "real" here, is really actually, "unreal". I know for certain that everything I have read out there that is written about women, is not applicable to me, at least. It's probably not applicable to many other women out there, too. Like the desire to control? The desire to "catch"? They say all of us are like that... we want to, "tame" a man and after the taming is over, we are no longer interested... I find it fascinating how minds can even begin to accept this as truth! Maybe the degenerate female exudes these character traits— yes. But then there are also many degenerate males out there, and we can't all go comparing all other men to the degenerate ones. Same story with women. The articles I read don't even touch on the female soul, and they are usually, almost always, born from a story that starts out like this: "I wrote this to empower all men, everywhere, after that slut broke my heart ten years ago..." And I'm telling you that, when a story starts out like that— any story— it's the kind of advice you really want to stay away from. Like, really! That's the kind of advice that's going to plant poisonous seeds of bitterness in your minds and hearts! I want to tell all the misled "experts" out there... you are not going unseen and unwatched! I see you! You are lemmings leading other lemmings and you are not doing a good difference in the world— no. As a last statement to this piece of writing, I would like to encourage all my fellow women out there, to not fall into the trap of what men are made to think that they want! We have the power to bring back the ancient light of the divine feminine! We have to stop listening to what they say about us, and actually rise to the occasion. To the beautiful occasion of being Goddess. Women are of sound mind, we are caring, we are loyal, we are steadfast, we are flowing water, we want to be loved and we want to love, we want to be cared for and we want to care, we love truly and deeply and we fly high and freely. We are to be desired because we are true, real, authentic and vulnerable. And all of this is so very beautiful.
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
Today, men are being taught by columnist and blogger and editor and author and, "expert", to deal with women according only to what the corporeal nature has to say about her. In magazine columns and blog posts, books and articles here and there— we are referred to as if we are animals to be analysed. Only physical bodies without souls. Right now, we are at a definite point in time where men are being taught to define a, "real woman" as someone who can easily detach herself, someone who is, "not needy", "not clingy" and, "not jealous"... all these "not's"... which are all really just descriptions of not being a soul that cares about anything other than what is immediately practical. So men are taught to look for these traits in order to identify, "real" women, and then they marry these types of women, and then when the relationship becomes no longer practical, they are of course left by these types of women in favour of what is more practical and then the men are left in a sorry corner writing, "notes-to-self" about how all women are evil whores on the inside, and are materialistic beasts who only care about physical things. But here is my "note-to-men": you are being taught to search for this type of woman as the ideal woman, and because this is what women know you are looking for, this is what women in turn become! They become what you are more likely to choose! At the end of the day, the minds of men are moulded into wanting the very monsters that will break their hearts somewhere down the road, anyway. All throughout antiquity, it is the Goddess nature of the watery soul of the woman, to find security and solidarity in a man who possesses the strength enough to weather her storms and to stand strong throughout the very natures she possesses that make her a woman. The nature of the REAL woman, is to want to know that she has a man with whom she may feel free to be human! The ideal man is like a lighthouse, a beacon of light, a source of solidarity and reassurance! Strength. Inner strength and fortitude. How is a woman to know if a man is strong enough, if he is being taught to shun the very oceans, seas, rivers, waves that are vital to the woman's watery existence? In our oceans can be found shipwrecks, lost souls, coral reefs, treasures, pearls, diamonds and rubies... but can a man stand strong in the midst of all of these— this is the question! And it is when we are driven away from this innate spiritual need and desire, that we fall. If we are not secure in our freedom to flow and to feel and to be human, because there is not that strength that stands strong for us, then that is when love becomes pointless and simply a matter of practicality. But it was never initially that way, it was never meant to be that way. Our lighthouses are taken away from us by the very people who claim to know us so well (bloggers, editors, authors, "experts", so on and so forth). Now, I'm really not talking about uncultured, uncivilised, barbaric behaviour here. As with all things, there are of course individuals who are simply uncultured and honestly quite barbaric and manipulative; of course, as another human being, you do want to steer clear of those kinds of people! Be they men or women! So, what I'm writing here is really not to say that I want to defend all forms of uncivilised behaviour and mentalities in females— no. But I need you to raise your consciousness higher right now and dwell upon the purpose of the female soul on a quantum and spiritual level. It is her nature to seek the lighthouse, it is her nature to yearn to be loved, it is her nature to protect what she loves, it is her nature to lavish in the elements that make her human, to swim in the very sea that is her soul! And yet it is this very nature that is attacked by modern day society and ridiculed and trampled under foot, in favour of the detached, conniving, "practical" woman of today. And there's nothing wrong with being a practical person. But if you are so practical to the point that you don't care about how you feel on the inside— that's when you know you have a problem with existing as a living being on this planet! There is not a problem with the female in general. Your, "notes-to-self" written in your lonesome corners are the published products of the monsters that you created. And it is modern day mainstream mentality that is in turn responsible for moulding these ideals in your minds, in the first place. The "monster moulds" were put there in your heads and you bought the moulds, and you baked cookies with them and then your cookies went bad, you went ahead and decided to blame it on the dough and the chocolate chips and everything else but your own cookie cutters! I am of course not saying that all women are good people and all men have made monsters out of women— no. But what I am saying, is, that it is time for every man to step back from what is being fed to him in his mind and to reflect upon what the nature of the woman really is. They have made you think that you are a, "real man" if you have a, "real woman"... the definition of, "real" here, is really actually, "unreal". I know for certain that everything I have read out there that is written about women, is not applicable to me, at least. It's probably not applicable to many other women out there, too. Like the desire to control? The desire to "catch"? They say all of us are like that... we want to, "tame" a man and after the taming is over, we are no longer interested... I find it fascinating how minds can even begin to accept this as truth! Maybe the degenerate female exudes these character traits— yes. But then there are also many degenerate males out there, and we can't all go comparing all other men to the degenerate ones. Same story with women. The articles I read don't even touch on the female soul, and they are usually, almost always, born from a story that starts out like this: "I wrote this to empower all men, everywhere, after that slut broke my heart ten years ago..." And I'm telling you that, when a story starts out like that— any story— it's the kind of advice you really want to stay away from. Like, really! That's the kind of advice that's going to plant poisonous seeds of bitterness in your minds and hearts! I want to tell all the misled "experts" out there... you are not going unseen and unwatched! I see you! You are lemmings leading other lemmings and you are not doing a good difference in the world— no. As a last statement to this piece of writing, I would like to encourage all my fellow women out there, to not fall into the trap of what men are made to think that they want! We have the power to bring back the ancient light of the divine feminine! We have to stop listening to what they say about us, and actually rise to the occasion. To the beautiful occasion of being Goddess. Women are of sound mind, we are caring, we are loyal, we are steadfast, we are flowing water, we want to be loved and we want to love, we want to be cared for and we want to care, we love truly and deeply and we fly high and freely. We are to be desired because we are true, real, authentic and vulnerable. And all of this is so very beautiful.
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
April 16, 2015
Princess
Princess
She’s the Snow WhiteWho’s afraid to beThe fairest of them all
She’s the Sleeping BeautyWho’s afraid ofTrue love’s kiss
She’s the BelleWho’s afraidOf abandoned castles
She’s the CinderellaWho’s too shyTo go to the ball
Please tell her she’s the fairestAnywayPlease kiss herAnywayPlease ask her to stayAnywayPlease give her a fairy godmotherAnyway
Because she’s worth believing in
And one day, she’ll believe, too
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved,
She’s the Snow WhiteWho’s afraid to beThe fairest of them all
She’s the Sleeping BeautyWho’s afraid ofTrue love’s kiss
She’s the BelleWho’s afraidOf abandoned castles
She’s the CinderellaWho’s too shyTo go to the ball
Please tell her she’s the fairestAnywayPlease kiss herAnywayPlease ask her to stayAnywayPlease give her a fairy godmotherAnyway
Because she’s worth believing in
And one day, she’ll believe, too
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved,
April 5, 2015
A Treatise on Things Very Important
How much of the energy that we carry around, is actually our own? How many of the voices that we hear in our heads, are actually our own tone of voice? How many of the thoughts that you have, are actually coming from your own energies, and not the thoughts that are products of energies of other people who have had influence in your life, that are encroaching upon your own?
I caught myself mid-sentence into a thought, realising that the noise in my head wasn't even my own sentiment! It was actually the voice of my mother! How odd! And then my mind picked up on this in a nano-second and I was able to identify the source of other thoughts that go through my head on a daily basis, and surprisingly, those sentiments belonged to other people who have had influence in my life, as well! The unfortunate part about that, is that it's not usually the positive voices of people in your life that leave lasting footprints upon your mind; it's more likely the negative words spoken to you that leave scars upon your thoughts, and you end up getting used to those thought patterns, that are not even a representation of yourself! It's not to say that every interaction you've had with a certain person has been negative; but it's just to say that positivity doesn't leave scars. It's negativity that leaves scars, that leaves, "debris."
So how much of the patterns that we fall into, are not actually representations of ourselves or how we actually feel as individuals? How much of the noise in your head is from voices representing opinions that are not even your own? Because if you can identify who those voices belong to— you can free yourself!
I was just telling my son yesterday, about how it is the nature of things with roots within ourselves, to become uprooted upon discovery! There are things in our souls that are like moulds on bathroom walls! They thrive because it's moist and there's no sunlight. You uproot the moulds in your soul simply by tearing off the ceiling, or by breaking open the windows, or by really just burning down the walls! How does this happen? By simple discovery! There is no work involved! These things may only exist when they go undiscovered; but once they are discovered? Their roots disintegrate!
When you are able to catch your thoughts in mid-sentence, and pick up on the fact that the tone of voice isn't even your own— you are able to uproot the influence of that very same opinion in your head! How many people are you allowing to rent your mind? And the pay for that rent isn't even good! The pay they are giving you is heartache, broken relationships, and wayward thinking! Now, I do not mean this in a schizophrenic kind of a way; but I mean this in an everyday way, the kind where we're all walking around with opinions and wayward thinking left in our minds by past relationships and by negative experiences with people of influence in our lives. But if you do have schizophrenia— who knows— perhaps the same basic principle applies! I don't know, but maybe!
We think that we can go through life bravely enough to take things like broken relationships and precarious situations, head-on! But the reality is that we are left scarred and the scars are honestly not worth it. That is why I am an advocate of self-care, and of not "Y-O-L-O-ing" around! Sure, "you only live once", but what's on the other side of that? On the other side of that, you're dead! And that's a pretty big price to pay, I think!
Regardless of where the opinions in our minds come from— whether they come from our direct choices that we've made to take people and situations head-on with disregard to the outcome; or whether they come from circumstances that we couldn't control, like when we were children and were vulnerable in life and couldn't make our own choices— we've got to start catching ourselves mid-sentence into thought! We've got to start identifying where our negative vibes come from, why they're there, and really stop to ask ourselves, Do I even support this belief? Is this even my own experience, or am I carrying this around because someone I loved so much was hurt in this way? Does this opinion even resonate with my own energy in life? Is this energy I'm carrying around even my own?
Lots of times, people can act like you are an "energy trashcan" and really just dump their own negative energy onto you! Stuff that you don't need and don't deserve! In fact, I like to think of the issue of borders and immigration, as the macro picture of what is going on, on a micro level! On the micro level, you've got people in your everyday life encroaching upon your own personal energy field resources! You have your own borders; but these borders are pushed upon and tested! We see this on the macro level with immigration issues. The same principle applies to our daily lives as individuals. YOU have to exercise your energy boundaries! YOU have to preserve your energy levels! I don't think people realise that what we see in the world is a reflection of what is going on, on a quantum level! The quantum level being the sub-atomic particles of YOU! Your energy resources, within your own auric field, are precious natural resources that other people will inevitably covet and will try to get a piece of— in any way possible! They can do this by trying to elicit emotional reactions from you through provocation, they can try to do this by really just preying on your predisposition to be there for others and to listen to them, they can do this by picking a fight! Because in all of these scenarios, there is an exchange of energy that happens between you and the other individual.
You've got to treat your energy like gold. On the spiritual levels, gold can be compared to AEther/ The AEth. You've got to treat your AEther like you'd treat gold in your savings account. You've got to guard it and really choose the people whom you allow to interact with it and to draw from it. ESPECIALLY if you are a high-vibrational individual!
Uproot the moulds in your soul by burning down the walls and letting in the sunlight. Protect yourselves from new mildew growth, by guarding your energy interactions with people and by choosing the people you let into that circle. Your circle of magic is not comprised by you and other individuals; your circle of magic is the circle that your have drawn around yourself, with your own energies! And you choose whom you let into that circle! And make sure that the voice you hear in your mind is your own; either that, or the voices of Angels.
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
I caught myself mid-sentence into a thought, realising that the noise in my head wasn't even my own sentiment! It was actually the voice of my mother! How odd! And then my mind picked up on this in a nano-second and I was able to identify the source of other thoughts that go through my head on a daily basis, and surprisingly, those sentiments belonged to other people who have had influence in my life, as well! The unfortunate part about that, is that it's not usually the positive voices of people in your life that leave lasting footprints upon your mind; it's more likely the negative words spoken to you that leave scars upon your thoughts, and you end up getting used to those thought patterns, that are not even a representation of yourself! It's not to say that every interaction you've had with a certain person has been negative; but it's just to say that positivity doesn't leave scars. It's negativity that leaves scars, that leaves, "debris."
So how much of the patterns that we fall into, are not actually representations of ourselves or how we actually feel as individuals? How much of the noise in your head is from voices representing opinions that are not even your own? Because if you can identify who those voices belong to— you can free yourself!
I was just telling my son yesterday, about how it is the nature of things with roots within ourselves, to become uprooted upon discovery! There are things in our souls that are like moulds on bathroom walls! They thrive because it's moist and there's no sunlight. You uproot the moulds in your soul simply by tearing off the ceiling, or by breaking open the windows, or by really just burning down the walls! How does this happen? By simple discovery! There is no work involved! These things may only exist when they go undiscovered; but once they are discovered? Their roots disintegrate!
When you are able to catch your thoughts in mid-sentence, and pick up on the fact that the tone of voice isn't even your own— you are able to uproot the influence of that very same opinion in your head! How many people are you allowing to rent your mind? And the pay for that rent isn't even good! The pay they are giving you is heartache, broken relationships, and wayward thinking! Now, I do not mean this in a schizophrenic kind of a way; but I mean this in an everyday way, the kind where we're all walking around with opinions and wayward thinking left in our minds by past relationships and by negative experiences with people of influence in our lives. But if you do have schizophrenia— who knows— perhaps the same basic principle applies! I don't know, but maybe!
We think that we can go through life bravely enough to take things like broken relationships and precarious situations, head-on! But the reality is that we are left scarred and the scars are honestly not worth it. That is why I am an advocate of self-care, and of not "Y-O-L-O-ing" around! Sure, "you only live once", but what's on the other side of that? On the other side of that, you're dead! And that's a pretty big price to pay, I think!
Regardless of where the opinions in our minds come from— whether they come from our direct choices that we've made to take people and situations head-on with disregard to the outcome; or whether they come from circumstances that we couldn't control, like when we were children and were vulnerable in life and couldn't make our own choices— we've got to start catching ourselves mid-sentence into thought! We've got to start identifying where our negative vibes come from, why they're there, and really stop to ask ourselves, Do I even support this belief? Is this even my own experience, or am I carrying this around because someone I loved so much was hurt in this way? Does this opinion even resonate with my own energy in life? Is this energy I'm carrying around even my own?
Lots of times, people can act like you are an "energy trashcan" and really just dump their own negative energy onto you! Stuff that you don't need and don't deserve! In fact, I like to think of the issue of borders and immigration, as the macro picture of what is going on, on a micro level! On the micro level, you've got people in your everyday life encroaching upon your own personal energy field resources! You have your own borders; but these borders are pushed upon and tested! We see this on the macro level with immigration issues. The same principle applies to our daily lives as individuals. YOU have to exercise your energy boundaries! YOU have to preserve your energy levels! I don't think people realise that what we see in the world is a reflection of what is going on, on a quantum level! The quantum level being the sub-atomic particles of YOU! Your energy resources, within your own auric field, are precious natural resources that other people will inevitably covet and will try to get a piece of— in any way possible! They can do this by trying to elicit emotional reactions from you through provocation, they can try to do this by really just preying on your predisposition to be there for others and to listen to them, they can do this by picking a fight! Because in all of these scenarios, there is an exchange of energy that happens between you and the other individual.
You've got to treat your energy like gold. On the spiritual levels, gold can be compared to AEther/ The AEth. You've got to treat your AEther like you'd treat gold in your savings account. You've got to guard it and really choose the people whom you allow to interact with it and to draw from it. ESPECIALLY if you are a high-vibrational individual!
Uproot the moulds in your soul by burning down the walls and letting in the sunlight. Protect yourselves from new mildew growth, by guarding your energy interactions with people and by choosing the people you let into that circle. Your circle of magic is not comprised by you and other individuals; your circle of magic is the circle that your have drawn around yourself, with your own energies! And you choose whom you let into that circle! And make sure that the voice you hear in your mind is your own; either that, or the voices of Angels.
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
#2VadeMecum Book Release
Hey wonderfuls! This book is now available, as of Easter Day!
ISBN-10: 1508534179
ISBN-13: 9781508534174
Direct E-store: www.createspace.com/5324936
Sequel to, "the little white book", this "little blue book" carries all of the gold that the first book harbours, and then some!
The first Vade Mecum has been put to good use by loyal supporters and zealous readers, who never let her out of their sight! Carried in handbags and briefcases the world over, she has become exactly what she was created to be!
This little blue book continues with the legacy of the white one, while building upon more evolved subject matter. You will find many morsels of knowledge on the topics of soul alchemy and science, as well as a stronger push in the areas of women's issues and societal transformation.
You will surely, without a doubt, always take her with you!
ISBN-10: 1508534179
ISBN-13: 9781508534174
Direct E-store: www.createspace.com/5324936
Sequel to, "the little white book", this "little blue book" carries all of the gold that the first book harbours, and then some!
The first Vade Mecum has been put to good use by loyal supporters and zealous readers, who never let her out of their sight! Carried in handbags and briefcases the world over, she has become exactly what she was created to be!
This little blue book continues with the legacy of the white one, while building upon more evolved subject matter. You will find many morsels of knowledge on the topics of soul alchemy and science, as well as a stronger push in the areas of women's issues and societal transformation.
You will surely, without a doubt, always take her with you!
March 28, 2015
You and Your Candle
Darkness is not as powerful as the light. That sounds cliche, but do you actually understand why this is the case? Please listen while I explain. Darkness is not as powerful as the light, because it is the nature of darkness to appear bigger than it actually is. This is true physically as well as metaphysically and spiritually. In a dark room, we are able to imagine many horrendous things, we think there is more there than what is actually there! We think there is more in darkness, but there is actually a lot less. There is just darkness, which can be dispelled by even a tiny amount of light. And that is why light is more powerful than the dark; because light, in itself alone, without pretending to be anything more than what it is, is all of itself and embodies all of itself and in doing so, is able to dispel illusions of the mind. More than half of darkness is phantom; is not what is actually real. All it takes is a single candle to make the mind aware of that fact. And that is why, gentleness will always be stronger, humility will always be more powerful, understanding, love and open mindedness will always be more powerful than their counterparts. A candle will always be stronger than the night.
Ask yourself, why is there so much deception in darkness? I have been deceived by darkness pretending to be light and I'm sure you have been, too! But have you stopped to ask yourself why there is deception in darkness? Why must darkness deceive in order to pass itself off as light? Why must a wolf cloak itself in sheepskin? Why must a hag appear as a young princess? Why? Well, it is exactly because of the reason that what is weaker must fake itself to be that which is powerful. It is the weak that must pass itself off as strong; it is never the strong that must pass itself off as weak! The only circumstance in which you will find the light disguised as the darkness, is when a bright being, after having experienced too much hurt and too much disappointment, will disguise itself to protect itself. But you will always eventually uncover the true nature and that darkness will surely fall off! Just how the true nature of darkness will inevitably be discovered and the disguise of light will soon crumble to the ground!
Darkness will play with the characteristic traits of light, in order to deceive it. The characteristic traits of light are hope, trust, gentleness. The dark know that the light will hope easily, will trust easily and will not stab in the back. Darkness, in all of its self-entitlement, will play with these, to its own advantage. But the only success that the dark ever have in such cases, is due to the fact that we have been taught since childhood that the light is reactive instead of proactive; that the light is defensive instead of assertive; that the light is needy instead of empowered; that the light is downcast and trodden upon while others rise and succeed. We are taught lies about the light and it is because of this fact, that the darkness has won too many times. But the truth is that the light is what causes the plants and the trees to grow. It is the light that calls to the seed in the ground and with her call, causes that seed to sprout veins and leaves! It is the fire that can burn an entire city down! In fact, a single candle can burn an entire city down! Can the darkness burn anything down? No! Can the darkness call to life in the ground and conjure up a tree? A vineyard? A rose? Never. It is the light that is assertive; it is the light that is to be feared; it is the light that is to be loved; it is the light that is empowered and powerful.
Sometimes, the lights are turned off because we cease to look in the light, we cease to reach out and to grasp. The lights in our lives are sometimes turned off, because it is in the darkness that we reach out and grasp for whatever our hands can touch! The darkness conceals treasures that are often overlooked by us, when the light is always on! We forget the power and the good fortune of light, and it is in darkness that we are reminded of these!
I want you to remember fire, I want you to remember that even if you carry only a single candle with you, this is enough to burn a city down. Many times in my own life, I have had but a single candle with me, and I have protected that candle from the winds and the storms, holding onto it, shielding it... but with that single flame, I have been able to burn cities down and light the bonfires that have cooked the food of high feasts! I want you to remember that with your single flame— you can overcome! You can burn down the walls that surround you, you can prepare a feast for yourself and those who are with you, you can light many other fires and many other candles, too! You can burn down the rooms of isolation that stand in the vacant spaces of your mind. You can burn the bridges that lead back to the things that hurt you, to the things that blind you and to the things that weaken you. And you can light up lanterns along the new paths that you take.
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
Ask yourself, why is there so much deception in darkness? I have been deceived by darkness pretending to be light and I'm sure you have been, too! But have you stopped to ask yourself why there is deception in darkness? Why must darkness deceive in order to pass itself off as light? Why must a wolf cloak itself in sheepskin? Why must a hag appear as a young princess? Why? Well, it is exactly because of the reason that what is weaker must fake itself to be that which is powerful. It is the weak that must pass itself off as strong; it is never the strong that must pass itself off as weak! The only circumstance in which you will find the light disguised as the darkness, is when a bright being, after having experienced too much hurt and too much disappointment, will disguise itself to protect itself. But you will always eventually uncover the true nature and that darkness will surely fall off! Just how the true nature of darkness will inevitably be discovered and the disguise of light will soon crumble to the ground!
Darkness will play with the characteristic traits of light, in order to deceive it. The characteristic traits of light are hope, trust, gentleness. The dark know that the light will hope easily, will trust easily and will not stab in the back. Darkness, in all of its self-entitlement, will play with these, to its own advantage. But the only success that the dark ever have in such cases, is due to the fact that we have been taught since childhood that the light is reactive instead of proactive; that the light is defensive instead of assertive; that the light is needy instead of empowered; that the light is downcast and trodden upon while others rise and succeed. We are taught lies about the light and it is because of this fact, that the darkness has won too many times. But the truth is that the light is what causes the plants and the trees to grow. It is the light that calls to the seed in the ground and with her call, causes that seed to sprout veins and leaves! It is the fire that can burn an entire city down! In fact, a single candle can burn an entire city down! Can the darkness burn anything down? No! Can the darkness call to life in the ground and conjure up a tree? A vineyard? A rose? Never. It is the light that is assertive; it is the light that is to be feared; it is the light that is to be loved; it is the light that is empowered and powerful.
Sometimes, the lights are turned off because we cease to look in the light, we cease to reach out and to grasp. The lights in our lives are sometimes turned off, because it is in the darkness that we reach out and grasp for whatever our hands can touch! The darkness conceals treasures that are often overlooked by us, when the light is always on! We forget the power and the good fortune of light, and it is in darkness that we are reminded of these!
I want you to remember fire, I want you to remember that even if you carry only a single candle with you, this is enough to burn a city down. Many times in my own life, I have had but a single candle with me, and I have protected that candle from the winds and the storms, holding onto it, shielding it... but with that single flame, I have been able to burn cities down and light the bonfires that have cooked the food of high feasts! I want you to remember that with your single flame— you can overcome! You can burn down the walls that surround you, you can prepare a feast for yourself and those who are with you, you can light many other fires and many other candles, too! You can burn down the rooms of isolation that stand in the vacant spaces of your mind. You can burn the bridges that lead back to the things that hurt you, to the things that blind you and to the things that weaken you. And you can light up lanterns along the new paths that you take.
Copyright © 2015 C. JoyBell C. All rights reserved.
